The process of scoring……………….

I got stressed………………. The time of yudisium………………. A lot of pupils doing protest………………. I avoid the room………………. Just like the yester semester………………. Yester semester I go to my old place in another program………………. This time I go to lab………………. Thx god………………. There is solution………………. I want them to accept what I give them………………. Because I had processed those things………………. With all of my power………………. Spent a lot of time and thoughts………………. They want they get good things………………. Without hard work………………. Meanwhile those things are in accordance with their capability………………. Then what should I do………………. Then that thought………………. I give them what they want………………. First and second to first………………. Third to second………………. Fourth and fifth to third………………. Then again………………. I will teach them as good as I can………………. And the result is up to him………………. Up to them………………. For all this time I want to be honest………………. Give things according to their capability………………. But all of them are devilish creature………………. Too many protests………………. Just because ………………. They are rich………………. They have money………………. They can pay the tuition………………. They can buy education………………. They can buy knowledge………………. They can buy fakeness ……………….

But that is absurd……………..

I have spent so much money on him…………….. During our date…………….. If he cant see that…………….. He is a fool…………….. This place…………….. That group…………….. At first I get angry…………….. Coz he ignores me…………….. When I got mad…………….. I try to find all negative bout this place…………….. And the memory of yesterday…………….. When I come to this place…………….. For the first time…………….. Thx god there is none…………….. Then I get fine…………….. Coz I have a lot of things to do…………….. Then there is that group…………….. Then comes another group…………….. Then I just busy with myself…………….. Don’t care bout them…………….. That is odd…………….. Strange…………….. I don’t usually like this ……………..

Then I got suspicious……………..

There is interference from family from far away land…………….. You know that…………….. That that land infamous for having a very powerful dark magic…………….. They send unseen power…………….. So that I break up…………….. I get mad…………….. A lot of negative thoughts about him appears suddenly…………….. About how ungrateful he is…………….. He is very picky bout food…………….. But he never finishes his meal…………….. God hates that…………….. I hate that…………….. But I keep silent…………….. Or maybe he got angry for another reason…………….. Because I don’t give him present when he is having birthday…………….. I don’t know……………..

Chat with sy……………..

In my head only…………….. Get it…………….. Ungrateful…………….. Meet at hotwater…………….. Dating for a while…………….. Into the Ramadan…………….. I have my routine…………….. He disturbs it…………….. I get annoyed…………….. Then he disappears…………….. I don’t realize then…………….. I realize it now…………….. I contact him again…………….. We date again…………….. Then he disturbs my routine again…………….. Then I get annoyed again…………….. Then he disappears again…………….. I realize that then…………….. He disappears for a long time this time…………….. He elft me alone on idul fitri…………….. I got very sad…………….. Then I cant take it anymore…………….. I contact him again…………….. Then we date again…………….. For a while…………….. Then we got into a fight…………….. Over my story of paying my ex school tuition…………….. What the hell…………….. I told him bout that…………….. It was because god promise me heaven if I pay for someone else school tuition…………….. Then he disappears again till now ……………..

Because white head doesn’t have a black spot in it……………………

You just do good…………………… Without thinking of the consequences…………………… But not anymore…………………… You grew up…………………… Your head full of consideration…………………… Thinking the effect…………………… Even it makes you hesitate to do good things…………………… Coz you are afraid…………………… Of others thinking ……………………