sorry for these doubts...........................................

i know you love me........................................... but sometimes i am afraid that you dont........................................... there is a whisper saying that........................................... i know you will send me a soulmate........................................... the one that is super nice, great, perfect........................................... in the right time........................................... but sometimes i am afraid that you wont........................................... there is a whisper saying that........................................... i knwo you will make me happy........................................... but sometimes i am afraid you wont........................................... many times you make me sad........................................... without knowing what is the meaning behind all of those sadness........................................... i believe you will protect me........................................... but sometimes i am afraid ........................................... many times i get accidents........................................... i experience some unfortunate events........................................... that crush me so hard........................................... many times i fall........................................... but thx lord........................................... i always have been able to get up again all these times........................................... i am afraid i will not be able to get up again someday........................................... because i had so many falls........................................... or maybe i become expert of getting up........................................... as i often fall........................................... so which one is black power........................................... my believe in you........................................... or the whisper inside me .................................................

mrk vs mrsm……………………………………………………………………

the female is my friend…………………………………………………………………… the male is my friend…………………………………………………………………… both of them are my dear friend…………………………………………………………………… but I think both of them in not good term…………………………………………………………………… lord help me please…………………………………………………………………… lord help them please…………………………………………………………………… I don’t want them to break apart…………………………………………………………………… I want them to be in peace…………………………………………………………………… for the sake of them…………………………………………………………………… for the sake of me…………………………………………………………………… for the sake of all…………………………………………………………………… they both are important for all…………………………………………………………………… all adore them…………………………………………………………………… they should come to their right mind…………………………………………………………………… now I am afraid to tell them what to do…………………………………………………………………… I just hope they will find it by themselves…………………………………………………………………… or else…………………………………………………………………… if you ask me to handle them…………………………………………………………………… I hope you give me clue what to do…………………………………………………………………… as clear as possible…………………………………………………………………… I am afraid if I interfere in their business…………………………………………………………………… I become their enemy …………………………………………………………………… so…………………………………………………………………… it is all in your hand ……………………………………………………………………

rejected by haitch……………………………………………………………………

it hurts a lot…………………………………………………………………… I am confused lord…………………………………………………………………… I got rejected many times…………………………………………………………………… what did I do wrong…………………………………………………………………… what should I do…………………………………………………………………… give me clue lord…………………………………………………………………… I should find a teacher…………………………………………………………………… show me where is my teacher…………………………………………………………………… where is he lord…………………………………………………………………… I am confused lord…………………………………………………………………… I am afraid of being rejected again…………………………………………………………………… I am afraid of being hurt again…………………………………………………………………… am I not allowed to take my study now…………………………………………………………………… am I not allowed yet…………………………………………………………………… will you give me this other job…………………………………………………………………… in the name of lord…………………………………………………………………… I will take whatever you give me…………………………………………………………………… if in the even both of them slip through my hand…………………………………………………………………… please hold me tight…………………………………………………………………… I am afraid of being come undone ……………………………………………………………………

rejected by en……………………………………………………………………

it hurst a lot…………………………………………………………………… am I very bad…………………………………………………………………… is he disgusted by my presence…………………………………………………………………… dear lord…………………………………………………………………… help me please…………………………………………………………………… I hope you will replace him…………………………………………………………………… with someone so much better…………………………………………………………………… much more better…………………………………………………………………… the one that will make me fly…………………………………………………………………… to cloud nine…………………………………………………………………… no…………………………………………………………………… cloud thirteen…………………………………………………………………… the one that will make me happy…………………………………………………………………… so happy that I smile a lot till it hurts…………………………………………………………………… the one that will accompany me…………………………………………………………………… till the end of time…………………………………………………………………… in your blessing …………………………………………………………………………

lately I have negative thoughts………………………………………………………

I feel I will be defeated by two other candidates……………………………………………………… my mouth unconsciously keeps saying those things……………………………………………………… directly indirectly……………………………………………………… explicitly implicitly……………………………………………………… and maybe because of that, negative energies come near……………………………………………………… there are signs saying I will lose……………………………………………………… and I am sad……………………………………………………… I should change……………………………………………………… I should think positively……………………………………………………… I should have positive faith……………………………………………………… I should spread positive aura……………………………………………………… I hope lord will shower me with positivity……………………………………………………… and I wish I will get the positive result …………………………………………………………………..

dreaming………………………………………………

this thing makes my mind wanders everywhere……………………………………………… think unnecessary things……………………………………………… imagining something over the top……………………………………………… hoping something irrational……………………………………………… lord help me please……………………………………………… protect me from misleading dream……………………………………………… bring me back to the right path……………………………………………… this has only two possibilities……………………………………………… the first is that I will not be it……………………………………………… then I should send the news to two parties……………………………………………… then I should be patient……………………………………………… I cant have the heartache……………………………………………… the stressed state……………………………………………… the depressed mind……………………………………………… I hope lord me in difficult times……………………………………………… the second is that I am success……………………………………………… still I have to send the news to two parties……………………………………………… and I have to be humble……………………………………………… I cant be over the limit……………………………………………… I hope he help me to run this obligation in the right way ………………………………………………

send them to college………………………………………………

I want to pay their tuition……………………………………………… but now I don’t have the opportunity……………………………………………… lord help me please……………………………………………… allow me to send them to college……………………………………………… the plan is to wait for this one to graduate……………………………………………… but the two of them are chased by time……………………………………………… lord……………………………………………… I hope this is their fortune……………………………………………… and mine……………………………………………… I really want to help them……………………………………………… I want them to be in college……………………………………………… I want them to have degree……………………………………………… I want them to have better jobs……………………………………………… I want them to have brighter future……………………………………………… though all of that is not determined by college …………………………………………………

12 mar 19 selasa…………………………………………………………………………………

dijemput yayan masnug kiki………………………………………………………………………………… jemput bundo bkartina………………………………………………………………………………… otw sby………………………………………………………………………………… lpmp………………………………………………………………………………… unesa………………………………………………………………………………… yuidul ujian s3………………………………………………………………………………… lpmp………………………………………………………………………………… spiku………………………………………………………………………………… otw smg………………………………………………………………………………… me driving amazing first experience………………………………………………………………………………… diner at tembalang………………………………………………………………………………… ngantar b maya………………………………………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………………………

11 mar 19 seenen…………………………………………………………………………………

kampus………………………………………………………………………………… Pamela………………………………………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………………………

10 mar 19 minggu…………………………………………………………………………………

with ciprut………………………………………………………………………………… sarapan………………………………………………………………………………… layat at banyumanik temen umroh………………………………………………………………………………… pul………………………………………………………………………………… ped………………………………………………………………………………… wifi………………………………………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………………………

9 mar 19 sabtu…………………………………………………………………………………

gym………………………………………………………………………………… ped wifi………………………………………………………………………………… matlamp………………………………………………………………………………… pul………………………………………………………………………………… dpmall………………………………………………………………………………… meet aan………………………………………………………………………………… pul………………………………………………………………………………… mlm rapat rt………………………………………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………………………

8 mar 19 jumat…………………………………………………………………………………

kampus………………………………………………………………………………… alfa………………………………………………………………………………… pul………………………………………………………………………………… ped………………………………………………………………………………… wifi………………………………………………………………………………… ngaji………………………………………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………………………

7 mar 19 kamis…………………………………………………………………………………

klinik………………………………………………………………………………… alfmrt………………………………………………………………………………… ped wfi………………………………………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………………………

6 mrt 19 rabu…………………………………………………………………………………

kampus………………………………………………………………………………… p zein eror………………………………………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………………………

5 mrt 19 selasa ……………………………………………………………………………………………..

keisangan………………………………………………………………………………… wrg………………………………………………………………………………… kampus………………………………………………………………………………… kampu 4 or………………………………………………………………………………… allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………………………