Being a grown up is a very hard thing to do....................

Damn.................... What is adult.................... Gone again.................... It was there.................... Now it is gone.................... My brain is stressed.................... My brain is full.................... Overload.................... God help me.................... I am afraid .................... Afraid of going insane.................... There are many problems.................... And you are not here ....................

Oh my god.......................

\i have so many problems....................... And you add it....................... Oh my god....................... I cant take it....................... It is heavy....................... Very heavy....................... Oh god....................... You are cruel....................... Very cruel .......................

He is angry.....................

That makes me angry..................... What should i do..................... Comfort him? ..................... What about me..................... Who comfort me..................... What will i do..................... That is the question..................... The big one..................... Dont know the answer yet..................... Should i continue..................... Should i stay..................... There is so much things..................... So many thoughts..................... Running around my head..................... All is bad..................... Very bad .....................

Feel like he doesnt care bout my feeling.....................

So why should i care bout him..................... Let me entertain myself..................... Let me please myself..................... I need to be happy too..................... I need comfort too..................... I am sorry lord..................... For everything i have done..................... For every mistake i made..................... And i will make again..................... I believe i am not perfect..................... I will make mistake again .....................

He is angry.....................

What the hell..................... Should i comfort him..................... Fuck that..................... I do my own fasting routine too..................... I am angry too..................... I am hungry too..................... I think this is the last..................... He always makes problem on break..................... I should enjoy my break by myself..................... Is he the only one making sacrifice..................... Me too..................... I take him to that place..................... Coz he wants that thing..................... What the heck .....................