My pray vs ma…………………………………………………..

She pray that I will go back………………………………………………….. I am shocked………………………………………………….. Why should I go back………………………………………………….. To be her servant………………………………………………….. To take care of her when she is old………………………………………………….. I will do that………………………………………………….. But it doesn’t have to be from there………………………………………………….. She want to imprison me………………………………………………….. She doesn’t want to let me go………………………………………………….. She doesn’t want to set me free………………………………………………….. It makes me very sad………………………………………………….. But cant get anger to her………………………………………………….. I can only share this thing to him………………………………………………….. I report it all to him………………………………………………….. I can release all this burden before him………………………………………………….. I cray it all out before him………………………………………………….. I want to be understood………………………………………………….. I want her to understand………………………………………………….. I want him to understand………………………………………………….. That working in my place is not easy at all………………………………………………….. It is very hard………………………………………………….. I become a slave………………………………………………….. There are many officers and the elders make me to do things………………………………………………….. Give me a lot of jobs………………………………………………….. And I never say no………………………………………………….. I cant say no………………………………………………….. i am not able to do so………………………………………………….. other thing is bout my career………………………………………………….. if I don’t have someone important in there………………………………………………….. I cant have my career………………………………………………….. It is just like yesterday………………………………………………….. I lost in the election………………………………………………….. I don’t want to be negative………………………………………………….. I don’t want to have bad thoughts………………………………………………….. But it happens………………………………………………….. The one has connection wins………………………………………………….. While I don’t have anyone there………………………………………………….. So I predict I will not have it there………………………………………………….. Other thing is………………………………………………….. the salary is like that………………………………………………….. in local currency………………………………………………….. if I work here………………………………………………….. ít will be different currency………………………………………………….. and the standard is also different………………………………………………….. maybe here I will have big salary………………………………………………….. I can save more………………………………………………….. For my old days………………………………………………….. And get my career here………………………………………………….. Not like there………………………………………………….. In the name of lord………………………………………………….. Lets pray hard………………………………………………….. Very hard………………………………………………….. Harder than her………………………………………………….. If he allows…………………………………………………………………..………………………………….. Lets see whose pray got granted………………………………………………….. Mine or her………………………………………………….. He is the greatest………………………………………………….. He will make miracles………………………………………………….. I hope it is mine ………………………………………………………..

mrb and mra……………………………………………………

…………………………………………………… they shop a lot…………………………………………………… for our food…………………………………………………… the three of us…………………………………………………… each person must contribute more than one million…………………………………………………… holy dank…………………………………………………… must be patient…………………………………………………… part of me is not willing…………………………………………………… but I force it to do so…………………………………………………… it is not my money…………………………………………………… in a way it is government money…………………………………………………… but they give it to me…………………………………………………… so it is my money…………………………………………………… I want to use it properly…………………………………………………… I want to save some…………………………………………………… In the name of lord…………………………………………………… I hope it is enough till the end…………………………………………………… If he allows…………………………………………………… The food will enough for the whole program…………………………………………………… He is the greatest…………………………………………………… He will make miracles…………………………………………………… He will it is enough ………………………………………………………

i think something……………………………………………

then she disturb me…………………………………………… and it has gone…………………………………………… and it is annoying…………………………………………… damn…………………………………………… in the name of lord…………………………………………… it always happens like this…………………………………………… I always have a train of thought…………………………………………… My mind always wanders everywhere…………………………………………… I cant stop it…………………………………………… I cant control it…………………………………………… If he allows…………………………………………… Then if someone disturbs my train of thought…………………………………………… I get lost…………………………………………… And it is very annoying…………………………………………… I cant go back to my train…………………………………………… I forget where is my train…………………………………………… He is the greatest…………………………………………… He will make miracles…………………………………………… He will make everything ok …………………………………………………

Mrsx……………………………………………

Can be negative…………………………………………… Cant have bad mood…………………………………………… Must be positive…………………………………………… Just pray hard…………………………………………… The plan is…………………………………………… Make another proposal…………………………………………… The object is this land…………………………………………… Conduct research here…………………………………………… Immigrant people…………………………………………… And must be confident…………………………………………… Bout my articles…………………………………………… Show to mrsx…………………………………………… Show to mrr…………………………………………… In the name of lord…………………………………………… May he help me…………………………………………… If he allows…………………………………………… Mrsx will say yes…………………………………………… He is the greatest…………………………………………… He will make miracles…………………………………………… He will grant my wishes ………………………………………………

Dream the dream…………………………………………..

Go around the world………………………………………….. As lecturer………………………………………….. As model………………………………………….. As star………………………………………….. That kind of star………………………………………….. In the name of lord………………………………………….. May he hear me………………………………………….. If he allows………………………………………….. I will get all that………………………………………….. He is the greatest………………………………………….. He will make miracles………………………………………….. He will grant my wishes ……………………………………………..

mrsx………………………………………….

Potential supervisor…………………………………………. In the name of lord…………………………………………. Confused at first…………………………………………. T hought it was bad…………………………………………. I am afraid it was bad…………………………………………. Don’t be afraid…………………………………………. He arrange everything…………………………………………. If he allows…………………………………………. She will be my supervisor…………………………………………. Sorry if there is negativity in my head…………………………………………. I am really afraid of it all…………………………………………. Afraid that she will say no…………………………………………. He is the greatest…………………………………………. He will make miracles…………………………………………. He will make she say yes…………………………………………. He will give me los…………………………………………. He will give me grants …………………………………………….

Food…………………………………

Initially we don’t know each other well………………………………… We read each other………………………………… We don’t get along well at the beginning………………………………… We don’t acknowledge each other………………………………… Then there is that………………………………… The intervention………………………………… Do I join them………………………………… Thx lord………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………… I hope it lasts till the end………………………………… If he allows………………………………… Feeling weird………………………………… Cooking and washing………………………………… Don’t feel ok………………………………… The accident happened………………………………… Cutting finger………………………………… Hopefully it doesn’t happen again………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………… Now I think to myself………………………………… I must be positive………………………………… Taking it all………………………………… Enjoy the cooking………………………………… Enjoy the washing………………………………… They are positive for me………………………………… It is positive from him …………………………………

Them…………………………………

At first they say now………………………………… Most of them………………………………… Then I got a thought………………………………… This is just recreation for them………………………………… Quietly they got accepted in another place………………………………… Thx lord for them………………………………… But now I find all of them apply here………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………… Being afraid………………………………… That their initial story was made to block me………………………………… If he allows………………………………… It is just my thought………………………………… Don’t be afraid of them………………………………… Be afraid just of him only………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………… He will make miracle………………………………… They aren’t like that………………………………… I must keep my positive………………………………… Hence all positive energy come to me …………………………………

Lunch…………………………………

I want rice………………………………… But my friends force me to have bread………………………………… At first I don’t like it………………………………… I hardly can swallow it………………………………… Now I just enjoy it………………………………… I force myself to enjoy it………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………… There is positive behind all of this………………………………… If he allows………………………………… I will save money………………………………… I will be thin………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………… He will make everything alright …………………………………

I hope it is the right choice…………………………………

enjoy the wet………………………………… enjoy the company………………………………… enjoy the rain………………………………… in the name of lord………………………………… thx god you save me that time………………………………… if he allows………………………………… he will make another chance for me………………………………… to visit the other place………………………………… he is the greatest………………………………… he will make miracles………………………………… feeling guilty………………………………… shopping a lot………………………………… he will make everything ok …………………………………

Many jobs…………………………………

Wake up late………………………………… Feeling very bad………………………………… Feeling depressed………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………… I hope I can finish all………………………………… If he allows………………………………… He will help me to do so………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………… All job will be done………………………………… Flawlessly …………………………………

Dropping egg…………………………………

what happen………………………………… feel bad………………………………… feel awkward………………………………… in the name of lord………………………………… hope will not do that again………………………………… if he allows………………………………… I will cook fine………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………… I will be expert in cooking …………………………………

Deean said these things…………………………………

Knowing the core………………………………… Having skill………………………………… Having personality………………………………… I hope I have them all………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………… I hope I can impress her when I meet her………………………………… If he allows………………………………… She will say yes………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………… She will be willing to be mine …………………………………..

Wet the bed again…………………………………

Lord………………………………… What did I do………………………………… I feel like this is a punishment………………………………… That I did something wrong………………………………… What did I do………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………… Makes me scared………………………………… If he allows………………………………… Hope he will not make me do it again………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………… He will make me ok………………………………… He will make everything ok ………………………………………

maybe this is some kind of warning for me from him………………………………………..

he doesn’t give me direct warning……………………………………….. he uses this way……………………………………….. or maybe he did give me direct warning……………………………………….. but I am stupid……………………………………….. I didn’t know……………………………………….. I am not sensitive……………………………………….. Hence this way……………………………………….. As I am not being grateful for all this time……………………………………….. I always try to find a way to run away……………………………………….. As I am not happy……………………………………….. I want to be happy……………………………………….. I want to find love……………………………………….. I want love……………………………………….. I hope I can find one……………………………………….. At my old place……………………………………….. If I don’t find one……………………………………….. I hope he put me in new place……………………………………….. Where I can find one……………………………………….. I hope love can make my heart calm……………………………………….. I hope love can make my heart happy……………………………………….. I hope love is what I try to find……………………………………….. As sometimes I don’t really know what I look for……………………………………….. I am clueless……………………………………….. I am confused………………………………………..

mrsa………………………………………..

she got nice position……………………………………….. civil servant……………………………………….. but she shows no gratitude……………………………………….. she wants challenges……………………………………….. she finds this job has no challenges whatsoever……………………………………….. thats why she treats this job very badly……………………………………….. at first i got annoyed……………………………………….. but who am i……………………………………….. no judging……………………………………….. juat pray for her……………………………………….. may she finds peace at her place……………………………………….. may she finds a lot of challenges in her place……………………………………….. challenges can have many faces……………………………………….. the one that make her facing the coworkers……………………………………….. many kinds of them……………………………………….. the one that make her facing the students……………………………………….. various kinds of them……………………………………….. the one that make her facing the asignments……………………………………….. many kinds of them………………………………………..

they say india is dominating…………………………………..

I hope they have positive thoughts about each other………………………………….. I don’t like seeing them in dispute………………………………….. I don’t like seeing them having negative thoughts about each other………………………………….. I like them being in peace………………………………….. I like them loving each other………………………………….. In the name of lord………………………………….. I hope he will make everyone get along well………………………………….. If he allows………………………………….. He will make the world in peace…………………………………..………………………………….. He is the greatest………………………………….. He will make miracles………………………………….. He will make everybody pray for peace………………………………….. He will make everything runs peacefully …………………………………………..

the rainbow land………………………….

he said it is sick…………………………. in the name of lord…………………………. I hope you will make them ok with it…………………………. I hope you will make the world ok with it…………………………. I hope you are ok with it…………………………. If he allows…………………………. You will make my kind of people ok…………………………. You will make my kind of people fine…………………………. You will make my kind of people wonderful…………………………. You will make my kind of people amazing…………………………. You will make my kind of people awesome…………………………. You will make my kind of people fabulous…………………………. He is the greatest…………………………. He will make miracles…………………………. He will make me ok…………………………. He will make me fine…………………………. He will make me wonderful…………………………. He will make me amazing…………………………. He will make me awesome…………………………. He will make me fabulous…………………………. He will make me having happy ending ………………………….

pa announce in group family…………………………………..

initially I am afraid………………………………….. afraid being assumed that I am cocky………………………………….. then I get angry………………………………….. angry that he announced it without telling me first………………………………….. then I got disgusted………………………………….. how come he do that………………………………….. how come he has that kind of thing………………………………….. now I try to be fine………………………………….. in the name of lord………………………………….. trying to have positive thoughts on all of these………………………………….. trying to throw away all the negative thoughts on all of these………………………………….. if he allows…………………………………..………………………………….. all of these will have positive impacts………………………………….. all of these will not have negative impacts………………………………….. he is the greatest………………………………….. he will make miracles………………………………….. all will be positive………………………………….. he will throw away all negative…………………………………..

oil waste…………………………………..

make me strong lord………………………………….. I am not that strong to see all that………………………………….. In the name of lord………………………………….. If it is sin………………………………….. Forgive them………………………………….. Forgive me………………………………….. Who cant warn them………………………………….. If he allows………………………………….. He will make them realize it………………………………….. They will not waste anything anymore………………………………….. They will not make what you give useless………………………………….. It is all about money………………………………….. Don’t make them waste money………………………………….. He is the greatest………………………………….. He will make miracles………………………………….. All of these will be fine………………………………….. He will make all of these fine …………………………………………..

24 nov 19 minggu…………………………………………..

………………………………………….. With bu susi n pak aldo………………………………………….. Notnon parade………………………………………….. Tim Horton………………………………………….. Took tas………………………………………….. Sobey………………………………………….. Dolarama………………………………………….. Belanja banyak………………………………………….. Allahuakbar…………………………………………..

23 nov 19 sabtu …………………………………………………..

Perpus………………………………………….. Allahuakbar…………………………………………..

22 nov 19 jumat……………………………………………..

Spencer…………………………………………….. Jumatan…………………………………………….. Pul…………………………………………….. Io…………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………..

21 nov 19 kamis…………………………………

Xumili…………………………………………….. Kecelek ke spencer…………………………………………….. Class at uc…………………………………………….. Took buku…………………………………………….. Kantin…………………………………………….. Nunggu dexter…………………………………………….. Bus…………………………………………….. Dinner program…………………………………………….. Allahuakbar……………………………………………..

20 nov 19 rabu ……………………………………

Pasca………………………………… Uc………………………………… Spencer………………………………… International office………………………………… Mlm laundry with sayid………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………

19 nov 19 selasa…………………………

Sit in with arin………………………………… Took mun………………………………… Library………………………………… Tim Horton………………………………… Uc………………………………… Class at spencer………………………………… Meeting ith dean of graduate school………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………

18 nov 19 senen ……………………………

Io………………………… Pul………………………… Class………………………… Pergi with sayid n zul………………………… Kesasar 2x………………………… Ditinggal zul………………………… Thrift store………………………… Value village………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………

17 nov 19 minggu ………………………………

Perpus…………………………… Allahuakbar……………………………

16 nov 19 sabtu …………………………………

Village mall……………………………… W arin n aldo……………………………… Rosy……………………………… Dolarama……………………………… Walmart……………………………… Sobey……………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………