i want to win the battle you give me...............................

but sometimes it feels very hard to do so............................... let alone you force me to face it by myself............................... can you give me a partner............................... to accompany me............................... to lead me to be always on your road............................... then i will wait............................... then the wait is never ending............................... and sometimes i feel desperate............................... i just want you to take it all............................... i just want you to take me to your home ..................................

my motorbike is outside......................................

there is someone...................................... there are many misscall...................................... dear lord...................................... i am afraid...................................... dear lord protect me please...................................... dear lord i love you so much...................................... i should not be afraid...................................... afraid only to lord...................................... he is almighty...................................... everything will be alright...................................... if he allows he will always protect me...................................... i think he who made me not answering those calls ...........................................

if sis asked for money................................

for all the house needs................................ this and that................................ electricity water soap perfume maid etc................................ i always get angry inside................................ that was before................................ that was back then................................ feel like i want to run away................................ move out and rent a room again................................ now i change myself................................ my mind................................ i want to let it go................................ pray hard that i will be able to pay all that................................ pray hard that my fortune will always come smoothly................................ to pay all the needs in life................................ in the name of lord i hope sis will graduate soon................................ i hope she will get job soon.................................. i hope she will get married soon.................................. i hope she will always be saved ..................................

it is raining..........................................

very heavy.......................................... i ride my motorbike.......................................... it feels so good.......................................... it has been a while since i enjoy reining.......................................... it feels as if lord bathe me.......................................... i hope all my sins are faded away.......................................... together with the lord's bathing me.......................................... i hope this sickness from raining has a disguise blessing.......................................... i hope this illness can wipe away all my sins.......................................... i hope lord always protect me.................................................................................... from all bad people that make me scared.......................................... from this moment on.......................................... i swear not to fear anything.......................................... but lord ..........................................

there is a suspicious rider in front of aunt's house........................................

dear lord i am afraid........................................ dear lord please protect me........................................ dear lord i love you........................................ dear lord save me........................................ from all bad people........................................ dear lord i am tired feeling afraid all the time........................................ i want to be calm'........................................ i want this torture to stop........................................ i know it is your punishment........................................ for all my sins........................................ in a way this is effective........................................ i am scared to meet people........................................ i only meet them outside rainbow circle........................................ lord i love you ........................................

it is error at office..........................................

it is error at cafe.......................................... in the name of lord.......................................... i hope it is over soon.......................................... he is almighty.......................................... i jope it runs smoothly thus i can work.......................................... if he allows i hope he blesses all the things i do now.......................................... i want to do all my tasks.......................................... i want to finish all my jobs.......................................... i want to be free from all burdens.......................................... but that is impossible.......................................... if it will be finished today.......................................... there will come other assignments.......................................... lord i want to be happy.......................................... with all my doings ..........................................

weird ………………………………..

I take her home with my motor ……………………………….. and then I got flat tire ……………………………….. then she gets angry ……………………………….. she is furious to me ……………………………….. she points at me that I didn’t check my tires at morning ……………………………….. then I got it ……………………………….. what is the connection the tires in the morning with what happening now ……………………………….. morning tires are fine ……………………………….. the prove is that I survive to the office safely ……………………………….. flat tire has so many reasons ……………………………….. that has nothing to do with what happen in the morning ……………………………….. it could be the nails, the broken glass, or elseweird ……………………………….. after getting angry ……………………………….. she left me ……………………………….. ordering online taxi ……………………………….. magically ……………………………….. gone by the wind ………………………………..