They say you should spread love.......................

Thus you will get love....................... You reap what you sow....................... But it is difficult to spread love....................... If you are so down in the mud....................... In the dark alley....................... Falling from the top of the mountain....................... To the bottomless part of sorrow....................... Give the fake smile....................... Give it to them....................... Just give the damn fake smile .......................

That hurts.......................

Rejection always hurts....................... Dragging you down....................... So low....................... That you think you cant get up again....................... But you do....................... Eventually....................... Need times....................... A long times....................... Need efforts....................... A lot of them....................... And you just do it by yourself....................... On your won....................... With nobody’s help....................... Noone cant help you....................... It is you....................... The most important part.......................

I want to go home.......................

So me your place....................... Lead me to you....................... It is heavy....................... Very heavy....................... God is loving me....................... God is hurting me....................... He loves me in his way....................... You will get fucked over....................... If you dont take care of yourself....................... Just take care of yourself....................... Nobody will....................... You are responsible for yourself .......................

If i have it on my own.......................

I will not come here....................... Maybe there is a reason why you ask me to come here....................... But still i hate you....................... Curse you....................... You always fail me....................... Watching him....................... So much to offer....................... What about me....................... I have nothing....................... Make me down....................... So bad....................... Are you still there god....................... Come to me....................... See me now....................... Come quick .......................

Did i do something wrong...............................

Did i choose him in a hurry............................... Coz i dont want to be alone............................... Should i wait for a better one............................... The right one............................... But what is the right one............................... It is very difficult............................... Oh my god............................... He looks like him............................... Hot damn............................... Dont want to sleep............................... Really............................... Dont want to bring this feeling into bed............................... Uneasy feeling............................... Restless feeling............................... Uncomfortable feeling ...............................

Want to end all...................

It is too much................... The weight is overwhelming................... Lets ruin everything................... Lets destroy everything................... Lets hurt it all................... The skin................... The brain................... The head................... The eyes................... The stomach................... All of them................... Godddddddddddd ...................

Hahaha...................

You make me cry................... You asshole................... The truth is the hardest................... Bullshit................... The honesty is disheartening................... Arghhhhhh................... Oh my god................... The chest is squeezing................... Dont want to sleep................... Everything is wrong................... All is painful ...................

That hurts a lot...................

I feel you bro................... You drag me down again................... I am tired................... I cant hold on................... I am losing it................... My mind................... Damn you................... Why are you so heartless................... Fuck you................... Those damn creatures................... Are on the sky level................... You bitch................... I want to join them................... You block me................... Why................... Am i not deserve it ...................

I hate myself...................

Today................... Yesterday................... It is so damn wrong................... Something wrong................... It is from the same group................... Twice i fail................... Both of the reasons are................... From that group................... Do i have to stay away................... From them................... Tell me god................... You decrease the number of my friend................... A lot................... Lately................... Who should i hang out with...................

Dont know what to talk...................

Dont know everything................... Then i force myself................... I join them................... Just shaking hands................... And being a very good listeners................... Thx god................... You are nice................... Hope you do that again................... Too much................... I take too much................... I cant control myself...................

Then the tears fall...................

Damn................... I want that so bad................... God.. send me one................... Please................... It nears the end................... Thx god................... There are fathers................... Outside my house................... I am afraid at first................... Dont want to join them................... But want to join them................... But i am afraid ...................

Suicidal...................

Am i................... Do you think so................... This is devastating................... I am judging them................... And i am one of them................... God loves me................... He has a funny way................... To show me................... I dont understand................... Very strange language................... I keep watching................... I keep laughing ...................

30 juni 17 jumat.............................

Jumatan............................. Pedurungan nunut net............................. Wrg............................. Allahuakbar.............................

29 juni 17 kamis.............................

Alfmrt............................. Pedurungan............................. Nunut net............................. Nunut buko............................. Allahuakbar.............................

28 juni 17 rabu.............................

Sore k pedurungan............................. Nunu net............................. Nunut buko............................. Sk............................. Allahuakbar.............................

27 juni 17 selasa.............................

Kesiangan............................. Virgin............................. Olip............................. Nina............................. Alfmrt............................. Allahuakbar.............................

26 juni 17 senen.............................

Pedurungan nunut net............................. Allahuakbar.............................