just put any comment on my blog
to tell me
that i should not come to those places
maybe those places are bad
actually bad
just think about it
maybe the owner is bad
maybe the money will be used for bad
maybe all those people are all really bad
maybe he ask me to come to other places
places that need to be visited regularly
all the time
places that he gives blessings to
so i will get the blessings too
the shitty feeling
that always being followed
as if i am crook
as if i will steal
holy dank
that bother me so bad
getting furious just thinking of it
lets give it all to him
let him handle it
at the moment
i dont have the capacity to handle it
how come
what should i do
do i have to accept it all
being followed all the time
i dont think so
i have my dignity
if you treat me like shit
i will not come again to your shitty place
there are many places nicer than yours
ef you all
ef you crooks
ef you annoying people
she said only the stuff
not the cart
but i got irritated
and i throw all the stuff in front of her
my mistake
shiuld not do that
should not throw the stuff
should not take the cart up the counter
should only take the stuff up the counter
should agree to what she said
should believe that she is right
should make her job easier
will never do that again
usually i will never visit the same place that annoyed me
but this time
i say to myself
that i will come there again
and be nice
and that person
suddenly seeing him
behind me
the evil win over me
the lazy strike me so hard
it is painful
it is in my head all the time
and it is very disturbing
annoying me in all my steps
i must promise to myself
that i will fight it
that i will win over it
that i will do my jobs
and i will finish them all gracefully
that things
about media
about web
about english teaching
about the bilingual thing
and mix all them up
to create a magnificent proposal
holy dank
i come too early
my mistake
i should come at the exact date
or two days early
it is way too early for me to come
will come again then
at twenty four
as she said
hope can make it
hope remember it
just enjoy it
i do enjoy it
usually i will get cranky
at the rejection
thankfully i dont today
just enjoy all the moment
as he plans all this
ad i believe
there is something
behind all this
something really good
will happen to me
