Now I am very afraid ……………………..

Because of that case …………………….. Afraid of being murdered …………………….. But …………………….. Remember then …………………….. Want to die …………………….. But don’t want to commit suicide …………………….. Maybe …………………….. This is the answer …………………….. Just let it be …………………….. Whatever happen …………………….. Receive it with open arm ……………………..

You good I good ……………………..

You bad I bad …………………….. Don’t touch me …………………….. I can be satan …………………….. Don’t talk detail …………………….. What you did …………………….. Is asshole …………………….. I hope you are death …………………….. Crashed by a big truck …………………….. Just like the video I had seen …………………….. Or being beheaded …………………….. Just like the video I had watched …………………….. I hope you suffer ……………………..

Bad experience ……………………..

Afraid …………………….. Of the future …………………….. Afraid the safety of me …………………….. My home …………………….. My family …………………….. My neighborhood …………………….. Let it be …………………….. Put it all in his hands …………………….. Le him decide …………………….. What it will be …………………….. Hope everything will be fine …………………….. In the name of lord …………………….. I surrender …………………….. I promise …………………….. I will stop being naughty …………………….. Will surrender to you …………………….. Completely ……………………..

there...

Mecca………………………. Creature………………………. Home………………………. Abroad……………………….………………………. Study………………………. Model………………………. All over the world………………………. Finishing study………………………. Post docs………………………. All over the world………………………. Teaching………………………. Here and there………………………. Online………………………. Meeting important person………………………. Married to royal………………………. Wedding………………………. All over the world………………………. Close to the queen………………………. Become friend………………………. Fashion advisor………………………. Business in fashion………………………. Go to sk………………………. Become jury………………………. Become guest in rm………………………. Buy house in Africa………………………. Move to Africa………………………. Save elephants………………………. All over the world………………………. Having kids………………………. Go home………………………. Once a while………………………. Visiting her………………………. Contacting exes………………………. School them………………………. Near me………………………. Watch them………………………. Closely………………………. Until they finish………………………. Give them job………………………. Near………………………. Close………………………. Give them partner ……………………….

So ……………………….

The order is like this………………………. Mecca………………………. Creature………………………. Home………………………. Abroad………………………. Study………………………. Model………………………. Meet a person………………………. married to royal………………………. wedding all over the world………………………. becoming friend with queen………………………. fashion advisor………………………. finishing study………………………. having post doc………………………. all over the world ……………………….

Another dream……………………….

Going abroad for study………………………. Finishing early………………………. Got a lot of offer………………………. For post doc………………………. From all over the world………………………. Five continents………………………. Thirteen countries………………………. Keep going ……………………….

Sleeping there……………………….

Then………………………. Magically transformed………………………. Into glowing person………………………. Happy to the max………………………. Knowing that she is safe………………………. With him………………………. In the most beautiful place………………………. In another realm………………………. Watching over us………………………. All the time………………………. Never leave us………………………. Even a second ……………………….

After married……………………….

Got house in Africa………………………. Having a lot of kids………………………. Who like crating video………………………. Exposing family life………………………. How crazy I am………………………. Covering a lot of songs………………………. Crazy clothes………………………. Going places with weird fashion………………………. Getting depressed of her………………………. From time to time………………………. The kids take me home………………………. In secret………………………. visiting her grave ……………………….

Becoming part of the herd……………………….

Going around………………………. Roaming the Africa land………………………. Becoming tarzan………………………. Befriend all kind of animals………………………. Becoming famous………………………. Killing all outsiders………………………. Creating haven………………………. Secluded one………………………. Only for the love ones………………………. No one else can enter ……………………….

After getting married……………………….

Get special power………………………. Talking to animals………………………. Visiting elephant sanctuary in thai………………………. Becoming volunteer in elephant sanctuary………………………. In africa………………………. Saving a lot of elephants………………………. All over the world………………………. Taking them to Africa………………………. All of them………………………. Roaming the land of Africa………………………. Being with them ……………………….

Then……………………….

Getting disappear………………………. Getting famous………………………. Going home………………………. Going again for study………………………. Getting in shape………………………. Becoming model………………………. Meeting important person………………………. Getting engaged………………………. Getting married………………………. Having a lot of kids………………………. Having a lot of businesses………………………. Live happily ever after ……………………….

Crazy dream……………………….

Going there………………………. Big black building………………………. Pray hard………………………. Alone………………………. In the night………………………. Getting caught on cam………………………. In tape………………………. On cctv………………………. Versus transparent creature………………………. Dragging me………………………. Forcing me………………………. To go around and around………………………. Praying hard ……………………….

Another dream……………………….

Mecca………………………. Going there………………………. Getting lost………………………. Cannot get out of there………………………. Staying there………………………. Forever………………………. What will do………………………. Becoming ob………………………. Don’t know………………………. Just stay there………………………. Forever………………………. And receive whatever god gives ……………………….

But……………………….

Sometimes I am afraid………………………. I get scared………………………. Very much………………………. What if I lose my money………………………. And I cannot pay him anymore………………………. that is sad………………………. I hope that will not happen………………………. Coz I know this is good………………………. And god loves good ……………………….

And then……………………….

There is another dream………………………. To school them………………………. Two boys………………………. Two exes………………………. Just like this one………………………. I hope I will have the opportunity to do that………………………. To both of them………………………. And I hope………………………. I will be successful to pay his tuition until he finish his study……………………….

Then……………………….

Become fashion jury………………………. All over the world………………………. Including south korea………………………. Staying there for a while………………………. Then become a guest………………………. In rm show………………………. Being close to the president………………………. Having the prank for the pd………………………. The crazy ones………………………. Staying in the president………………………. Being picked up there………………………. Having the secret agreement with the president………………………. That if I know………………………. That I am being tricked………………………. I will pretend not to know it………………………. I will pretend to be a loser………………………. But actually I win………………………. And he will give me a car………………………. Then becoming a very big news………………………. All over the land ……………………….

The dream continues……………………….

Finishing study………………………. Teaching online for home country………………………. Teaching regular for his country………………………. Then………………………. Being close to the royals………………………. The most important person………………………. Befriend her………………………. She was present in the engagement ceremony………………………. She was present in the wedding ceremony………………………. We had the dance………………………. And get so close………………………. We chat a lot………………………. We laugh together………………………. The relationship continues………………………. Having a lot of meeting………………………. Now and then………………………. Then………………………. Give her suggestion………………………. On fashion………………………. Then………………………. Become her fashion advisor………………………. Then………………………. Become worldly famous as fashion expert ……………………….

The third one is…………………..

Going there………………….. Meeting someone special………………….. Having it in secret………………….. Very secluded………………….. Very private………………….. Having engaged………………….. With a lot of important people present………………….. A picture getting leak………………….. Being in the big news………………….. All over the world ………………….. Secretly married………………………. Again………………………. With a lot of important people present………………………. The picture getting leak again………………………. Being in the news again………………………. All over the world………………………. And have the parties all over the world………………………. In five continents………………………. In thirteen countries ……………………….

The second one is…………………..

Going there………………….. Meeting someone………………….. Very important one………………….. Very famous one………………….. Marrying that person………………….. Living together………………….. Finishing my study………………….. Having a lot of kids………………….. Teaching in his country………………….. Live happily ever after …………………..

The first one is…………………..

Going there………………….. Doing exercise………………….. Having a good physique………………….. Being model………………….. Having other jobs………………….. Going around the world………………….. And keep doing that………………….. For the rest of my life………………….. While still teaching………………….. Through online………………….. Distance classes…………………..

Going there…………………..

Ask for things………………….. A lot of things………………….. The bad ones………………….. The good ones………………….. The first is………………….. My lector………………….. My doctoral………………….. My associate professor………………….. The other things are………………….. Having many possibilities …………………..

I hate myself…………………..

I cant control myself………………….. The addiction………………….. The habit………………….. The bad seed………………….. Is all over me………………….. Is all inside me………………….. The devil wins………………….. The evil conquers me………………….. The satan squeezes me………………….. Damn………………….. It sucks…………………..