I will find you....................

Wherever you are.................... Whatever it take.................... But then again.................... You are everywhere.................... You are borderless.................... Here.................... Then.................... Now.................... In the past.................... In the future.................... You are fearless.................... Unbeatable.................... When you love mortals.................... You just love.................... Give them everything.................... But they are never satisfied....................

Missing you is all i can....................

I want to be close to you.................... But i dont know how.................... Actually.................... I know how.................... As far as i can tell.................... But i am not doing them.................... I am doing the opposite.................... Curse myself.................... Curse the devil in me.................... Curse everything.................... But you ....................

Damn.....................

Everybody is on that level..................... I want to be on that level too..................... I want to be on their circle..................... Being with them..................... In the middle of them..................... It feels like hell..................... Seem like it..................... It feels like the end..................... Seem like it..................... They will be alright..................... I will be alright..................... We will be alright..................... You will save us..................... No matter what .....................

God...........................

I want to cry........................... On your lap........................... I want to restrict myself........................... To stay away........................... From that things........................... That things are full of shit........................... The devils........................... The evils........................... The satans........................... The demons........................... All of them ...........................

God i am afraid.......................

I worry....................... My fear....................... Will offend you....................... I should not be afraid....................... I should believe in you....................... That all of this....................... Is your plan....................... Your beautiful plan....................... For me....................... Just for me....................... I love you god....................... I am afraid god.......................

God help me.......................

God i am afraid....................... God i want to know....................... What is behind all of this....................... I know....................... You have intention....................... I am sorry to interfere....................... God i am afraid .......................

Being smart.......................

Just like him....................... I wish....................... Being wanted....................... Going deep....................... Into the story....................... Trying to distract....................... My own brain....................... To think about that....................... Very heavy .......................

I am sorry god.............

I know i am wrong............. I know i deserve the punishment............. But this one is very heavy lord............. I am sorry god............. For all my mistakes............. For all their pain............. That i cause............. God............. I am afraid............. I am sorry god .............

There are seeds of arrogant in me.................

That is why god doesnt allow me to pass yet................. To make my dream come true................. To grant my wish................. To go up to the next level................. I must stay in this level still................. There are many lessons................. That i am not mastered them yet................. Why does my brain go here................. There is that problem still................. That really burden my heart................. Make me gloomy................. Without light................. Remember again................. That time................. Being depressed................. So deep................. Being afraid.................