Got jealous again………………..

It feels that I am being wrongfully treated……………….. Some gets many……………….. Some gets none……………….. Just like me……………….. The part says that it is coz of the sector……………….. But……………….. The part says it doesn’t have to be like that……………….. It is free……………….. Every part can do all sectors……………….. They are expert in it……………….. Including me……………….. Fuck……………….. Being cocky……………….. Is good……………….. Isn’t it ……………….. I don’t get the testing sector……………….. I don’t get the school sector……………….. Feel sad……………….. But god has plans……………….. Much more better than that ………………..

I am afraid………………..

I wont get the sit next to the window……………….. Then again……………….. Everything comes for a reason……………….. Including that……………….. If that really will happen……………….. But I hope not……………….. And the thought of him comes again……………….. Fuck……………….. Go away……………….. Remembering the stone in my head……………….. Praying good for them……………….. Hence……………….. Praying good for me……………….. For myself……………….. Pray nice……………….. Hope they get well……………….. With their love ones……………….. They said they had ones……………….. Hidden away……………….. Pray nice……………….. And they will get well too……………….. With their secret encounters……………….. Secret adventures……………….. Hence……………….. Is it the same for me……………….. They say so……………….. It is scary……………….. They say it lightly……………….. As if nothing wrong……………….. As if what they do is not wrong……………….. Being in relation with the love ones far away hidden……………….. And being in relation here……………….. With others……………….. Makes me afraid……………….. What if……………….. I get a lovely one……………….. But secretly he treats me this way……………….. But I believe in karma……………….. As long as I play nice……………….. I will get nice people……………….. Do I play nice……………….. What the hell ………………..

The one that got away…………………..

Always irritating………………….. It feels like a very big stone………………….. Inside my head………………….. Very burdening………………….. And they call………………….. And I just move here………………….. What the hell………………….. Then again………………….. Remember that thing………………….. That everything comes for a reason………………….. Including this………………….. I sit here coz of reasons………………….. Hidden reason………………….. Don’t know what it is………………….. But there must be something behind all of these………………….. Personally………………….. I just want the source …………………..

A very nice driver…………………..

Makes me want more………………….. Imagining things………………….. Got the text………………….. Beautiful text………………….. Got involved………………….. In a very complicated way………………….. But in a very lovely way………………….. Someone is watching me………………….. Got very aware………………….. Self aware………………….. Curse………………….. Want him feel what I want………………….. Want him want what I want………………….. Really god …………………..

The story of them…………………..

Telling the truth………………….. About something they did………………….. Hidden away………………….. They got lucky………………….. Then I feel jealous………………….. Hot damn………………….. Remember the promise………………….. Not expecting anything………………….. It is just me………………….. Like this………………….. Always………………….. Want someone………………….. But someone doesn’t want me………………….. Want to get close to someone………………….. But it is only one side crush………………….. Damnnnnnn …………………..

So god…………………..

Help me please………………….. It is sickening………………….. Remembering the promise………………….. Not to expect much………………….. Not to expect at all………………….. And then………………….. He is………………….. The one………………….. Already has a family………………….. Wife and kids………………….. Hot damn …………………..

But you always appears on my mind…………………..

Fuck………………….. want to curse………………….. want not to think about you………………….. unthink you………………….. the ones who are saucy………………….. the ones who are caught by my eyes………………….. I think………………….. They are having partners………………….. Just remembering the other group………………….. It is like that………………….. The ones who are shiny………………….. Are not available………………….. Fuck …………………..

The quarter of love…………………..

The quartet………………….. The herd………………….. The group………………….. So nice to see them………………….. It is nice to watch them from afar………………….. Want to join………………….. But I am afraid………………….. Feel disconnected………………….. Feeling stupid………………….. Nothing in common………………….. Tired to take care of him………………….. Tired of you………………….. Tired of thinking over you …………………..

Their show…………………..

Their agenda…………………..………………….. Feeling as an outsider………………….. Then………………….. Let it be………………….. Be thankful………………….. Be grateful………………….. Enjoy the moment………………….. Seize the moment………………….. Holy fuck………………….. There is so much going on………………….. On my mind………………….. It is chaos………………….. Chaotic brain………………….. Hope it will explode soon …………………..

Someone is watching me………………..

Get that feeling……………….. Feel weird……………….. Awkward……………….. Could it be the one……………….. Who can be with me……………….. For the rest of my life……………….. Laughing inside……………….. The dream is insane……………….. Promise……………….. Remember the promise……………….. Not to expect anything……………….. Expecting will hurt you……………….. So bad……………….. Then again……………….. Be grateful……………….. The morning is wonderful ………………..

Lets enjoy the morning………………..

By myself……………….. Alone……………….. Love that……………….. Though……………….. This heart is screaming……………….. Yearning for someone……………….. To be with me……………….. But it is really hard……………….. To find the one……………….. Holy fuck……………….. There again……………….. Be grateful……………….. The morning is amazing ………………..

Good sleep…………………………

In tent………………………… In the praying room………………………… In tent………………………… I don’t care………………………… I can sleep everywhere………………………… Anywhere………………………… The thing is………………………… It is time to get the heart restless………………………… They show me that thing………………………… Their togetherness………………………… Holy fuck………………………… Very jealous………………………… Hurts a lot …………………………

Exploding…………………………

It is better isn’t it………………………… Than just feeling like this………………………… Hell………………………… Restless………………………… So heart broken………………………… Why do they do the love stuffs? ………………………… Here I got dumped by the text………………………… They got lovey dopey………………………… Show off in front of my eyes………………………… Hot damn………………………… Shit………………………… The whistle is on …………………………

The mind is tearing apart……………..

The break up…………….. The view of love…………….. In front of my eyes…………….. Makes me jealous…………….. Hurt my feeling…………….. So bad…………….. Want to cry…………….. Shout it out…………….. Very loud…………….. Scream to the lung…………….. Till your heart out ……………..

I know it is hurtful a lot……………..

But help me handle it…………….. I want to be strong…………….. Him…………….. Got distracted…………….. For a while…………….. Don’t let the hope up…………….. Just be normal…………….. Take it easy…………….. Food festival…………….. Damn…………….. Too crowded…………….. Small plate…………….. Too many people…………….. It is difficult to eat…………….. But in the end…………….. I force myself…………….. To enjoy everything’…………….. And thx god…………….. I got full……………..

At first he won’t pick me up……………..

But in the end…………….. He did…………….. Thx god…………….. The journey was save…………….. Thx god…………….. He texted me…………….. He gets angry…………….. He dumped me again…………….. So…………….. Lord…………….. Let me be in peace ……………..

A very expensive ride………………..

But thx god……………….. It get me there on time……………….. His place is bad……………….. But thx god……………….. I can do my business……………….. The accident……………….. Flat tire……………….. Walk for a very long time……………….. But thx god……………….. We are save……………….. And we finally found……………….. The service place……………….. And thx god it makes me healthy ………………..

Is a good place………………..

Very nice……………….. Good looking people……………….. Make me want more……………….. But then again……………….. Promise yourself……………….. Not expecting everything……………….. Lets go flashback……………….. Nice walk……………….. Nice ride……………….. Though……………….. You grumble inside……………….. At first……………….. Coz you don’t have your breakfast first……………….. But thank god……………….. There is food……………….. From someone special……………….. I hope ………………..

The food is lacking’………………..

Many couples……………….. Feel jealous……………….. Promise to myself……………….. Not expecting much……………….. Not expecting everything……………….. Just go with the flow……………….. You get here……………….. Coz you want a get away……………….. So you will get your get away……………….. If you get a plus……………….. That is a gift from god……………….. Accept that……………….. Be grateful ………………..

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