he knows best for me………………………………………….

I know that…………………………………………. but he keeps the reason behind it all secretly…………………………………………. I need to know…………………………………………. hence I will calm…………………………………………. if I know nothing about it…………………………………………. I will always question it all…………………………………………. and that is bad…………………………………………. it will ruin me…………………………………………. it will eat me up inside…………………………………………. it will make me come undone…………………………………………. I hope he will explain it to me…………………………………………. I hope I will get the reason behind it all…………………………………………. the enlightenment ………………………………………….

mrsj………………………………………….

the scholarship programs…………………………………………. she said that her coworkers and she will do something next year…………………………………………. open again the program…………………………………………. that will make everybody happy…………………………………………. initially her friends and she handle this program…………………………………………. but some powerful forces make her hand over this program to another party…………………………………………. and now that party handles this program badly…………………………………………. but now she promises …………………………………………. that next year the program will be back in her hands again…………………………………………. lets hope for the best ………………………………………….

mrj………………………………………….

explain a bout a lot of things\…………………………………………. how to live there…………………………………………. how to handle extreme weather…………………………………………. I listen to it all…………………………………………. carefully…………………………………………. hope that I will experience all of those things…………………………………………. I hope he bless this…………………………………………. I hope he grant what I want…………………………………………. I hope he know what I want…………………………………………. I hope my pray reach him…………………………………………. I hope my wish reach him…………………………………………. I badly want this…………………………………………. but it seems so hard to get it ………………………………………….

thx god………………………..

this place makes me happy today……………………….. the net is good……………………….. the price is good……………………….. there is a promo……………………….. discount……………………….. or something like it……………………….. don’t know……………………….. but it makes me happy……………………….. all the way ………………………..

mra said something to me………………………..

that fund must be returned if my paper got rejected……………………….. I know that……………………….. I acknowledge that……………………….. he doesn’t have to say it……………………….. it makes more hurt to my pain……………………….. he can talk bout other things……………………….. pray for my paper to be accepted……………………….. help my paper to pass ……………………….. calm me\……………………….. hug me……………………….. cheer me up……………………….. or else ………………………..

mrsj said something………………………..

that I should wait for Monday or Tuesday……………………….. I am shocked……………………….. wow……………………….. does she have the power……………………….. to intervene that place……………………….. I hope she has……………………….. I hope she can help me with this thing……………………….. I hope she can make me happy……………………….. I hope she can help my paper ………………………..

today mrb will come to my place………………………..

I hope it is a good sign……………………….. \i hope it is something important……………………….. I hope his can bring my smile back……………………….. I hope this can cheer me up……………………….. I hope a lot of things……………………….. I hope god bless this thing ………………………..

am I cocky………………………..

I think I am not……………………….. if I have to choose a partner……………………….. I have to do the selection too……………………….. I have to choose the best one……………………….. how bout you……………………….. we just known each other……………………….. in a very short time……………………….. and we don’t meet each other yet……………………….. at all……………………….. and you ask for a relationship……………………….. holy ef ………………………..

mrb………………………..

I am sorry……………………….. I did wake up late……………………….. stupid me……………………….. I don’t join the meeting……………………….. the lost party is me……………………….. dear lord……………………….. help me……………………….. please wake me up early in the morning……………………….. if I have something important ………………………..

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