that man......................

i get a very bad vibe...................... lord help me please...................... i am very afraid...................... i hope my insticnt is wrong...................... i hope you protect my family...................... my sis...................... my place...................... god help me please...................... i cant help it...................... this feeling ruins me...................... god help me please...................... i did stop things like that...................... meeting people...................... meeting strangers...................... i just use my own strength...................... my own power...................... to entertain myself...................... to make myself happy...................... in my bubble...................... i hope you are here...................... in it...................... my bubble ......................

so it is amazingly how great you are...................................

it comes simultanously................................... yesterday it was the satan................................... not it is the fund................................... i dont know lord................................... it is up to you lord................................... i dont know what you want................................... but i will take everything you give me................................... until my last drop of blood................................... i am tired to protest................................... i am tired to ask................................... you never answer................................... maybe you did give me answer................................... but i dont want to hear................................... the first means that i shoul stop................................... from the satan world................................... the later means what................................... should i stop pursue my study................................... okay then................................... so be it ...................................

the satan comes again\...........................

lord help me please........................... i am afraid........................... afraid that he will come to my place again........................... afraid that he will come to office again........................... afraid he will harm my family........................... lord help me please........................... i am sorry i have a bad wish........................... kill him........................... so he will not be in this world........................... but seeing around........................... usually you take the good ones........................... and you left the bad ones........................... lord help me please........................... give him a good conscience'........................... so he will not do bad things agaiin........................... not harm me again........................... not harm others again ...........................

she asked me to go to pkl.............................

i dont know why i get angry............................. maybe there is a satan inside me............................. though the suggestion is good............................. she asked me to do silaturahim............................. to pa's family............................. thus it should not be broken............................. and i realize............................. that it has been awhile since i go to ngaliyan............................. lord help me please............................. make me go there............................. give me time............................. and intention............................. thus this entity do really go there............................. socializing............................. joking............................. in your way .............................