Sick…………….

Maybe it is a sign from him……………. That I need to rest……………. My body needs to rest……………. But there are so many jobs……………. And I have to do that……………. I have to finish them all……………. And I will……………. I believe I can……………. There is him……………. He is always there……………. Around me……………. In me …………….

Don’t want to go back to the office……………………

There are many problems…………………… The morning class is problem…………………… It is not at the beginning…………………… But now it is added the problem with the boss…………………… When the pupils publish it…………………… About me…………………… About my class…………………… About my assignment…………………… About my English assignment…………………… And then the afternoon class is also problem…………………… In the end the last class becomes victim…………………… Don’t want to teach…………………… Sorry lord…………………… I want to calm myself…………………… I need a quiet place…………………… I cant work at home…………………… The koreas disturb me…………………… I cant work at office…………………… They disturb me…………………… Maybe I can use mak room…………………… Lets try that…………………… Lets do that…………………… Will do that…………………… With god permission ……………………

Don’t want to go back to the office……………………

Don’t want to go back to the office…………………… There are many problems…………………… The morning class is problem…………………… It is not at the beginning…………………… But now it is added the problem with the boss…………………… When the pupils publish it…………………… About me…………………… About my class…………………… About my assignment…………………… About my English assignment…………………… And then the afternoon class is also problem…………………… In the end the last class becomes victim…………………… Don’t want to teach…………………… Sorry lord…………………… I want to calm myself…………………… I need a quiet place…………………… I cant work at home…………………… The koreas disturb me…………………… I cant work at office…………………… They disturb me…………………… Maybe I can use mak room…………………… Lets try that…………………… Lets do that…………………… Will do that…………………… With god permission ……………………

Now is confused…………………

Don’t want to go home………………… Because there is construction process………………… It must be noisy………………… It must be dusty………………… And there is her………………… God………………… Help………………… I cant stand it if there is her………………… Don’t know………………… I have tried………………… But I cant do it yet………………… Only you the one who can………………… Help me………………… Assist me …………………

Sleep at the movie…………………

Annoyed………………… The story is good………………… Blame myself………………… Very angry………………… Want not to be angry………………… But how………………… Don’t know the way………………… Give it to him………………… Alright………………… I give it all to you………………… Please accept it………………… Please solve it………………… Please help it………………… It is a sign………………… That my body needs to rest………………… But I force it to work all the time………………… Without resting………………… But that is because of the circumstances………………… Not because I want to do that………………… There are many jobs to do………………… To be done………………… To be solved………………… To be finished………………… And the jobs never stop ………………… It is coming and coming …………………

Not when they adore rainbow……………………..

Not when they are amazed by rainbow…………………….. Not when they reached rainbow…………………….. But when the rainbow smiles…………………….. Stand tall…………………….. Full of meanings…………………….. Color the sky…………………….. Touch the earth…………………….. That is when…………………….. The wings clap…………………….. The light blooms…………………….. The universe dance ……………………..

Morning class is error…………………….

The boss is error……………………. The afternoon class is error……………………. And then the reflection……………………. And then feel a lot of sin done……………………. A lot of mistake done……………………. Blame myself……………………. Getting depressed……………………. The cycles is on……………………. Today is weird……………………. They got distance……………………. It is fine……………………. I can do my jobs……………………. There are a lot……………………. So lets do this……………………. Being alone……………………. Being ignored……………………. Being alienated……………………. Just the two of us……………………. Me and you……………………. Yes you……………………. You are all I have …………………….

24 okt 17 selasa…………………….

Kampus……………………. Kelaspg eror……………………. Pjoko erir……………………. Kls siang eror……………………. Paragon……………………. Nonton foreigner……………………. Nonton geostorm……………………. Jemput amin……………………. Diner at pandawa……………………. Ngantar amin……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

23 okt `17 senen…………………….

Kampus……………………. Takziah at mbak win……………………. W pjoko bmei bika banggun psena……………………. Mampir psena……………………. Kampus……………………. Diner w psena banggun psinggih pafian……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

22 okt 17 minggu…………………….

Nyuci motor……………………. Makan……………………. Kampus……………………. Klinik……………………. Java nonton……………………. Pedurungan ambil tas……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

21 okt 17 sabtu…………………….

Dinus……………………. Sore dijemput ali……………………. Marina……………………. Simpanglima……………………. Diantar ali……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

20 okt 17 jumat…………………….

Kampus……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

19 okt 17 kamis…………………….

Kmps……………………. Mlm dijemput amin……………………. Ntn viavalen at upgris……………………. Ngantar ari……………………. Bakso……………………. Amin nginep……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

18 okt 17 rabu…………………….

Kmps……………………. Pulgsk……………………. Mlm at cl……………………. Family diner……………………. Ciprut ultah……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

17 okt 17 selasa…………………….

Wrg……………………. Kmps……………………. Wrg……………………. Alfmrt……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

16 okt 17 senen ……………………

Kampus……………………. Allahuakbar…………………….

Sick again……………………

But I cant complain…………………… They say sick is sin eraser…………………… Hope all that is true…………………… It must be true…………………… That is his promise…………………… His words…………………… He never lie……………………

It is enough god……………………

There will be always someone new…………………… A better one…………………… For the thought of that moment…………………… If I choose him…………………… There will be a new one someday…………………… It is enough god…………………… I am tired…………………… I don’t want my heart to wander…………………… Make my eyes enough…………………… Make my heart enough…………………… To one person only…………………… Forever…………………… I want to land…………………… Make a harbor for me…………………… Show a harbor for me ……………………

My ear is ache……………………

My throat is ache…………………… What is happening to me…………………… What the hell…………………… I am breaking down…………………… Inside out…………………… Before …………………… I enjoy it a lot…………………… They are quiet…………………… Smart…………………… Listening to me…………………… I am happy…………………… They are happy…………………… This one…………………… Oh my god…………………… With the name of god…………………… Must be patient…………………… Scary…………………… With the help from god…………………… I curse you all…………………… To be good ……………………

Don’t want to go home……………………

Why…………………… Just consider it as usual…………………… Devil? …………………… Of course they are exist…………………… Because it is said in the book…………………… But as long as we don’t disturb them…………………… They will not disturb us…………………… Let them…………………… They let us…………………… Be good to them…………………… They are good to us…………………… That is it ……………………

Tired……………………

A lot of jobs…………………… I am confused…………………… Stressed…………………… I don’t know…………………… How it is happened…………………… The jobs are never stopped…………………… Don’t wait for free time for god…………………… Make free time for god…………………… Then god will make time for you…………………… Do that…………………… Thus you can do many things ……………………

15 okt 17 minggi……………………

Seharian d rumah…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

14 okt 17 sabtu……………………

Dinus…………………… Klinik…………………… Belnja at superindo…………………… Mlm amin k rumah…………………… Nginep…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

13 okt 17 jumat……………………

Kampus…………………… Bca…………………… Mlm alim mranggen k rumah…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

12 okt 17 kamis……………………

Kampus…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

11 okt 17 rabu……………………

Kampus…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

10 okt 17 selasa……………………

Kampus…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

9 okt 17 senen……………………

Kampus…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

8 okt 17 minggu……………………

Hunting lemari w ciprut…………………… Alfamart…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

7 okt 17 sabtu……………………

Pg k kampus ambil charger…………………… Sehatian d rumah…………………… Siang treadmill dtg…………………… Mlm k took listrik beli rolkbel…………………… Amin dtg…………………… Nginep…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

6 okt 17 jumat……………………

Kampus…………………… Pulgsk…………………… Tepar…………………… Mlm jemput dian…………………… Javamall…………………… Beli treadmill…………………… Atm…………………… Belijam…………………… Dines at istana…………………… Ngantar dian…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

5 okt 17 kamis ……………………

Kampus…………………… Mlm at gajah jemput amin…………………… Nonton at dpmall…………………… Makan at pancakarya…………………… Amin k rumah…………………… Nginep…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

Want someone who is in balance with me…………………

Or above me………………… So it doesn’t have to be like this………………… Imbalance………………… It must be me who always take care of him………………… It is heavy for me………………… It is heavy for my side………………… It is heavy for my heart………………… Imagining that he sends someone above me………………… Physically and mentally………………… Sorry god………………… But this is me………………… The shallow me………………… Only see the surface………………… I want to change………………… But it is hard………………… But I will try………………… And I believe I will change………………… With your help …………………

And then…………………

Want to go there………………… Completely strange place………………… Where nobody knows me………………… I can be myself………………… Not pretending anymore………………… Where there are many people like me………………… And I don’t have to be fake anymore………………… Where there is you………………… So I will be protected all the time………………… Nobody will hurt me…………………

Remembering the selbi…………………

She loves me if only the mom gets away………………… But if mom comes home………………… She will ignore me………………… Completely………………… Hiks…………………………………… False hope………………… Expecting too much………………… Disappointed too much………………… Hurt too much………………… Just like my love life in the human world………………… Damn …………………

What is it……………………….

The three things………………………. That should come to my brain………………………. The filling………………………. The time spent………………………. To wait for that moment………………………. To experience the new place………………………. For the first time………………………. And I did it………………………. Filling the time………………………. Spending the time………………………. Enjoy the moment………………………. Loving the place ……………………….

4 okt 17 rabu……………………

Kampus…………………… Unisula…………………… Kampus…………………… Ngantar ika…………………… Pedurungan ambil paket…………………… Indmrt…………………… Pul…………………… Jemput rian…………………… Ngempon…………………… Ngantar rian…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

3 okt 17 selasa……………………

Kampus mpe mlm…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

2 okt 17 senen……………………

Kampus…………………… Orenji w brina…………………… Pul…………………… Mlm nonton at cl w baskoro ibash…………………… Diner at solaria…………………… Ngantar baskoro…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

1 okt 17 minggu……………………

Ban bocor…………………… Workshop bhs isyarat at rri…………………… Makan at warung penang w mela nina ahmed…………………… Pul…………………… Nambal ban…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

30 sep 17 sabtu……………………

Pg k rri…………………… Workshop bhs isyarat…………………… Maksi at adys culinary w nina n ahmed…………………… Ptgrmbt…………………… Alfmrt…………………… Mlm k atm…………………… Indmrt meet bmei arif fia…………………… At bu dwi meet bdwi imus hana…………………… At stadion meet udin pucup…………………… Ntn konser so7…………………… Ga dpt tiket…………………… Udan deres…………………… Ngiyup d alfmrt lama banget…………………… Makan nasgor…………………… Yg lain masuk kecuali aku bdwi arif…………………… Ngantar imus…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

29 sep 17 jumat……………………

Kampus…………………… Pulgasik…………………… Jumatan…………………… Dpmall…………………… Nongkrong at maxx coffee…………………… Nonton…………………… At Julia…………………… Kejebak ujan lama banget…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

28 sep 17 kamis……………………

Kampus…………………… Cimb…………………… Pul…………………… Kampus…………………… Bhsl ps…………………… Allahuakbar……………………

27 sep 17 rabu ……………………

Kampus…………………… What…………………… Allahuakbar……………………