Cant see the road.....................

Afraid..................... Dont have the courage..................... To see the ongoing process..................... Of the journey..................... So the conclusion is..................... Being irritated coz of them..................... Using the chair..................... Uncomfortable .....................

The sound of the irritated soul.....................

The chair irritates me..................... It cant go incline..................... The food irritates me..................... It is too much..................... The breakfast..................... Snack one..................... Snack two..................... It makes me bloating..................... Hot damn..................... Feel irritated .....................

The sun too.....................

Irritates me..................... It strikes me..................... Through the window..................... Really hot..................... Uncomfortable..................... The bus too..................... Very fast..................... And break a lot of rules..................... And dangerous..................... And so be it..................... Just enjoy the journey..................... It will get there..................... Savely..................... Eventually .....................

The sun too.....................

The sun too..................... Irritates me..................... It strikes me..................... Through the window..................... Really hot..................... Uncomfortable..................... The bus too..................... Very fast..................... And break a lot of rules..................... And dangerous..................... And so be it..................... Just enjoy the journey..................... It will get there..................... Savely..................... Eventually .....................

Thx god.....................

I bring this..................... The pen and the paper..................... It saves me..................... What..................... Coz you just can do it..................... Pour it out..................... On it..................... On the paper..................... To erase the pain..................... You feel inside..................... Nothing else matter..................... You find your world there.....................

Very disturbing.....................

Very annoying..................... Everything crushes you..................... Heart and soul..................... Hot damn..................... It has been a while..................... To use that phrase..................... Miss that phrase..................... But then again..................... It is so damn frustrating..................... The song too..................... Irritates you..................... To the bone..................... Make you feel ill.....................

How to enjoy it.....................

What should i do..................... Something must be done..................... To fill the gap..................... The hole in the chest..................... Something wrong..................... So much error..................... Trouble is friend..................... She is in so much state..................... The kind that will put you..................... In the position where..................... You cant be on the level..................... Of being in the sunshine.....................

And they walk.....................

Fruit for eyes..................... Hope that kind of thing..................... Who is beside me..................... But that is just hope..................... Just dream..................... Just wish..................... It would be great..................... If that kind of thing..................... Come to reality..................... But it doesnt..................... And that bothers you alot..................... Your being got disturbed.....................

And then the brain.....................

Wanders..................... The thought gets something..................... To entertain your soul..................... So that you are not annoyed..................... Everything will be ok if you can..................... Accept everything what is..................... In front of you..................... Coz the lord plans it..................... So believe it..................... It is for the best..................... There is a reason..................... There is a meaning..................... Behind all of this..................... You just dont know it yet .....................

The want.....................

The hope..................... Is not like the reality..................... Wish to be alone..................... In my chair..................... And i will be free..................... To do everything..................... Not being disturbed..................... But the reality is..................... Someone sits next to me..................... That is annoying..................... The solution is..................... To accept all condition..................... So just calm yourself..................... Your nerve..................... Your brain..................... Everything will be ok..................... And then you can enjoy..................... This thing into max .....................

The stop.....................

The song..................... What..................... The next sit..................... Everything is annoying..................... I just pour it out before..................... On the writings..................... But still..................... It still..................... Annoying to the core..................... Hot damn..................... What should i do..................... I had forced myself..................... To accept all .....................

Mosque....................

The distraction.................... Comes from everywhere.................... Left.................... Right.................... And inside.................... And they win.................... So bad.................... And i lose.................... So great.................... Just give it all to him.................... Let him handle all of this.................... I had tried so hard.................... To be the winner.................... Afraid if they can hear my thoughts.................... Afraid that they will not sit next to my sides.................... Afraid of evrything.................... Should not.................... Coz lord with me....................

Room....................

Watching the series.................... Other stories.................... Sad stories.................... I cry.................... But i cant cry.................... Of my own story.................... My sad stories.................... I am numb.................... That is weird.................... I feel weird.................... Strange.................... Seems like.................... I cant explain.................... It is what it is....................

Waiting is the most depressing thing for me....................

My mind wanders all around.................... Think negatively.................... Hating them.................... Coz they make me wait for them.................... Think that maybe something bad happens to them.................... Coz they are not here.................... If they are fine.................... They should come now.................... Not make me waiting.................... Hot damn....................

The plan is....................

When i am at my room.................... I plan to do jobs at office.................... But when i am at office.................... I just not do it.................... Coz i choose to do something else.................... Play with the net.................... Stupid me.................... And then i plan to do.................... The jobs at home.................... But when i am at home.................... I dont do it.................... I choose to do something else.................... Watching the series.................... A lot of them.................... I think i will need a lot of time.................... The rest of my time.................... Maybe.................... It is frustrating.................... Is it the devil.................... I always give myself.................... A lot of reasons for not doing the jobs.................... That is bad.................... Really bad.................... Want to curse myself....................

The x vid....................

And the story in the series.................... They are a match.................... What if.................... The god gives that story to me.................... To tell me.................... That there are others out there.................... Seem there is trouble.................... Hope everything will be fine.................... Hope the show will go on.................... Without interference.................... It is important.................... Pray to lord.................... He will help ....................

Now at office....................

Wait for them.................... I have already announced.................... But nobody comes.................... I want to go there.................... But i should wait for them instead.................... Wish they are on time.................... So i can do many jobs.................... Not like this.................... I have to postpone.................... Coz i have to wait for them.................... Damn ....................

24 mei 17 rabu ............................

Hotel cek out’............................ Sukowati............................ Otw smg............................ Lunch at soka............................ Diner at situbondo............................ Allahuakbar............................

23 mei 17 selasa ............................

Brajasandi............................ Tari barong............................ Dewata............................ Pandawa............................ Jimbaran ............................

22 mei 17 senen ............................

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21 mei 17 minggu ............................

Otw kampus by gocar............................ Otw bali w pgsd 11 bus............................ Maksi at tuban............................ Diner at probolinggo............................ Allahuakbar............................

20 mei 17 sabtu ............................

Hotel w satrio............................ Sarapan soto at hasanudin............................ Pul............................ Jemput maya............................ Resepsi arif and widya............................ Ngantar maya............................ Baiturahman meet satrio............................ Nonton at eplasa............................ Atm............................ Allahuakbar............................

19 mei 17 jumat ............................

Kampus............................ Pul............................ Smart budget hotel............................ Simpanglima............................ Meet satrio............................ Diner at baskoro............................ Hotel w satrio............................ Allahuakbar............................

18 mei 17 kamis ............................

Kampus............................ Pul gasik............................ Allahuakbar............................