Tuesday, August 30, 2016

This is useless..........................................

What is my plan.......................................... O lord.......................................... Dream of smoothness.......................................... And you will grant all.......................................... Invite all happiness.......................................... Near me.......................................... Fill me in.......................................... Until i explode.......................................... Love is you.......................................... Lust is you.......................................... Amazing feeling.......................................... Curiosity never ends.......................................... Never ending story.......................................... End when it ends.......................................... Still unpredictable..........................................

Lust of hatred..........................................

On this day.......................................... Until you fix all.......................................... Inside my body.......................................... Nothing else matters.......................................... Give me something.......................................... The sign of you.......................................... Here with me.......................................... Enormous stone on my chest.......................................... Rage is in my head.......................................... At this point.......................................... I cant love you.......................................... Numb my heart.......................................... Drive me crazy.......................................... Risk all my life.......................................... Out of my happiness.......................................... Please lord..........................................

God..........................................

Oh my lord.......................................... Dream you helping me.......................................... All is in your hand.......................................... Let me have this.......................................... Merry in my day.......................................... Ignore my pain.......................................... Give me light.......................................... Hope you bring me sun.......................................... Tomorrow still comes.......................................... You are still you.......................................... Very irritating.......................................... Everytime i try to love you.......................................... Ruin my life.......................................... Sometimes i wonder.......................................... Us in your creation.......................................... Sincere is what in you.......................................... It is what it is.......................................... Sun is not as bright as you.......................................... It is dark in disguise.......................................... Since you are you..........................................

To come here early..........................................

Here i have a lot of jobs.......................................... Error makes everything bad.......................................... Should i curse you.......................................... Curse you to hell.......................................... After what is what.......................................... Ruin everything.......................................... You are responsible for this.......................................... Noone else.......................................... Everything is in your hand.......................................... What should i do.......................................... Swear i hate you.......................................... On this beautiful morning.......................................... Fuck this shit.......................................... Hell destined.......................................... All is black.......................................... Till when.......................................... Else god.......................................... Remind me.......................................... Shoot you later..........................................

Beautiful you..........................................

Emerald of heart.......................................... Light of blacknes.......................................... And then come you.......................................... More of you.......................................... In this thought.......................................... On this brain.......................................... Nobody can prevent it.......................................... Love is you.......................................... Imitate the nature.......................................... Nature of heaven.......................................... Eden on earth..........................................

Worry me as dead..........................................

Everybody is in fear.......................................... Luring me to the dark thought.......................................... Coz it is dark in real.......................................... On the screen everywhere.......................................... More than this brain can handle.......................................... Everytime every air.......................................... People got catastrophe.......................................... Give them more pain.......................................... Suffer all the way.......................................... Drown in blood..........................................

God oh god..........................................

On this earth.......................................... On this universe.......................................... Dare you present them.......................................... Before everybody.......................................... You are cruel.......................................... Everyone hurts.......................................... Must it be like this.......................................... All of the sufferings.......................................... They are yours.......................................... Every each of them.......................................... Misunderstanding.......................................... Always.......................................... To see you through.......................................... Idiot is all of us.......................................... Kill each other.......................................... All of the name of you..........................................

That obstacle..........................................

Hold me down.......................................... Erase my happiness.......................................... Erode my calm.......................................... Raise my anger.......................................... Ruin my smile.......................................... O dear lord.......................................... Read my thought.......................................... Simply help me.......................................... You can do that.......................................... Since you are my home.......................................... Till the end of time.......................................... End of the world.......................................... Maybe you and me.......................................... Forever..........................................

Being fat..........................................

Redo what the usual.......................................... Eat uncontrollable.......................................... After you realize.......................................... Kill the desire.......................................... Fasten the belt.......................................... Again and again.......................................... Sit tight.......................................... Talk quietly.......................................... To them.......................................... That you are done.......................................... You are sick of them.......................................... You dont want them.......................................... Anymore.......................................... Again.......................................... Forever..........................................

The new place..........................................

Feeling guilty.......................................... Being not there.......................................... What if they are expecting me.......................................... Thank god.......................................... There is news.......................................... There is no table yet.......................................... So i can be here.......................................... As long as i can.......................................... My comfort zone..........................................

The new place..........................................

The new place.......................................... Feeling guilty.......................................... Being not there.......................................... What if they are expecting me.......................................... Thank god.......................................... There is news.......................................... There is no table yet.......................................... So i can be here.......................................... As long as i can.......................................... My comfort zone..........................................

The new place..........................................

The new place.......................................... Feeling guilty.......................................... Being not there.......................................... What if they are expecting me.......................................... Thank god.......................................... There is news.......................................... There is no table yet.......................................... So i can be here.......................................... As long as i can.......................................... My comfort zone..........................................

The wrong place..........................................

They say.......................................... I should not be here.......................................... They give me the new one.......................................... Not here.......................................... There.......................................... But the feeling is strange.......................................... The comfortable zone.......................................... The reluctant.......................................... Dont want out of here.......................................... Want to stay.......................................... Forever.......................................... And ever..........................................

The one and only ..........................................

This is it.......................................... The holy spirit.......................................... For starting the new day.......................................... The one thing that got me out of bed.......................................... The only thing that help me through the day.......................................... Keep fighting.......................................... Be spiritful.......................................... Conquer the day.......................................... Conquer the world.......................................... You are special..........................................

The one and only ..........................................

The one and only .......................................... This is it.......................................... The holy spirit.......................................... For starting the new day.......................................... The one thing that got me out of bed.......................................... The only thing that help me through the day.......................................... Keep fighting.......................................... Be spiritful.......................................... Conquer the day.......................................... Conquer the world.......................................... You are special..........................................

Saturday, August 27, 2016

The only one.....................

Wish you can see..................... Inside my head..................... What makes me depressed..................... But you can..................... You are the only one..................... Who can do that..................... You see..................... You understand..................... Then comes the question..................... What is the solution..................... Give me one..................... Maybe the pray..................... The old saying..................... What do you think is good for you is not..................... And vice verca..................... What do you think is bad for you is not .....................

Comfort room ..........................

Like it used to be.......................... Smoothly run.......................... More than just me.......................... There are others.......................... She sits there.......................... Beautifully.......................... Doing her things.......................... The voices of them.......................... Knowing them.......................... Make the heart at ease.......................... Calm.......................... There are friends.......................... Companies.......................... Not alone..........................

Thursday night...........................

They talk about it...... ................................................ It is very famous........................... Makes panick of the lonely heart........................... Makes dark of the solitaire soul........................... What is it important........................... Is it true........................... Everybody talks........................... The sweaty night........................... The blessed souls........................... For the lucky ones........................... And the unlucky ones........................... Everyone........................... Coz he loves all........................... He blesses all...........................

Beautiful creature...........................

First he postpones........................... Feel afraid........................... He will cheat........................... He will reject........................... He will ignore........................... He will leave........................... But he comes........................... The moon beautifies........................... The stars magnify........................... The room lits up........................... My face brightens........................... You make this........................... You bless this........................... You love this........................... You love us........................... You love me...........................

Sutiyah’s cloth...........................

Feeling good........................... Nothing gonna happen........................... But i was wrong........................... Something happens........................... Making me depressed........................... So gloomy........................... What will the future be........................... Is it dark........................... Is it grey........................... Is it light........................... But i must be positive........................... It will be light........................... As the sun shines........................... Brightly........................... Over the universe...........................

Something new...........................

Out of the box........................... It is really shocking........................... I am very amazed........................... What will happen........................... This is not my area........................... There are two possibilities........................... I teach but i dont understand........................... So i will do whatever i want........................... I will make them into groups........................... And will force them to do presentation........................... I will listen........................... I will learn........................... Whatever happen........................... I will do........................... The second one........................... I will ask them to change........................... But in my opinion........................... That will not happen........................... So i will search about it........................... I will learn bout it........................... From net........................... From book........................... What is management........................... What is education...........................

Chaos...........................

Awaken........................... In the middle of the night........................... Chaos head........................... The extreme pain........................... I want to open my skull........................... Reach inside........................... Squeeze the brain........................... Damn........................... This is painful........................... Mighty loed........................... The headache........................... Take it away........................... Forever...........................

rage ...........................

Watching myself........................... In that box........................... It is a funny thing........................... I am stupid........................... Anger me........................... I am ugly........................... Makes me furious........................... It happens again........................... The error........................... Makes me angry........................... Burn my body........................... Very irritatting........................... Stop my job........................... Block my activity...........................

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

Pain......................

Holy fuck...................... I write alot...................... Coz of you...................... You cant stop me...................... It takes toll...................... Everyone burdened...................... Pressed to the ground...................... Underneath the grave...................... Bury me deep...................... On the cell block...................... Where i am not ok...................... I lose my mind...................... There is the tree...................... I should crash it...................... Hit myself......................

anger......................

it burns...................... inside out...................... stay with us...................... lets walk...................... to the light...................... lets find some peace...................... in the dark...................... where noone there...................... in the fenced box...................... when you can hold me tight...................... from behind...................... in the shower...................... with water showering...................... our heads...................... to wash away the blood...................... inside the brain......................

the videos................

questioning................ the burning................ the running................ the slashing................ you are not there................ you are not here................ i hate you................ completely................ the shaking................ it is real................ hiding is no use................ it is in my head................ it follows me................ everywhere................

the punishment................

the moon is high................ the call of the century................ they kill each other................ bodies everywhere................ you smile................ you see................ you capture................ you talk................ you chat................ what the hell................ the yellow snake................ the iron snake................ pass smoothly................ as if nothing happens................ nothing................

The shooting sound................

Can you live by it? ................ After seeing that horrible thing................ Why do you show me that................ You heartless to the core................ You know that in your bone................ Dont you................ I have a weak heart................ But you keep pushing me................ Showing me nasty shit................ And it stays................ On my brain................ Forever................ Disgusting................

Seduce empty words................

You are many things................ But transparent................ I cant read you................ What is the purpose................ You are disaster................ You are catasthrope................ Your silence tells everything................ Your watching is your ignorance................ Nothing change is made by you................ It keeps bleeding................ What do you want................ Can you pretend for once? ................ That you are care................ Really??? ................

Finally elephant................

The sharp eyes................ The sneaky face................ The mocking expression................ The curious aura................ Hate you................ Really hate you................ Want to kill you................ Then................ The black people................ The history of darkness................ The sheep fight of framing................ The blood of innocent................ The blood flood flows wild................ The singing of sad................ The song of sorrow................ The scream of gloom................ Are you there? ................

Too much................

Full................ Too many................ Stupid order................ It has been awhile................ Time to go home................ But my butt wont move................ It feels comfortable here................ The cool air................ The noisy................ The voices................ The faces................ Feast for the eyes................ Then he looks at me................ What................ Do you want me................ Come here................ I dare you................ Stupid man................ You have your partner................ There................

Elephant basket................

Naughty................ Want it very bad................ But yesterday................ I had bought many elephants................ Very expensive................ Spent a lot of money................ Now i want more................ I am addicted................ Elephant is beautiful................ Very pretty................ Calm my soul................ Calm my life................ Accompany me................ In my room................ Full of them................ Many elephants................

Hoodie................

I write it................ Then he comes................ With yellow hoodie................ In the next table................ Flattered................ Self concious................ Very................ Hope he notices me................ Hey................ I am here................ Look at me................ Look at you................ By yourself................ Where is your partner................ Are you alone................ Can i sit there................ Just an imagination................

Always like this................

Cant don anything alone................ By myself................ Always asking for company................ Why am i childish................ Why can i be mature................ Why can i be independent................ Be brave................ Doing everything alone................ By myself................ Conquer the world................ Visiting new places................ All by myself................ On my own................

Lets go to the top................

Lets scream our heart out................ Lets him hear it................ Just make him notice................ That we are exist................ Roaming the city................ Dont know where to go................ Dont want the usual................ Want something new................ But had no idea................ Finally................ That spot................ The one that i had ever been................ Although want something completely new................

Then you are the star................

Then you are the prince................ The king................ You can rule my world................ You can rule my heart................ My love................ My life................ Just dont do like others................ Hurt me................ Leave me................ Scar me to death................

The small blue black................

Black heart................ Want to kill him................ Always disturbing................ Makes me irritated................ Wants to run away................ But no power at all................ Feel trapped................ Cant do my jobs................ Just ignoring him................ Wishing he leaves soon................ Thus i will run................

The small blue black................

The small blue black................ Black heart................ Want to kill him................ Always disturbing................ Makes me irritated................ Wants to run away................ But no power at all................ Feel trapped................ Cant do my jobs................ Just ignoring him................ Wishing he leaves soon................ Thus i will run................

Enigmatic................

I hate it................ When you suddenly come................ When i am very busy................ With a lot of things to do................ You appear of nowhere................ Walk through my head................ Running around in my brain................ Flasing all the memories................ The good................ The bad................ Makesme angry................ Makes me cry................ Missing you so bad................ Yearning to meet you................

The flare................

Dont know................ It is in my head................ But i cant grasp it................ It is there................ But cant quite understand................ Need it................ Makes me confused................ The emptiness inside................ The hollow heart................ The flare is gone................ Nothing to ignite................ Just posing................ The blank face................

Sincere................

The death scene................ The black parade................ The gloomy air................ The church................ Cheek to cheek................ Silent concolences................ Teaches us................ Stri the brain................ To think................ To grasp new state................ Something old................ Very hidden................ Forbidden dance................ Express sincerely................
Sincere................ The death scene................ The black parade................ The gloomy air................ The church................ Cheek to cheek................ Silent concolences................ Teaches us................ Stri the brain................ To think................ To grasp new state................ Something old................ Very hidden................ Forbidden dance................ Express sincerely................

Captivating................

I want her to avenge her fate................ The bitch ruins her................ The bastard damages her................ But she does nothing................ She accepts all................ Maybe i got it wrong................ Maybe there is another thing in her................ That i dont understand................ The part that her surrender is much more precious than revenge................

Giving speech................

Listen carefully................ Scare me................ The voices................ The looks................ The eyes................ Poking you everywhere................ Stabbing you so deep................ Bleeding the blue................ Differ from others................ Becomes the target................ Everyone wants a piece................

Giving speech................

Giving speech................ Listen carefully................ Scare me................ The voices................ The looks................ The eyes................ Poking you everywhere................ Stabbing you so deep................ Bleeding the blue................ Differ from others................ Becomes the target................ Everyone wants a piece................
Giving speech................ Listen carefully................ Scare me................ The voices................ The looks................ The eyes................ Poking you everywhere................ Stabbing you so deep................ Bleeding the blue................ Differ from others................ Becomes the target................ Everyone wants a piece................

Wearing black................

Being there................ Being not there................ Being everywhere................ Seeing people................ Who miss him................ Who hate him................ Who curse him................ Dont care................ Flying freely................ The eye in the sky................ See all................ Dont understand all................

Being the assistant................

Going places................ Being happy................ Doing selfie................ Showing others................ Experience all................ Taste the differences................ Make you learn................ Make you think................ Make you realize................ Everything is not the same................

The wrong book................

Stupid me................ Being in a hurry................ Not being careful................ Pick up carelessly................ Shame on you................ Very foolish................ Get the consequences................ What had been done................ You got to take it................ Lets continue................ To use it................ As amazing sheet................ To express being you................ Just you................ Not others................

The popcorn................

The young ones................ Make the mouth watering................ Ake the imagination goes wild................ Full of sweat................ Full of sigh................ Of relief................ Of wanting more................ Taking turn................ The taste of heavenly liquid................ That they say it is a cure................ To kepp you young................ To keep you strong................ Thus................ You can conquer the world................ Defeat all the black................ Helped by the red................ The blazing flame................ Burn you................ Lure you there................ To the pitch dark................

The calling................

Always move the heart................ Make goosebump................ Screaming................ Hoping the sound flies to the cloud................ Reach him................ Accepted by him................ Then he does something................ To change the black................ Into white................ The pure bliss................ Blessed state................ Facing the west................ Whispering the sentences................ The black box................ Magnificent................ Circled by circling steps................ Around and around................

The calling................

The calling................ Always move the heart................ Make goosebump................ Screaming................ Hoping the sound flies to the cloud................ Reach him................ Accepted by him................ Then he does something................ To change the black................ Into white................ The pure bliss................ Blessed state................ Facing the west................ Whispering the sentences................ The black box................ Magnificent................ Circled by circling steps................ Around and around................

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