stressed…

……………………………………..……………………………………….. become thin………………………………………..……………………………………….. maybe it is time………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am focus praying………………………………………..……………………………………….. I become very stressed………………………………………..……………………………………….. I should not be able to eat………………………………………..……………………………………….. till the judgment day………………………………………..……………………………………….. so let me be thin………………………………………..……………………………………….. skin and bone………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. I cant concentrate………………………………………..……………………………………….. I think only that………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am afraid………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am sad………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. don’t make me stop………………………………………..……………………………………….. thinking of you………………………………………..……………………………………….. don’t make me stop………………………………………..……………………………………….. loving you………………………………………..……………………………………….. don’t make me stop………………………………………..……………………………………….. asking for your help ………………………………………..………………………………………..

they both get approved…

……………………………………..……………………………………….. I get more stressed………………………………………..……………………………………….. they seem happy………………………………………..……………………………………….. in group………………………………………..……………………………………….. I get more stressed………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord help me………………………………………..……………………………………….. I cant handle it………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. I want to be happy like them………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. I want to go there like them………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. I love you………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. grant my wish please………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am afraid………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord ………………………………………..………………………………………..

now it is torturing…………

……………………………..……………………………………….. I was enjoying it………………………………………..……………………………………….. become poor………………………………………..……………………………………….. get whatever it is………………………………………..……………………………………….. the cheap one………………………………………..……………………………………….. as long as it gets me there………………………………………..……………………………………….. now I feel old………………………………………..……………………………………….. this makes me uncomfortable………………………………………..……………………………………….. the train………………………………………..……………………………………….. the seat………………………………………..……………………………………….. the bathroom………………………………………..……………………………………….. the power source………………………………………..……………………………………….. all makes me ill………………………………………..……………………………………….. but thx lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am saved arriving there………………………………………..……………………………………….. and I can process all my business………………………………………..……………………………………….. thx lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. he saves me all the way ………………………………………..………………………………………..

ok then……

…………………………………..……………………………………….. don’t think too hard………………………………………..……………………………………….. if he allows………………………………………..……………………………………….. I will join………………………………………..……………………………………….. if he doesn’t allow………………………………………..……………………………………….. I will go to his house………………………………………..……………………………………….. if they want the money back………………………………………..……………………………………….. give it back………………………………………..……………………………………….. if I don’t have it………………………………………..……………………………………….. try to find or borrow them………………………………………..……………………………………….. in the name of lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. then she said there is a chance that we will not go………………………………………..……………………………………….. hiksss………………………………………..……………………………………….. she should choose her words carefully………………………………………..……………………………………….. do not make our heart sick………………………………………..……………………………………….. we are all sensitive………………………………………..……………………………………….. we had tried so hard………………………………………..……………………………………….. by ourselves………………………………………..……………………………………….. because they don’t help at all………………………………………..……………………………………….. they should help………………………………………..……………………………………….. I don’t know………………………………………..……………………………………….. lord help us………………………………………..……………………………………….. whatever the result………………………………………..……………………………………….. we believe lord is behind all this ………………………………………..………………………………………..

I love you……

…………………………………..……………………………………….. I don’t know what else to say………………………………………..……………………………………….. is all here………………………………………..……………………………………….. you can read me………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am an open book………………………………………..……………………………………….. want to meet mrss………………………………………..……………………………………….. want to share my feeling………………………………………..……………………………………….. all are evil to me………………………………………..……………………………………….. seem like it………………………………………..……………………………………….. only her love me………………………………………..……………………………………….. I cant stop it………………………………………..……………………………………….. my eyes always wander wildly………………………………………..……………………………………….. sorry lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. forgive me lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. it is my nature………………………………………..……………………………………….. on your behalf………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am admiring what you had created ………………………………………..………………………………………..

cant cry……

…………………………………..……………………………………….. but want to cry………………………………………..……………………………………….. I don’t want to………………………………………..……………………………………….. but I feel like it………………………………………..……………………………………….. it is hard to hold it………………………………………..……………………………………….. the pain inside………………………………………..……………………………………….. everything goes unsettled………………………………………..……………………………………….. oh my god………………………………………..……………………………………….. it is in public………………………………………..……………………………………….. but the tears wont hold in………………………………………..……………………………………….. gosh………………………………………..……………………………………….. dear lord………………………………………..……………………………………….. you are the best………………………………………..……………………………………….. I love you………………………………………..……………………………………….. make my heart calm please………………………………………..……………………………………….. you are all I have………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am speechless ………………………………………..………………………………………..

mrb said that I should pray a lot……

…………………………………..……………………………………….. now my mouth doesn’t stop mentioning his name………………………………………..……………………………………….. I hope he doesn’t get angry………………………………………..……………………………………….. I call him not just in this kind of situation………………………………………..……………………………………….. I always remember him………………………………………..……………………………………….. I think he knows it………………………………………..……………………………………….. I try so hard not to cross………………………………………..……………………………………….. to that point………………………………………..……………………………………….. it is very difficult………………………………………..……………………………………….. many times I failed………………………………………..……………………………………….. this is scary………………………………………..……………………………………….. sometimes………………………………………..……………………………………….. a lot of times………………………………………..……………………………………….. when something like this happen………………………………………..……………………………………….. I always blame myself………………………………………..……………………………………….. thinking all the bad I had done ………………………………………..………………………………………..

got the bad news…

……………………………………..……………………………………….. the first time I get it………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am very stressful………………………………………..……………………………………….. now I learn to let it go………………………………………..……………………………………….. whatever happen………………………………………..……………………………………….. it happens for a reason………………………………………..……………………………………….. god knows best………………………………………..……………………………………….. if this is not my destiny………………………………………..……………………………………….. I hope he will give me another one………………………………………..……………………………………….. better than this………………………………………..……………………………………….. the one that will not make me restless………………………………………..……………………………………….. make me cry………………………………………..……………………………………….. make my heart unsettled………………………………………..……………………………………….. like this………………………………………..……………………………………….. the feeling is annoying………………………………………..……………………………………….. make me want to cry a lot ………………………………………..………………………………………..

my note is gone…

……………………………………..……………………………………….. makes me stressed………………………………………..……………………………………….. maybe it is a sign………………………………………..……………………………………….. that something bad will happen………………………………………..……………………………………….. and it did………………………………………..……………………………………….. I got not approved directly………………………………………..……………………………………….. then I become crazy………………………………………..……………………………………….. I don’t know what to do………………………………………..……………………………………….. I don’t know how to handle it………………………………………..……………………………………….. emotionally I am sick………………………………………..……………………………………….. I am depressed………………………………………..……………………………………….. but they said………………………………………..……………………………………….. he doesn’t give problems beyond one’s capability………………………………………..……………………………………….. so here I am ………………………………………..………………………………………..

21 okt 18 minggu…

……………………………………..……………………………………….. pg gym………………………………………..……………………………………….. makan………………………………………..……………………………………….. print………………………………………..……………………………………….. poto………………………………………..……………………………………….. dpmall………………………………………..……………………………………….. mlm stasiun tawang………………………………………..……………………………………….. otw jakarta………………………………………..……………………………………….. allahukbar………………………………………..………………………………………..

20 okt 18 sabtu…

……………………………………..……………………………………….. alfmrt………………………………………..……………………………………….. bensin………………………………………..……………………………………….. fotokopi n print………………………………………..……………………………………….. potobni eror………………………………………..……………………………………….. tawang………………………………………..……………………………………….. dpmall………………………………………..……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..………………………………………..

19 okt 18 jumat……

…………………………………..……………………………………….. kampus………………………………………..……………………………………….. mlm ped………………………………………..……………………………………….. net………………………………………..……………………………………….. ngaji………………………………………..……………………………………….. superindo………………………………………..……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..………………………………………..

18 okt 18 kamis………

………………………………..……………………………………….. dijemput pbroto………………………………………..……………………………………….. pengajian………………………………………..……………………………………….. diantar pbroto………………………………………..……………………………………….. kampus………………………………………..……………………………………….. what………………………………………..……………………………………….. pul mlm krn ada pgsd fair………………………………………..……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..………………………………………..

17 okt 18 rabu……

…………………………………..……………………………………….. kampus………………………………………..……………………………………….. pul gasik………………………………………..……………………………………….. wrg………………………………………..……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..………………………………………..

16 okt 18 selasa…………

……………………………..……………………………………….. londri………………………………………..……………………………………….. pom………………………………………..……………………………………….. kampus………………………………………..……………………………………….. cimb………………………………………..……………………………………….. pul………………………………………..……………………………………….. mlm londri………………………………………..……………………………………….. alfmrt………………………………………..……………………………………….. ped………………………………………..……………………………………….. net………………………………………..……………………………………….. ngaji………………………………………..……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..………………………………………..

15 okt 18 senen…

……………………………………..……………………………………….. dpmall………………………………………..……………………………………….. maxxcoffee………………………………………..……………………………………….. ngenet………………………………………..……………………………………….. tgs………………………………………..……………………………………….. visa………………………………………..……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..………………………………………..

14 okt 18 minggu………

………………………………..……………………………………….. sompok………………………………………..……………………………………….. meet yayan dll………………………………………..……………………………………….. k mabes………………………………………..……………………………………….. k magelang………………………………………..……………………………………….. tubing………………………………………..……………………………………….. otw smg mabes………………………………………..……………………………………….. k sompok ambil motor………………………………………..……………………………………….. klinik………………………………………..……………………………………….. burjo………………………………………..……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..………………………………………..

13 okt 18 sabtu…

……………………………………..……………………………………….. seharian d rumah………………………………………..……………………………………….. sakit………………………………………..……………………………………….. allahuakbar………………………………………..………………………………………..

12 okt 18 jumat

……………………………………………………………………………………..……………………………………….. kampus………………………………………..……………………………………….. mlm ped………………………………………..……………………………………….. net………………………………………..……………………………………….. ngaji………………………………………..……………………………………….. burjo………………………………………..……………………………………….. allahuakbatr………………………………………..………………………………………..