This fight is a lonely fight……………………………

You ask me to fight alone…………………………… I fight alone…………………………… Up to now…………………………… I want to survive…………………………… I want to do that god…………………………… Come to me quick…………………………… Send me someone please…………………………… I sacrifice all…………………………… All of me…………………………… For my fight…………………………… My lonely fight ……………………………

Stupid……………………………

Very stupid…………………………… Love someone who cant be owned…………………………… Love an asshole…………………………… But I did that…………………………… I did suffered because of an asshole…………………………… I did fall for an asshole…………………………… Long time ago…………………………… I hope he is dead now…………………………… In the deepest graveyard…………………………… Underground…………………………… I cant touch him anymore ……………………………

This is a lonely fight……………………………

You ask me to…………………………… And I do it god…………………………… But I hope you come to me quick…………………………… I cant bear it…………………………… Send me someone…………………………… God…………………………… Quick…………………………… Oh god…………………………… Want to move there…………………………… Live there…………………………… With new situation ……………………………

Just like my dream……………………………

Just like the tease…………………………… In the movie…………………………… In the story…………………………… It is all just a mirage…………………………… It all can happen…………………………… Here…………………………… With his help…………………………… With his guidance…………………………… With his blessing…………………………… And all will happen…………………………… With his love ……………………………

If I move there……………………………

The story will not be like the story…………………………… Not the same with my dream…………………………… Make me stressed…………………………… I thought I can make my own plan…………………………… But I just have to be in sync with her…………………………… And she made the plan the same for both levels…………………………… What the hell…………………………… What is the difference…………………………… I feel sorry for the levels…………………………… They paid but they don’t get what they deserve…………………………… They just got that…………………………… Not difference…………………………… Not developed…………………………… Not much…………………………… And the solution is…………………………… In the second meeting…………………………… I should revise my plan…………………………… And modify it ……………………………

That was easy…………….

The problem is……………. She asks me to buy book……………. Whereas I had already asked them to buy book……………. The different one……………. What the hell……………. Let see what will happen……………. Just tell them that……………. That they are obligated to buy that book……………. Personally……………. I don’t want to burden them……………. But……………. I am afraid of her……………. Just speaking to them……………. That buying book is obligated……………. Sorry……………. I am sorry god …………….

Remember old days…………….

That time……………. The time when I am stupidly in love with you……………. And I think I still do……………. That is why……………. I don’t want to meet you……………. I want to protect my heart……………. I hate the day you walk into my life……………. I hate the day I know you……………. I hate the day I meet you……………. I hate the day I recognize you……………. I hate the day I fall in love with you……………. I hate you make me want you……………. I hate you make me miss you……………. I hate you make me care for you……………. I hate you make me long for you……………. I hate you make me yearn for you……………. I hate you make me fall in love with you……………. I hate you make me hope to be with you always……………. I hate you give me hope……………. I hate you ever been inside my heart……………. I hate you visit my dream……………. I hate you come to my daydream……………. I hate you for ruining my life……………. I hate you for breaking my heart……………. I hate you for destroying my everything……………. But most of all……………. I hate myself for still loving you …………….

Bully…………….

Scary……………. Never gets that one……………. But really afraid of them……………. If someday I got children……………. I will teach them martial art……………. Self-defense……………. So they will not be bullied……………. And I will teach my self too……………. To be protected……………. To be safe……………. To be guarded……………. To be good in self defense…………….

They don’t have to like me…………….

Let them hate me……………. As long as they are clever……………. If they are smart……………. Thx god……………. I am succeed……………. Then maybe I can enter your heaven……………. They don’t have to like me……………. It is useless liking me……………. If they are stupid……………. I failed……………. Where is my responsibility……………. I will go to hell …………….

Damn…………….

Fuck ……………. Shit……………. It has been so many times……………. Always gives so many reasons……………. Just be dead……………. I want to be free……………. Want it soon……………. by all means……………. with his help …………….

Arghhhhh…………….

The connection is suck……………. Lot of works……………. Piling……………. Four days……………. but you teasing me……………. asshole……………. fuck……………. damn……………. motherfucker …………….