God......................

I ask for your permission...................... I apply this program...................... I hope you bless me...................... I want this...................... I hope i deserve it...................... I have worked so hard to be worthy before you...................... If my efforts are lacking...................... Please tell me...................... I will do everything...................... All of them...................... As best as i could...................... I really love you...................... You are the only one...................... My place...................... To ask for everything......................

The scenery......................

Is wonderful...................... Oh my god...................... Want it...................... Want more...................... Want this to be mine...................... Only...................... Being selfish...................... Dont want other to...................... Enjoy this thing...................... I want it for myself...................... I think i deserve it...................... I had worked so hard...................... For this...................... May god bless this......................

God......................

Money...................... Mom...................... New home...................... Scary...................... He places things...................... In places of need...................... In times of perfection...................... When i desperately need money...................... The money come out of the blue...................... Then i think...................... About me being afraid...................... Moving to new house...................... Maybe he has plan...................... That it will be ok...................... It will be allright...................... Everything will be fine...................... Coz he will look after me...................... Like this time...................... Like all of the time......................

I come early......................

And they do too...................... And i am confused...................... I dont know what to talk about...................... And i am very sleepy...................... What the hell...................... Oh my god...................... This is scary...................... Very sleepy...................... A lot...................... Very much...................... God help me......................

The first class is full......................

The second class is empty...................... ...................... Feel strange...................... Hope it is ok...................... And the list is absurd...................... Why did he give me the wrong list...................... I am lazy to go back there...................... I should not be lazy...................... This is my job...................... Enjoy going there...................... Enjoy the mistake...................... Everything happens for a reason...................... And the reasons are all good...................... Coz it is planned by the one......................

Job1 vs job2......................

I left job1...................... I choose job2...................... Hope me leaving is not a problem...................... The people in there are...................... Important people...................... I am afraid...................... I should not be afraid of them...................... I should be afraid of god...................... Hope god know why i choose this...................... I think this is more important...................... Than that one...................... I hope i dont make mistake......................

Sorry......................

Can the word solve all...................... Unfairness...................... Injustice...................... Unbalance...................... Many victims...................... Do they deserve...................... Being the victime...................... What did they do...................... Is there lord...................... Who see us all...................... But let it happen...................... Nothing to do...................... No interference whatsoever......................

God i want to go home......................

I dont know what is home...................... I dont know where is home...................... But i want to go home...................... Take me home please...................... I feel like floating...................... Like ghost...................... Transparent...................... Went go through the wall...................... Show me home...................... Then i will go there...................... I feel nowhere...................... Empty heart......................