Tuesday, March 21, 2017

can i just listen to you all............

i am not good in chit chat............ i am not good in talking............ i am afraid of people............ the fake celebration............ the fake graduation............ the fake test............ the fake score............ they are just them............ it is very difficult............ just send prays for them............ hope i dont make mistake............ i had done everything i could............ but they are just like that............ it is so frustating ........................

When love is not simple anymore..............

All has changed.............. All needs money.............. All needs material.............. None is pure anymore.............. None is sincere anymore.............. All brings hidden agenda.............. This is suck.............. How can it be.............. The devils are everywhere.............. They contaminate everybody.............. There is no more white heart.............. Everything is black.............. All is dark..............

Monday, March 20, 2017

Imagining................

You are the fan of mine................ You cheer me loudly................ You boost the energy in me................ You lift me................ Up high to the sky................ Cloud number nine................ And i cant stop smiling................ You give me light................ You show me the path................ You put me in d place................ Where noone can kill me................ Kick me aside................ You save me................ You make me safe................

I want to go home................

Life seems so hard................ Then i realize................ I am complaining................ Sorry................ But the thought comes suddenly................ By itself................ Cant avoid it................ Cant control it................ I dont want to complain................ I just want to meet you................ I want to be loved................ I want to be hugged................ Tightly................ And dont let me go................ Forever................ What the hell................ Why do i cry................ This is suck................

One day................

I will wait................ Until you allow me................ Having a child................ Until i deserve it................ Becoming a dad................ Until i am worthy in your eyes................ To stand tall................ To held my head high................ But i am always afraid................ I will not be there................ To that level................ I will always fight................ I am sorry for hoping still................ I am only human................ Though that is not an excuse................

I know this is wrong................

But................ There is always but in my head................ I hope................ Really hope................ You make this right................ Magically................ Move my foot................ Towards you................ Imagining to live there................ In your house................ Happily................ Without working................ Only cleaning your house................ Becoming your slave................ Becoming your sub................ Becoming your worshipper................ Live freely................ Without limit................

Money..................

Tomorrow.................. Make it easy.................. If it exists now thus we can do it tomorrow.................. If it doesnt exist now thus i will do it later.................. Then.................. Must i phone her.................. Or him.................. Finally i text her.................. And i git reply.................. Thx to god.................. He plans all.................. There has been plans.................. There has been places.................. There has been times..................