Saturday, September 22, 2018

it comes to me…………………………………………

lets do this………………………………………… fasting………………………………………… till the day comes………………………………………… till the end………………………………………… till the last drop………………………………………… of hope………………………………………… of time………………………………………… of blood………………………………………… so he will know………………………………………… that I want this………………………………………… and how I depend on him………………………………………… completely………………………………………… how I love him………………………………………… dearly …………………………………………

do you ever wake up in the middle of your deep sleep…………………………………………

and you try so hard to grasp for air………………………………………… you feel there is no air around you………………………………………… and you hear yourself………………………………………… your mouth whisper a name………………………………………… of your grandma………………………………………… who passed away a long time ago………………………………………… you did miss her………………………………………… you want to meet her………………………………………… but you cant………………………………………… the best way for loving her is………………………………………… send pray………………………………………… as he promises………………………………………… that he will take care of her………………………………………… if you pray hard………………………………………… and harder …………………………………………

Friday, September 21, 2018

I also am afraid I cant fund myself……………………………………………….

my daily life………………………………………………. I cant afford things necessary in office………………………………………………. I cant afford things related to usa………………………………………………. I sacrifice a lot………………………………………………. I don’t join seminars………………………………………………. I don’t have fund………………………………………………. god help me ……………………………………………….

oh my god……………………………………………….

my fund is very limited………………………………………………. it is scary………………………………………………. I cant hangout in cafĂ©………………………………………………. I cant watch movies………………………………………………. I cant go to gym………………………………………………. but that is okay………………………………………………. the scarier is………………………………………………. I cant continue pay his tuition until he graduates………………………………………………. don’t be afraid………………………………………………. god will help ……………………………………………….

21 sep 18 jumat…………………………………………..

kampus………………………………………….. wrg………………………………………….. bhsl ps………………………………………….. alfmrt………………………………………….. ped………………………………………….. ngaji………………………………………….. allahuakbar…………………………………………..

20 sep 18 kamis…………………………………………..

kampus………………………………………….. ped………………………………………….. net………………………………………….. kampus………………………………………….. mas rendy………………………………………….. allahuakbar…………………………………………..

19 sep 18 rabu…………………………………………..

kampus………………………………………….. took roti w rempong………………………………………….. rs tilik mbak di………………………………………….. kampus………………………………………….. nyuci mobil………………………………………….. allahuakbar…………………………………………..