mrrr and mra……………………………….

suddenly think about them………………………………. suddenly feel less afraid………………………………. suddenly feel a little bit safe………………………………. though the scary thoughts are not out of my brain yet………………………………. lord……………………………….………………………………. thx u for those two angels………………………………. lord………………………………. don’t take them away from me………………………………. lord………………………………. I beg you ……………………………….

my legs feel funny……………………………….

is it a sign………………………………. is it bad………………………………. is it good………………………………. lord………………………………. help me………………………………. I am afraid………………………………. I can feel it………………………………. I don’t know how………………………………. but suddenly it comes………………………………. the scary thoughts………………………………. lord………………………………. take it away………………………………. lord………………………………. prevent it to happen in my life ………………………………. lord………………………………. I beg you ……………………………….

afraid……………………………….

if the satan will visit my family………………………………. afraid………………………………. if the police will visit my family………………………………. lord………………………………. let me take it all………………………………. let my family be safe………………………………. always………………………………. in your protection………………………………. and make me strong to take it all ……………………………….

what……………………………….

your home………………………………. if I cant go to that place………………………………. I hope I can go to your place………………………………. to your home………………………………. visit you………………………………. pray to you………………………………. worship you………………………………. hope to you………………………………. ask you………………………………. a lot of things………………………………. because you are the only place to ask………………………………. there is no other………………………………. only you who can do it all………………………………. only you who can grant it all ……………………………….

that place……………………………….

make me annoyed………………………………. then I update my status bout it………………………………. blame them………………………………. curse them………………………………. badmouth them………………………………. wish………………………………. they read it………………………………. then they will apologize………………………………. then get an offer of study………………………………. a lot of campuses………………………………. take it all………………………………. for post study things………………………………. wish it all real………………………………. dream it all………………………………. bless it lord………………………………. allow it lord ……………………………….

the ministry……………………………….

I did ask for help………………………………. my visa is error………………………………. I just got the short answer………………………………. maybe it is because my name is Islamic thing………………………………. that’s it………………………………. that’s all………………………………. dear lord………………………………. I wish………………………………. if I cant go this year………………………………. I will be recruited again next year………………………………. but not there………………………………. there is sucks………………………………. hate them ……………………………….

I wish……………………………….

the visa comes………………………………. I didn’t get up in the morning yet………………………………. early this morning………………………………. my door got banged………………………………. I am shocked………………………………. I thought the visa come………………………………. directly woke up………………………………. stood up………………………………. step on my glasses………………………………. dear lord………………………………. your punishment comes again………………………………. and I don’t care anymore………………………………. it is too much………………………………. pain and pain………………………………. over and over again ……………………………….