The errors....................

Being late.................... To much rest.................... The hell with those.................... That mister is absolute.................... To much praise for foreign.................... But at the end.................... The person hits me.................... He is so good.................... Being positive.................... Appreciate all.................... No matter what.................... Everybody works hard.................... Really hard.................... And god give blessings.................... For all of us....................

Full....................

Him.................... Fan.................... Forgetting.................... Not remembering.................... But appear the new one.................... The beautiful creature.................... Bope he is mine.................... For we can build a future.................... Together.................... Forever and ever.................... Till death do us part.................... And meet us again.................... In the after life.................... Before him.................... With his blessing....................

Oh god...................

Help.................... That connection.................... It is error.................... Irritates me to the core.................... Want to curse.................... I have a lot of jobs.................... And it blocks everything.................... Help.................... I cant handle this.................... Og my god.................... I want to explode.................... Fuck.................... Fuck.................... Fuck.................... This is fuck....................

One thing i learn.................

From mister js................. He appreciates all................. He is positive................. He thanks all................. The emcee................. The students................. The food................. Although there are many mistakes................. But it is human nature................. I think................. Not me though................. I will get angry................. Easily.................

I used to mock.................

Them who are always busy................. Ignoring students................. Now i am one of them................. A lot of jobs................. I ignore students................. Forgive me lord................. I make a lot of mistakes................. Oh lord................. Help................. Hope you dont get angry to me................. Hope you bless me................. In my busy hectic times.................

Aunt.................

She always tlaks bad bout sis................. Hope she can control her mouth................. Hope god help her................. Hope she find peace................. Hope sis isnt like what she says................. Hope sis can be accepted at study................. Hope sis can get bright future................. Bad behavior comes from bad mouth................. Bad mouth comes from bad brain................. Bad brain comes from negative thinking................. So be positive all the time................. God loves positive................. God hates negative.................

God.................

Help................. Let me enjoy this................. Dont make me sad................. Make me happy................. With this situation................. This condition................. The night with them................. In office................. My laptop................. There................. Far away................. I think i cant handle this................. I will take it tomorrow.................

He gets a prince.................

He gets married................. He visits all countries................. Complete list................. In all continents................. He adopts kids................. From all countries................. He builds business................. Many cafes................. Many boutiques................. \he build organisations................. He manages many pageants.................

The future is on theirs.................

Theirs is on me................. So it is me................. ................. But i dont understand................. Dont know what to do................. Have no clue................. Get angry? ................. Is it really useful................. They are adult................. They should think like one................. But remembering me................. At their age................. Dont grow up at all................. Very childish.................

Really hate her.................

By doing that................. Feel not being respected................. Want to slap her................. Hit her................. Kick her................. Kill her................. It is burning................. Boiling................. Exploding................. Different to him................. Really dont care................. Coz of the look................. What will happen................. What should i do................. Tell me................. Maybe this is karma................. Coz i dont respect them.................

Nothing is everlasting....................

Enjoy the moment.................... Treasure every minute of it.................... The skin.................... The touching.................... The sound of music.................... The lips on lips.................... The embrace.................... Commemorate the future.................... The two of us.................... Sail the oceans.................... Beat the obstacles.................... Defeat the problems.................... Always winning.................... Because there are two of us.................... Because of you.................... Always you....................

Dear love....................

Dear young.................... Dear strong.................... Dear protector.................... Come to me.................... The dream of you kissing me.................... Will that really happen.................... The star.................... The moon.................... The circle.................... The tear.................... Falling.................... Effortlessly.................... Being together.................... The dream of you.................... The dream of us.................... In his blessing.................... Forever and ever.................... Who is you....................

It is error again....................

God.................... Give me patient.................... I use my own.................... Hope it will last.................... And i hope i am heartfelt.................... This is my own thing.................... I should support it.................... I hope i have enough.................... Fund to support it.................... God help.................... God provide.................... Did do and will.................... Always.................... Be grateful.................... All the time....................

Maybe i should text her....................

Try to care.................... Hope she doesnt get me wrong.................... Should i report to them.................... She will be angry.................... In my mind.................... That will happen.................... In reality.................... I dont have a clue....................

If she gets in....................

She will study.................... She will be student.................... She will graduate.................... She will get job.................... On that level.................... Level of that study.................... She will thank to you.................... She will be grateful.................... She will be nice.................... She will be good.................... She will be wonderful.................... She will be amazing.................... You are amazing.................... You are incredible....................

She doesnt come home yet....................

And it rains.................... And it is late.................... Hope she is ok.................... Dont have power.................... To force her.................... To go home early.................... Who am i.................... Will start the war.................... Just hope for the best.................... Pray to him.................... He will solve all.................... He will take care of her.................... He will protect her.................... All the time.................... Endlessly....................

Sad....................

See a driver hits another driver.................... I dont know what the problem is.................... But i think that is not the solution.................... I remember the text.................... Discuss about anger in the street.................... Scary.................... People are easily get angry in the street.................... So much starter.................... Many little things can ignite the flame.................... Burn everything.................... And i blame you.................... Sorry.................... You make that.................... That person.................... That anger.................... That situation.................... Is it a test.................... For me? .................... For all of us? .................... For just staring.................... For not doing anything....................

I just know....................

That these two women.................... There are something.................... Between them.................... From chat in that group.................... And one of them chat me.................... Oh my god.................... I thought everything is alright.................... Pray to lord.................... Hope he handles everything.................... Help the program.................... For me? .................... For all of us.................... And for you too.................... They are happy.................... They will thank you.................... They will praise you.................... They will love you....................

Think about them....................

That family.................... Is it their influence.................... That i fail.................... Dont blame them.................... Blame me.................... It is me.................... I just wonder.................... If they hate outsider.................... The partner of the sons.................... The partner of the daughter.................... What will happen.................... Will they live by themselves.................... Just pray for them.................... Pray to god.................... May god help them....................

A lot of anger right now....................

Today is a busy day.................... Tomorrow is a busy day.................... But tonight she wants me.................... To pick her up.................... To take her.................... When will i rest.................... When will i do my job.................... Nobody understands.................... Only he.................... Help me.................... Let it all.................... Be sincere.................... And he will give reward.................... Big time.................... As it is my praise to you....................

Sutgotothetiyah....................

It is special pic.................... So i want to make a special poem.................... But this head is blocked.................... Nothing appears.................... No memories.................... Bad ones.................... Good ones.................... Just hope.................... She is okay now.................... With him.................... In his embrace.................... In his home.................... Full of light.................... Full of joy.................... Full of happiness.................... She deserves that....................

27 nov 16 minggu.................

Renang................. Pedurungan................. Pul kos................. Jemput didin at genuk................. Morosari hutan bakau................. Makam................. Museum 3d................. Antar didin at terboyo................. Wrg................. Allahuakbar.................

26 nov 16 sabtu.................

Pedurungan................. Ikip mpe sore................. Allahuakbar.................

25 nov 16 jumat.................

Ikip................. Pedurungan................. Rapat................. Lembur................. Allahuakbar.................

24 nov 16 kamis.................

Ikip................. Pul gasik................. Pedurungan................. Ambil paket................. Nunut net................. Bhsl ps................. Mlm burjo................. Matlamp................. Bioskop................. Allahuakbar.................

23 nov 16 rabu.................

IKIP................. Mandiri................. Pedurungan................. Ikip................. Gosipcafe w rempong................. Allahuakbar.................

Realizing................

The wolf is not really a wolf................ It is the desire................ The lust................ Of the dark things................ The evil things................ As the religion said................ The biggest enemy is yourself................ The ego inside you................ Who can control you................ Do sins................ Stay away from kind things................ Get close to bad things................ Just want to enjoy................ A lot of rasionalitation................

He owns the music channel................

He put his shows there................ The male pageant shows................ The food shows................ The fashion shows................ The travelling shows................ The movie awards................ The television awards................ The music awards................ Many kinds of music shows................ All genres of music................ Artist diary shows................ The talkshow................ The performance................ The choice................

Oh lord ................

the owner of the heart................ Oh lord ................ the ruler of the heart................ Oh lord ................ the one who can turn the heart upside down................ this is me begging................ dont do this................ this heart is trembling................ i surrender................ i give all to you................ what will you do................ i will accept all................ just take it away................ this uneasiness................

I know you love me................

You must love me................ I know you do................ I need hug................ A real hug................ I dont want to be alone................ Not now................ It is killing me................ Oh lord................ You have fairies................ I know you do................ You have angels................ I know you do................ Send me one................ I love you................ I do love you ................

God................

I know you are out there................ Somewhere................ I know you are here................ Help................ I dont know why i cry................ But i cry................ I do miss her................ I do miss you................ Help................ Oh lord................ The chest is full................ Oh lord................ It is sickening ................ Oh lord................ It is burdening ................ Oh lord’................ It is pressing ................

And you are numb................

Everything else is disturbing................ Make you uncomfortable................ Heart and soul................ You put the music................ High volume................ Covering up the sound of the world................ Want to be alone................ In different world................ Where i can think................ About my things ................

And he is doing that................

Open the window................ Just give me enough................ To do what i have to do................ And he closes it................ Dont know what to do now................ Dont bring reading stuff................ And then................ I can do this................ Still amazed................ By what he is doing................

Still have time................

Dont know what to do................ Wait to process it................ But it is error................ Try not to complain................ Just whisper his name................ To come to help................ Almighty’................ Who owns all the power................ And beyond................ He can do it................ He will do it................ Just believe................ Just pray................ Just wait and see................ Not stop trying though................ Never stop................ Never back down’................

Damn.................

Today is very hot................. From morning................. Up to now................. Remembering that news................. Reporting about disasters................. That will happen................. All over java................. Hope everyone will be ok................. Not complaining................. Just expressing the thought................. It is really hot though................. But i will survive................. I must survive................. He does this................. He makes this................. He creates this................. For a reason.................

They come early.................

Love that................. Love them................. Hope the result is good................. Will love them more................. If the result is bad................. Dont blame them................. Blame yourself................. It is your fault................. It is your job................. To make them clever................. It is your duty................. To make them smart................. And you will be asked................. For your responsibility.................

Just pray a lot.................

Whisper his name................. Again and again................. More and more................. Not stopping................. Hoping for the best................. Expecting smoothness................. Love smoothness................. No obstacles................. No burdens................. No problems................. Call it to come................. Hope it to arrive................. Cheer the day................. Smooth the process................. Everything will be allright.................

The error comes again.................

The test is difficult................. want to be smooth................. All the time................. But the want and the reality................. Doesnt always go hand in hand................. And you must accept that................. There is something................. Behind that situation................. You dont know yet................. And maybe................. You will never know................. But that is the best for you................. God plans this................. And all happenings in your life................. You will be ok.................

Waiting for them.................

Being late................. Irritating self................. Be patient................. The devil tests you................. You must pass it................. You are incredible................. No devil can beat you................. You beat them................. All of them................. You are beyond them................. You are above them................. That is your destiny................. Put it in your mind................. Believe it in your brain................. Live it in your life.................

And then come other thought.................

That group................. Who said that science that................. Doesnt come from god................. Is not good................. Is it really? ................. Is there anything in this world not coming from him? ................. Is it wrong to learn this kind of science? ................. I thought i am good at that................. And then they make me................. Questioning myself................. Doubting myself................. And i am coming undone................. Confuse all over................. Dank................. The head is exploding.................

Mistake twice.................

Feeling bad................. Very bad................. Being careless................. Being irresponsible................. Stupid me................. Maybe that is punishment................. For being stupid this morning................. Complaining all the time................. Not thanking for today................. Forgetting that................. And blaming the devil................. It has always been................. Not admitting being the one................. Who commit the wrongdoing................. It is human nature................. And that is the rationalisation................. Remembering the freud................. Oh god................. Miss that theory.................

22 nov 16 selasa...................

Wrg................... Ikip mpe malm................... Pulsa................... Allahuakbar...................

21 nov 16 senen...................

Ikip mpe sore................... Dvd bajakan................... Mlm gym w aan................... Atm dinus................... Allahuakbar...................

20 nov 16 minggu...................

Pagi renang................... Bulik nunut net dan makan................... Pul kos................... Jemput nina................... Lunch at mcd w maya n nina................... Lunch season 2 at orenji sushi singosari................... Ngantar nina................... Allahuakbar...................

19 nov 16 sabtu...................

Ikip................... Nyuci motor................... Ikip................... Pul gasik................... Mlm gym w aan................... Burjo................... Allahuakbar...................

18 nov 16 jumat...................

Ikip . ................... Pul gasik................... Allahuakbar...................

I am not good in thanking.................

So i just say thank................. Hope that is enough................. I do hope the best for her................. Not coz of this................. But she is trully genuine................. Kind from inside................. Not good in being close................. Block them away................. Clear their closeness................. I admit being weird................. Building wall all over................. Being excluded................. Being alienated................. Being solitaire................. It has been this way.................

‘there was evil this morning.................

Blocking my smoothness process................. And then i got carried away................. Being annoyed................. Updating stupid things................. And then you come................. Help all................. Make it right................. And i am happy................. Up to now................. Hope it last................. Forever................. Not just today................. So it will affect them................. Spread this too................. To them................. This kind of happiness................. Smile................. Laugh................. Full of love .................

And that too...................

The reading................... The summarizing................... The understanding................... Will reach that level................... Accordingly................... One by one................... In time................... God doesnt like to be rushed................... Time and time again................... Is only in your mind................... It is burdening................... Coz you think it that way................... It is blessing................... If you think it that way................... So think it that way...................

The unseen...................

Disturbing for mind................... Afraid to lose it................... Give all to him................... He will take care................... Everything is safe................... And that thought................... It has been twice................... And want more................... With his help................... It will be done................... And there is tomorrow................... The plan in the morning................... And the plan after................... And that too................... Will be accomplished................... Beautifully...................