This aura

 

Waiting is something hard for me

Hate this kind of feeling

Feel nothing

Need something to do

Need something to keep me busy

And feel awkward 

Hope everyone is okay

Me being me

Not being them

Difficult to mingle

Difficult to talk

Nothing is easy for me

But can't be negative

Must be always positive

This too

This situation

This condition

This aura

This surrounding

All has meaning

Shape me to be better

Allow me to learn new things

Provide me new dilemmas

All the things 

All the stuff

Being mentioned in the air

Running through left ears

Passing through right ears

Killing both sides

Not just diminishing 

But surely to continue to thrive

Not back down soon

Climbing