The nice man.....................

Nice story..................... Not like that video..................... God creates kindness..................... God loves kindness..................... I want kindness..................... But it is rare..................... The world full of shit..................... A lot of hurts..................... Bad people is everywhere..................... I want to be good..................... And i want to be contageous..................... So i can change them..................... Change the world.....................

The nice kid.....................

I used to be like him..................... Solve everything with kindness..................... Only know black and white..................... Not anymore..................... There are a lot of grey areas..................... And the input from outside..................... Make me question everything..................... It is not as simple as it used to be..................... Everything is complicated..................... Many factors in it..................... Mostly bad ones..................... The hate controls the world.....................

Ara ata nada.....................

Hope he is fine..................... I think he is moving there..................... With his new husband..................... With his new job..................... With his new love..................... With his new life..................... Hope he is happy..................... And can make me happy too..................... When i need him..................... When i am sad..................... When i need company..................... It has been a very long..................... Up and down relation..................... God with us.....................

The lost memory.....................

I am losing it..................... Oh my god..................... I know i have it..................... I give sign in my hand..................... But i cant remember it..................... And it is very annoying..................... I want to know..................... What was that..................... What should i do..................... Something is wrong..................... Really wrong..................... I should do something..................... But i dont know what it is..................... Damn.....................

The weird man.....................

He serves well..................... But he gets distraction..................... He loves it more..................... Than giving a good service..................... Really weird..................... Something about him..................... Very annoying..................... Dont know what it is..................... Dont know why..................... But my heart feels it..................... I am sure something is wrong..................... Something is not right.....................

The people.....................

The full booked..................... But the favourite place it is..................... Love the design..................... Love the situation..................... The layout the price..................... Love the aura..................... But sometimes it is packed..................... And i dont like it..................... Now i force myself to love it..................... Love them..................... Love all of them..................... No matter what..................... Maybe there is someone..................... Among them for me..................... Sent from up above..................... Just for me..................... Hope it is real.....................

The eat.....................

Hate it..................... When you cant control yourself..................... Want to lose the desire..................... To all of them..................... So i can be what i want..................... Feeling empty..................... All the time..................... Love the sick..................... Loved them all the time..................... But now..................... Got easily weak..................... It is all in the brain..................... I should know it..................... It is all imagination..................... I will kill them.....................

The money box.....................

Now or then..................... That is the question..................... I should do it now..................... Coz we dont know..................... What will happen tomorrow..................... Maybe there will be many..................... To do tomorrow..................... And you dont have time..................... To do what you actually can today..................... That is the thought..................... Good job..................... Lets do that again..................... Sometimes..................... All the times.....................

The rain.....................

Love the rain now..................... Not like it used to be..................... Hate it when it comes..................... Feeling disturbed..................... Annoying the journey..................... Now it is a company..................... Through every mood..................... Wash all the bad things..................... Clear all the sorrow..................... Let it comes..................... Flow through your skin..................... Wipe your face clean..................... Be happy with it.....................

The guest.....................

Very charming..................... Interesting person..................... Hold the situation..................... Just leave it be..................... When it means to be..................... It will be..................... Dont push it..................... Everything goes on its way..................... They have their destiny..................... Whether you like it or not..................... It comes when it comes..................... It goes when it goes..................... You follow through..................... Put your heart aside..................... Hot hurt feeling..................... Enjoy the moment..................... Cherish the picture.....................

The hesitation.....................

Going or staying..................... Many things in the head..................... Many thoughts wandering around..................... Very irritating..................... And then you just do it..................... What the heck..................... Whatever consequences are..................... Will face them bravely..................... Not to be afraid..................... I will win..................... I will held my head high..................... It is me..................... Everything will be fine..................... You are with me..................... All the time.....................

Being the me.....................

It is burdening..................... Many responsibilities..................... The future of them..................... The future of me..................... The future of world..................... Oh then it comes..................... The obstacle..................... That always makes me angry..................... Irritates me to the bones..................... Itch under my skin..................... So much anger..................... To it..................... Curse it..................... Curse the world..................... There it is gone..................... The peacefull.....................

Dear god.....................

I feel you..................... Lately..................... You are closer..................... And much more closer..................... Many signs..................... That you are here..................... With me..................... The smoothness..................... Of everything..................... The changing of self..................... Being spiritful..................... Being organized.....................

Dear jobs.....................

There you come..................... A lot of you..................... Many things..................... Done this and then..................... Come others..................... Never stop..................... Never end..................... But this is me..................... Unstoppable..................... Unconquerable..................... I will beat you..................... I will defeat you..................... All of you.....................

Dear morning.....................

Love to meet you..................... It is a rare occasion..................... But lately..................... It feels good..................... To be with you..................... Dance with you..................... Walk with you..................... Run with you..................... Going here..................... Going there..................... Going everywhere..................... To all direction..................... To conquer the world..................... To wander the universe.....................