suddenly remember the news on murder of female senior high school student...........................................

being spied and killed in a quiet alley........................................... afraid it will be like that........................................... coz of that case........................................... i feel being followed all the time........................................... and the possibility will be like that news........................................... i will be murdered........................................... in a quiet place........................................... without witness........................................... hmmmm........................................... just coz........................................... what the hell........................................... dont want to think bout it........................................... it is too much........................................... too heavy........................................... let lord handle it ...............................................

changing...............................

place me where there is no bad people............................... make me able to go around the globe............................... make me the host of travelling show............................... i know i have many prays............................... inlumited............................... and i dont remember them all............................... these two just pop in my head............................... so i will mention these two in my pray there............................... i hope i will remember the important ones............................... i have to be patient............................... i cant mention them all............................... or maybe i can............................... i dont know............................... lord i am confused............................... lord help me please............................... show me how to meet you ....................................

three suspicious men....................................

i am going insane.................................... i gets suspicious to everybody.................................... lets see.................................... what will happen.................................... they will follow me.................................... and in the way they will kill me.................................... but that is just imagination.................................... nothing will happen.................................... all of them are nice.................................... lets pray.................................... and pray again.................................... pray hard.................................... and harder.................................... ask him to protect me all the way ......................................

something missing..........................................

it always kills me.......................................... it happens many times.......................................... i always get confused.......................................... if i lost myslef in my own train of thought.......................................... i thought there is no bad people in that land.......................................... but i was so wrong lord.......................................... yesterday he told story of that kind.......................................... a lot of beggar and pickpockets.......................................... many cab drivers that take the women.......................................... and others.......................................... i am sure there are more that he doesnt tell.......................................... at first i want to stay there.......................................... coz i think there is no bad people there.......................................... but it turns out the same as everywhere else.......................................... making me confused where should i stay.......................................... what place should i mention in my pray.......................................... lord give me a clue ..................................................

mrn and mrsn.........................................

they will go......................................... leaving this place......................................... will have another life in another plave......................................... with their partners respectively......................................... i hope the replacement is just like me......................................... the ones that almost expired......................................... so they will go nowhere......................................... will be beneficial for this place......................................... and will be beneficial for the people being accepted as well......................................... and this place will rock the world......................................... and more successful than ever......................................... and always be in his road map......................................... and always be in his protection......................................... makeing everybody happy......................................... making everyone safe......................................... the students......................................... the teachers......................................... the staffs......................................... and this place will get more and more applicants......................................... over loaded .............................................

what you think is what you get............................................

if you think about satan all the time............................................ then you will get the satan all the time............................................ in office you think about satan............................................ in home you think about satan............................................ in roads tyou think about satan............................................ in places you visit you think about satan............................................ so you will get that............................................ your thoughts atrract the things you had thought............................................ it is scary............................................ thus i will stop thinking about satan at all cause ................................................

i dont know why that that sentence always hits me so hard......................................

extremely hard it makes my tears drop...................................... i hope it is a good sign...................................... i hope i will get there savely...................................... i hope i will do all my pray there smoothly...................................... i hope lord will grant all my wishes...................................... i am confused though...................................... in a way i want to stay there till i die...................................... in another way i want to go home...................................... and go around the world ......................................

in the name of lord...................................

i dont know what i am doing here................................... just coz................................... and i am late................................... and i dont like being late................................... it is not because of me................................... it is because of them................................... but lets accept this................................... god must have reason................................... as why he takes me here late................................... thx lord everything is ok................................... thx lord he is with me................................... thx lord he loves me ...................................

27 jan 19 minggu..........................................

ped w ciprut n saufa.......................................... fatima zahra diantar fam.......................................... manasik.......................................... pul by gocar.......................................... allahuakbar..........................................

26 jan 19 sabtu..........................................

pg ptg eror.......................................... alfa.......................................... penjahit.......................................... dpmall.......................................... atm eror.......................................... cafe.......................................... mlm ptg.......................................... allahuakbar..........................................

25 jan 19 jumat..........................................

kampus.......................................... klinik.......................................... pul.......................................... jumatan.......................................... allahuakbar'..........................................

24 jan 19 kamis'..........................................

kampus.......................................... indosat.......................................... fatimazahra.......................................... dpmall.......................................... karaoke w yanu yayan kiki.......................................... allahuakbar..........................................

23 jan 19 rabu..........................................

atm.......................................... kampus.......................................... survei.......................................... alfa.......................................... pul.......................................... sore visa.......................................... pul.......................................... mlm ped ngaji.......................................... suspicious person.......................................... allahuakbar..........................................

22 jan 19 selasa..........................................

kampus.......................................... klinik.......................................... allahuakbar'.......................................... '

21 jan 19 senen..........................................

kampus.......................................... pijet.......................................... wrg.......................................... allahuakbar..........................................

20 jan 19 minggu..........................................

seharian d rmh.......................................... allahuakbar..........................................

19 jan 19 sabtu..........................................

cafe.......................................... allahuakbar..........................................

18 jan 19 jumat..........................................

kampus.......................................... allahuakbar..........................................

17 jan 19 kamis..........................................

kampus.......................................... allahuakbar..........................................

16 jan 19 rabu ……………………………………………………………………………….

16 jan 19 rabu.......................................... kampus.......................................... pamela.......................................... banbcr.......................................... ditinggl pml.......................................... tmbl ban.......................................... pul.................................................................................... mlm ped.......................................... net.......................................... ngaji.......................................... allahuakbar..........................................