back then pray bad for them……………………………………………………………………………….

as they do bad things………………………………………………………………………………. they cheat when they do their exam………………………………………………………………………………. when I monitor them………………………………………………………………………………. now I had good pray for them………………………………………………………………………………. I force myself to do that………………………………………………………………………………. though it is very hard………………………………………………………………………………. I hope they realize what they do is wrong………………………………………………………………………………. I hope they will be better people………………………………………………………………………………. I hope they will not cheat again………………………………………………………………………………. in the future they will do their best in their exam ……………………………………………………………………………….

it has been days……………………………………………………………………………….

this thing is error………………………………………………………………………………. but other can operate this………………………………………………………………………………. so I think something is wrong………………………………………………………………………………. is it my lappy………………………………………………………………………………. but in other places this lappy is ok………………………………………………………………………………. at pedurungan it works………………………………………………………………………………. in café it works………………………………………………………………………………. then what………………………………………………………………………………. does this office block me………………………………………………………………………………. maybe yes………………………………………………………………………………. they see my history………………………………………………………………………………. there I had downloaded many things………………………………………………………………………………. maybe that’s why it is happening………………………………………………………………………………. they block me………………………………………………………………………………. wna to go up there………………………………………………………………………………. to their office………………………………………………………………………………. but I am afraid………………………………………………………………………………. what if they confront me about what I had downloaded………………………………………………………………………………. that will be embarrassing ………………………………………………………………………………. so let it be………………………………………………………………………………. lets do this in places………………………………………………………………………………. in café………………………………………………………………………………. in pedurungan ……………………………………………………………………………….

not fearing anything except lord............................................

put it in in your head............................................ protection from lord is the best............................................ protection of a group of certain people............................................ and other earthly things............................................ are not as great as his protection............................................ the protection from cops............................................ the bad ones............................................ the ones who pretend to be good............................................ some of crooks............................................ no............................................ many of them are protected by bad cops............................................ protection from thugs............................................ the group of la............................................ they said that this group are the most powerful one in this city'............................................ i am afraid............................................ dreaming having a partner from high rank of thugs............................................ high rank of la group............................................ then hoping it will be safe............................................ what the heck ............................................

that beau place ........................................

it exists ........................................ but not real ........................................ we can get there ........................................ if we fix our mind ........................................ it is the same as now ........................................ but we will see it differently ........................................ very pretty ........................................ if we clear our brain ........................................ if we have pure heart ........................................ our eyes will see that kind of place ........................................ i hope i will get there ........................................ i am not at ut now ........................................ i hope i will be in the future ........................................ i hope he allows this ........................................ either in the near future ........................................ or later as he pleases ........................................

suddenly remember being followed by many satans.........................................................

when i was in college......................................................... mrh owed me money and he doesnt pay it back up to now......................................................... mrb borrowing harddisk and he doesnt return it till now......................................................... when i stayed in aunt......................................................... my old friend borrowed my tele......................................................... and he doesnt return it till now......................................................... when i was in menoreh......................................................... my lappy was stolen......................................................... then mro helped me pretending to be a police and threathened him......................................................... my lappy was back but not my files......................................................... when i was in tegalsari......................................................... my harddisk was stolen......................................................... when i was in pamularsih......................................................... my next door neighbor was robbed......................................................... when i was in kampungkali......................................................... my laundry got stolen so many times......................................................... my money and lappy were stolen......................................................... i hope all of these can pay my debt to you......................................................... now the satan stalking me......................................................... it is very scary......................................................... lord i am afraid......................................................... lord i love you......................................................... lord protect me please .........................................................

shutting off the lappt too soon....................................

it is still taking a long time.................................... i am confused what to do.................................... writing that and this.................................... sharing this and that.................................... then hearing the calling.................................... then going there.................................... it is unusual.................................... may lord accept this.................................... may lord receive my visit.................................... may lord receive my pray.................................... may lord bless me.................................... is it okay, right.................................... to expect things from him.................................... the reward of his love.................................... the reward of his care.................................... the reward of his compasion.................................... and much more ....................................

suddenly think of that ……………………….

am I included in lord’s class ………………………. the one who will receive the protection ………………………. the love ………………………. it will be scary if I am not in it ………………………. I should convince myself ………………………. that I am in his class ………………………. lets make sure of it ………………………. being his good whorshipper ………………………. making myself better ………………………. making myself worth before him ………………………. making him love me ………………………. making him protect me ………………………. making him take me to his home ……………………….

15 jan 19 selasa……………………………………………………………………………….

kampus………………………………………………………………………………. fatimazahra………………………………………………………………………………. kampus………………………………………………………………………………. Pamela………………………………………………………………………………. allahuakbar……………………………………………………………………………….

14 jan 19 senen……………………………………………………………………………….

kampus………………………………………………………………………………. bank jateng ngantar Pamela………………………………………………………………………………. kampus ambil motor………………………………………………………………………………. ngantar Pamela………………………………………………………………………………. alfa………………………………………………………………………………. allahuakbar……………………………………………………………………………….

13 jan 19 ming……………………………………………………………………………….

dpmall………………………………………………………………………………. allahuakbar……………………………………………………………………………….

12 jan 19 sabtu……………………………………………………………………………….

mall………………………………………………………………………………. café………………………………………………………………………………. nonton………………………………………………………………………………. wrg………………………………………………………………………………. mlm rapat rt………………………………………………………………………………. allahuakbar……………………………………………………………………………….

11 jan 19 jumat……………………………………………………………………………….

kampus………………………………………………………………………………. alfa………………………………………………………………………………. allahuakbar……………………………………………………………………………….

10 jan 19 kamis……………………………………………………………………………….

wrg………………………………………………………………………………. kampus………………………………………………………………………………. ayamsemar w bika bmei………………………………………………………………………………. kampus ambil motor………………………………………………………………………………. allahuakbar……………………………………………………………………………….

9 jan 19 rabu……………………………………………………………………………….

kampus………………………………………………………………………………. dpmall………………………………………………………………………………. ped………………………………………………………………………………. ngaji………………………………………………………………………………. allahuakbar……………………………………………………………………………….

8 jan 19 selasa …………………………………………………………………..

kampus………………………………………………………………………………. allahuakbar……………………………………………………………………………….