Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Getting home..............................

Accidentally take the key to my room.............................. It is a sign.............................. That i get very stressed.............................. And you add problem to my pain.............................. My lap is error.............................. For a moment.............................. But you fix it.............................. Thx lord.............................. You are amazing.............................. Above average.............................. Way way above ..............................

As easy as that you cast me away..............................

You abandon me.............................. Then i see.............................. You dont really love me.............................. There are many plans.............................. I made.............................. For both of us.............................. But.............................. Now you left me.............................. You throw me away.............................. Without hesitation.............................. Still hoping.............................. Afraid of hoping.............................. Keep hoping.............................. Lord.............................. Help me.............................. If he is good for me.............................. Make him close to me ..............................

That cloth place..............................

I did get some of them.............................. But this brain wants more.............................. I can contain myself.............................. But my heart gets restless.............................. Damn.............................. Want to scream so bad.............................. Your call.............................. I want to go to your place.............................. To do the routine.............................. But i cancel it.............................. for no reason.............................. actually there is a reason.............................. i make it up.............................. and i hate what i did.............................. and it adds more pain ..............................

The kind of them..............................

It would be great of you.............................. Nice of you.............................. Kind of you.............................. To make one of them mine.............................. Or all of them.............................. Your place.............................. Do me bad again.............................. Make me stressed.............................. And i go wild.............................. That food place too.............................. It adds more pain.............................. To my brain.............................. Damn.............................. The devil is all over.............................. This time ..............................

The box..............................

Remember yesterday.............................. That driver.............................. Give idea.............................. To buy a car.............................. Rent a driver.............................. To become online driver.............................. So in a way.............................. I provide a work.............................. And add my income.............................. Only an idea.............................. All will not run well without your blessing.............................. So the first step i should make.............................. Is searching your blessing.............................. But i think that will be very hard.............................. All is grey.............................. All is mystery.............................. For me.............................. What is it that you want ..............................

Maybe with money ..............................

I will have a lot of fund.............................. And those funds will be my source of disaster.............................. To pay all my negativity.............................. Let alone.............................. With that money.............................. I want to pay his school.............................. To get him education.............................. Because you say.............................. You promise people.............................. Who pay for others to go to school.............................. A spot in your place.............................. With that fund.............................. I want to buy a place.............................. For mu business.............................. For my old days ..............................

Maybe with my own place..............................

He will think.............................. I will invite those people.............................. And there will be a lot of parties.............................. Let alone.............................. With my own place.............................. I want to have my own business.............................. I want to secure my old days ahead.............................. When i am retired.............................. And i dont work anymore.............................. I dont have any paycheck anymore.............................. I am afraid of being stranded.............................. Let alone.............................. I should.............................. Believe in you ..............................