when they talk

kenapa mereka sukanya mencela apa yang sudah didapat? kenapa mereka tidak mensyukuri apa yang sudah diterima? semoga aku tida seperti mereka. semoga tuhan selalu membuatku mampu untuk selalu bersyukur atas apa adanya. pingin kucoba untuk mempengaruhi mereka. tapi aku tak punya kemampuan untuk persuasif. tiba2 terpikir sesautu namun dari unsur negatif. menjelek2kan orang ketiga. aku ga ingin seperti itu. aku inginnya punya cara tanpa harus menegatifkan orang lain. see .... nulis aja ga bisa banyak. apalagi ngomong. perasaan tadi di pikiranku isinya banyak. tapi kalo ditulis kok jadi dikit ... when i think, my train of thoughts is long and full and it goes really fast. but when i want to transcript it into written text, i lost most of it, my hand works not as fast as my brain ..... now they critisize the other lecturers, it is time for me to reflect on myself. maybe it is the sign from the lord for me not to be as they say about the other lecturers. thank god i find the positive thing in a negative area. now they talk about salary world. is lord trying to tell me something? i know i have a lot of mistake regarding moslem rules. maybe their words express my mind. but usually i only think it by and for myself. maybe it is the lord's way to shut my mind.