there is always the supporting role...........................

who is very stupid........................... doing everything for love........................... sacrificing everything........................... what the hell is in his mind........................... in the end he doesnt get the love of his life........................... lord........................... i dont want to be like that........................... i dont want that destiny........................... i want to be the main role........................... who gets the love........................... who gets the happiness........................... who gets the blessing from you........................... in this world........................... and in the after life ...........................

the decision is final..........................

and it hurts a lot.......................... like hell.......................... holy ef.......................... annoying.......................... i teel them.......................... but they dont understand.......................... it is chaotic.......................... holy ef.......................... you dead.......................... i am dead.......................... mentally ..........................

he knows..........................

and he teases.......................... it hurts a lot.......................... dont ask.......................... stupid.......................... dont go back.......................... stupid.......................... dont beg.......................... stupid.......................... you have that man.......................... stupid.......................... you are blind.......................... stupid.......................... why does love hurt this bad.......................... we tend to chase the one we cant have.......................... and we dont see the one near.......................... who clearly love us so much ..........................

lord..........................

this make me afraid.......................... my debt is everywhere.......................... many places.......................... campus.......................... family.......................... cc.......................... and now i have to find a new one.......................... help.......................... lord.......................... help me please.......................... sorry.......................... dont leave me please.......................... show me the way ..........................

goodbye my dream............................

i should say my farewell............................ you are out of my reach............................ you run so fastv............................ i cant chase you............................ you fly so high............................ i cant reach you............................ you hide so well............................ i cant find you............................ you dive so low............................ i cant catch you............................ i want to continue to fight............................ but i am tired............................ who will fight for me............................ i want you fight for me ............................

i force myself for a while to be good.......................................

hold many things to be crazy....................................... going insane....................................... so you grant my wish....................................... but the reality is like this....................................... let it be....................................... allow me to be crazy again'....................................... it is time for me to entertain myself....................................... no need to hold here and there....................................... all free now....................................... time for screaming your heart out .......................................

i am suspicious of everybody.......................................

sorry....................................... lord....................................... make this satan dissapear from my mind....................................... that text....................................... making me to do this....................................... everybody has the power to make me fail....................................... by looking at me....................................... by looking at my pic....................................... by thinking of me....................................... by their pray....................................... and now everyone is suspects....................................... families....................................... friends....................................... seniors....................................... enemies....................................... coworkers....................................... what the heck....................................... i am tired....................................... my mind is never stop wandering....................................... thinking all the possibilities....................................... the bad ones.......................................