God, Forgive Me—I Lost Again

 

God, Forgive Me—I Lost Again

God,
forgive me…
tonight I fell again.
Not because You were far,
but because I stood too close
to tiredness and excuses.

You woke me
with a gentle silence,
with a quiet tremor in my chest.
But temptation whispered faster,
and I chose defeat—
again.

God,
dawn knocked softly.
The light was not yet complete,
but You were already waiting.
I knew it,
yet the blanket felt more honest
than my own intentions.

Forgive me,
it happened again.
I lost again,
not because I do not love You,
but because my faith
often grows weary.

God,
please help me.
Hold my hand
when I want to let go.
Strengthen me
when I choose laziness
over obedience.

For all of this—
is not for the world,
not for praise,
but for You.

For Your love that never leaves
even when I keep walking away.
For Your protection
when I am fragile and careless.
For happiness—
not in laughter,
but in peace,
knowing You still accept me
even when I lose again.