sorethroat…………………………………..

fever………………………………….. flu………………………………….. I must be strong………………………………….. all of this is sin eraser………………………………….. for all I have done………………………………….. many I have done………………………………….. many mistakes………………………………….. to you………………………………….. to him………………………………….. to them………………………………….. to me………………………………….. dear………………………………….. I hope being forgiven………………………………….. I hope being enlighten………………………………….. I wish it will not happen again in the future………………………………….. I wish I get help to be better …………………………………..

he reminds me my reading…………………………………..

and I get angry insidev………………………………….. I think I am weird………………………………….. I think there is something inside me………………………………….. the evil thing………………………………….. he is the one who gets angry………………………………….. not me………………………………….. I blame him………………………………….. sorry lord………………………………….. wait………………………………….. should I say sorry………………………………….. I put myself under your protection………………………………….. from everything bad around me………………………………….. including the ones that will happen to me …………………………………..

weird day…………………………………..

bad rice………………………………….. bad students………………………………….. start with those bad accidents………………………………….. afraid will affect the whole day………………………………….. then the beautiful scenes come to the café where I eat………………………………….. then there is a sign………………………………….. that something good will come………………………………….. and I can get through it………………………………….. thx lord………………………………….. I believe it is all from him………………………………….. I am nothing without him………………………………….. nothing bad happens………………………………….. I am glad………………………………….. though it is an ordinary day………………………………….. but it is a good one …………………………………..

I used to judge others…………………………………..

who are difficult to give time for students………………………………….. now it happens to me………………………………….. it is karma………………………………….. I have too much to do………………………………….. sorry lord………………………………….. sorry kids………………………………….. I will do my best………………………………….. to manage my time………………………………….. though it is difficult………………………………….. but I will make it………………………………….. to conquer my busy time …………………………………..

no negative thought for them…………………………………..

must think they are good………………………………….. they will make it happen………………………………….. they will grant this………………………………….. they will make it come true………………………………….. that party asks a lot of fund………………………………….. they will pay all of it………………………………….. they are able to do it………………………………….. don’t be cocky………………………………….. he hates that………………………………….. if I am it………………………………….. he will get angry………………………………….. and he will punish me………………………………….. he will take it away …………………………………..

once you destroy me…………………………………..

I destroy you severely………………………………….. I am full of grudge………………………………….. I know this is bad for me………………………………….. it eats me inside………………………………….. but I cant help it………………………………….. if people do bad to me………………………………….. I get angry………………………………….. I want to avenge myself………………………………….. I want to get revenge………………………………….. I must do bad to them………………………………….. that is not good………………………………….. I should pray for them………………………………….. though it is difficult………………………………….. I must do it …………………………………..

mixed thought…………………………………..

nails………………………………….. something is happening………………………………….. they are broken………………………………….. most of them………………………………….. only one left………………………………….. being the good one………………………………….. is it a sign………………………………….. that I now have only one chance………………………………….. remembering her grave………………………………….. I am here………………………………….. but my mind is there………………………………….. I cant think clearly………………………………….. I imagine myself being there………………………………….. in that place………………………………….. with her………………………………….. we and them must not quarrel………………………………….. if we do………………………………….. we must make it brief………………………………….. that time we and them are separated………………………………….. but now we and them are united………………………………….. is it a good sign………………………………….. I hope so………………………………….. but he and his kind think it is a bad sign………………………………….. they have reason that I do not know it yet………………………………….. maybe I know it………………………………….. but I ignore it………………………………….. my bad………………………………….. our kids are not our friends………………………………….. that makes me think………………………………….. our students are not our friends………………………………….. they are not in equal to us………………………………….. when we tell our problems to our kid………………………………….. we poison them………………………………….. we ruin them………………………………….. don’t do that………………………………….. tell your problem to god………………………………….. bot to the kids………………………………….. they cant help you………………………………….. he can help you …………………………………..

mixed brain…………………………………..

they cant order us to do things………………………………….. to prevent that happening………………………………….. we must pay attention closely………………………………….. must be do everything quickly………………………………….. precisely………………………………….. predictability must be in our brain………………………………….. they can only ask for help to us………………………………….. there we see our people do shop………………………………….. because that is our job………………………………….. why here they are the ones to do shop………………………………….. because that is the way to open heaven door for them………………………………….. why people being attracted to others………………………………….. all happens from eyes………………………………….. hence eyes are the source of everything………………………………….. we must guard it carefully………………………………….. they will always be under us………………………………….. sometimes I question this………………………………….. but I must not………………………………….. I am tired questioning………………………………….. I just will accept it………………………………….. for whatever the reason is………………………………….. he knows best………………………………….. then there are the powers of magic………………………………….. some have that………………………………….. some don’t………………………………….. do they can guarantee others entering the heaven………………………………….. nobody can………………………………….. only him and his lover …………………………………..

mixed mind…………………………………..

being concerned………………………………….. management must be good………………………………….. not only money………………………………….. but also life………………………………….. must hold the desire of wanting everything………………………………….. the domestics is women’s business………………………………….. the men’s job is to provide income………………………………….. make money outside………………………………….. everything has standard………………………………….. do not ask about it………………………………….. it is from him………………………………….. sometimes we don’t understand………………………………….. cooking is also their part………………………………….. do not question it………………………………….. who teach them first………………………………….. him………………………………….. through many channels …………………………………..

mixed up ........................

sport place........................ too many reason not to go there........................ hate myself........................ now being sick........................ now truly cant go there........................ when women work for children and husband........................ and she is tired........................ she is sweating........................ her sweat has high value before god........................ sometimes men want to help........................ but in the end we disturb them........................ and make them annoyed........................ are we sin........................ but we cant be harsh........................ and do nothing........................ that would hurt them........................ are we sin........................ of course ........................