i dont know it anymore……………………………………………………………..

i want to stay till late at night…………………………………………………………….. i dont want to come home…………………………………………………………….. i wish it is ok…………………………………………………………….. i wish it is not negative…………………………………………………………….. i dont want to open the cell…………………………………………………………….. i am afraid…………………………………………………………….. something will trigger me…………………………………………………………….. to become bad…………………………………………………………….. to have bad thoughts…………………………………………………………….. lets enjoy the show…………………………………………………………….. lots of them…………………………………………………………….. and lets pray…………………………………………………………….. that someday i will have that…………………………………………………………….. the experience in real life…………………………………………………………….. but in homeland most of them are bad people…………………………………………………………….. they rarely work alone…………………………………………………………….. they have back up…………………………………………………………….. imporatant people…………………………………………………………….. real one and fake one…………………………………………………………….. and that is dangerous…………………………………………………………….. lets stay away from that…………………………………………………………….. lets get closer to him…………………………………………………………….. lets run to him…………………………………………………………….. fast……………………………………………………………..