The first time is for searching the file…………………………………………………………………

The second time is for printing the file………………………………………………………………… The third time is for printing again………………………………………………………………… Then………………………………………………………………… I got stressed………………………………………………………………… But I find it delicious………………………………………………………………… I do all slowly………………………………………………………………… Thx lord………………………………………………………………… All is done………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… I hope my visa is approved………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… There will be announcement soon………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………………… He will make my visa being approved………………………………………………………………… He will send me there………………………………………………………………… He will give me spv………………………………………………………………… He will give me loa………………………………………………………………… He will give me grants …………………………………………………………………

The water is not available…………………………………………………………………

He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… I hope it was not a bad sign………………………………………………………………… Also there was last night………………………………………………………………… Problem with the hotel………………………………………………………………… Thx lord………………………………………………………………… I can get through that day………………………………………………………………… All is smooth………………………………………………………………… Tho I don’t have to take a bath………………………………………………………………… Tho I feel uncomfortable………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… That kind of thing will not happen again………………………………………………………………… My patient is being tested………………………………………………………………… I hope I pass………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… If there is another thing like that………………………………………………………………… I will be patient again………………………………………………………………… I will pass the test again………………………………………………………………… But I hope all bad things………………………………………………………………… Will not happen again in my live …………………………………………………………………

In the name of lord…………………………………………………………………

I will follow whatever you want………………………………………………………………… If you want me to stop………………………………………………………………… I will stop………………………………………………………………… If you want me to help………………………………………………………………… I will help………………………………………………………………… As far as I can………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… He will help me………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… He will give me permission………………………………………………………………… To take him to his graduation………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… There will be his portion………………………………………………………………… From lord………………………………………………………………… Through me………………………………………………………………… That I cant use it for others………………………………………………………………… Just for him………………………………………………………………… Just for his study………………………………………………………………… To make his future brighter …………………………………………………………………

In the name of lord…………………………………………………………………

In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… I will follow whatever you want………………………………………………………………… If you want me to stop………………………………………………………………… I will stop………………………………………………………………… If you want me to help………………………………………………………………… I will help………………………………………………………………… As far as I can………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… He will help me………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… He will give me permission………………………………………………………………… To take him to his graduation………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… There will be his portion………………………………………………………………… From lord………………………………………………………………… Through me………………………………………………………………… That I cant use it for others………………………………………………………………… Just for him………………………………………………………………… Just for his study………………………………………………………………… To make his future brighter …………………………………………………………………

I hope god forgive me…………………………………………………………………

You got negative thoughts bout me………………………………………………………………… And it makes me furious………………………………………………………………… Make me angry………………………………………………………………… Make me annoyed………………………………………………………………… You become very selfish………………………………………………………………… You only think about yourself………………………………………………………………… If I promise………………………………………………………………… I keep it………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… If he give me permission………………………………………………………………… I got to this position is not easy at all………………………………………………………………… It needs a lot of bloods tears sweats………………………………………………………………… Conquering many people………………………………………………………………… Experience many failures………………………………………………………………… Got depressed again and again………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… I hope he help me………………………………………………………………… I hope he help him………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………………… He will help him………………………………………………………………… Till he graduate………………………………………………………………… He will help me………………………………………………………………… Going there …………………………………………………………………

I got four of them…………………………………………………………………

Acehardware………………………………………………………………… Visa………………………………………………………………… Plane………………………………………………………………… Hotel………………………………………………………………… Don’t think about it………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… He will find me a replacement………………………………………………………………… All of these is positive………………………………………………………………… All of this is not negative………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… He will make me capable………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………………… He will give fund………………………………………………………………… Suddenly………………………………………………………………… From all over the directions………………………………………………………………… The one that he blesses it………………………………………………………………… The ones that he doesn’t hate………………………………………………………………… The ones that can pay my debts………………………………………………………………… I hope the news is not true………………………………………………………………… I hope the fund will not be postponed …………………………………………………………………

I got four of them…………………………………………………………………

I got four of them………………………………………………………………… Acehardware………………………………………………………………… Visa………………………………………………………………… Plane………………………………………………………………… Hotel………………………………………………………………… Don’t think about it………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… He will find me a replacement………………………………………………………………… All of these is positive………………………………………………………………… All of this is not negative………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… He will make me capable………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………………… He will give fund………………………………………………………………… Suddenly………………………………………………………………… From all over the directions………………………………………………………………… The one that he blesses it………………………………………………………………… The ones that he doesn’t hate………………………………………………………………… The ones that can pay my debts………………………………………………………………… I hope the news is not true………………………………………………………………… I hope the fund will not be postponed …………………………………………………………………

It is like before…………………………………………………………………

I get first………………………………………………………………… It was negative………………………………………………………………… I hope this time it is not negative………………………………………………………………… I hope it is positive now………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………………… He will send me there………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… God loves me………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… I love you lord………………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………………… I will sacrifice all my lives and death………………………………………………………………… For you………………………………………………………………… I will stay away from your prohibitions………………………………………………………………… I will do all your commands………………………………………………………………… I will run to you………………………………………………………………… I will run fast …………………………………………………………………

Yesterday it was four hundreds…………………………………………………………………

This morning it was eight hundreds………………………………………………………………… This noon it was eight hundreds………………………………………………………………… Now all is gone………………………………………………………………… Booking train is failed………………………………………………………………… Iing do it for me………………………………………………………………… She succeed………………………………………………………………… She is amazing………………………………………………………………… It is god’s plan………………………………………………………………… Want to take a bath………………………………………………………………… Want to taste locker and shower………………………………………………………………… But it seems expensive………………………………………………………………… Must me thrifty………………………………………………………………… I got a lot of debts………………………………………………………………… Got text from him………………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………………… Must be positive………………………………………………………………… Don’t get negative………………………………………………………………… Must be patient………………………………………………………………… Don’t get angry………………………………………………………………… Don’t get annoyed …………………………………………………………………

I did book it online……………………………………………..

But the location is difficult to find…………………………………………….. The grabcar don’t want to take me to go to the small street…………………………………………….. I walk to look for it…………………………………………….. I go round and round and still cant find it…………………………………………….. Then I go eating…………………………………………….. And then I download an app…………………………………………….. Then I book a room again…………………………………………….. In the name of lord…………………………………………….. I let it go willingly…………………………………………….. I hope it help him and it help me…………………………………………….. I hope there is a replacement…………………………………………….. Then I go by motor taxi…………………………………………….. Then I see it…………………………………………….. I should stop…………………………………………….. But I didn’t …………………………………………….. Stupid me…………………………………………….. I did book and pay for it…………………………………………….. Idiot me…………………………………………….. In the name of lord…………………………………………….. Let it go…………………………………………….. Thx god I got a new room…………………………………………….. It is nice…………………………………………….. I can sleep soundly…………………………………………….. But there is not tv…………………………………………….. There is no wifi…………………………………………….. All has reasons ……………………………………………..

Trouble in submitting online form……………………………………………..

That makes me worried so much…………………………………………….. I do it in campus…………………………………………….. And it didn’t work…………………………………………….. I do it in café…………………………………………….. And it works…………………………………………….. But I didn’t finish it…………………………………………….. I did it at home at night…………………………………………….. It didn’t work…………………………………………….. I try again in the morning…………………………………………….. It still didn’t work…………………………………………….. Then got the news that someone already submitted…………………………………………….. I got very stressed…………………………………………….. Make my heart beat so fast…………………………………………….. I am afraid they will left me…………………………………………….. Being grateful…………………………………………….. Mrsd want to help me…………………………………………….. She offer helps…………………………………………….. She is one of the members…………………………………………….. She offer to upload my documents…………………………………………….. Thx lord…………………………………………….. I can do it in campus in the morning…………………………………………….. I can finish it in one go…………………………………………….. I submit it directly…………………………………………….. I got the schedule…………………………………………….. I choose the earliest…………………………………………….. I hope he bless this ……………………………………………..

Confused and afraid and worried that something bad will happen again just like before……………………………………………..

Being in a hurry…………………………………………….. I don’t want to be show off…………………………………………….. I just want to process it fast…………………………………………….. So I will not be late to go there…………………………………………….. As the announcement is also late…………………………………………….. Thx got tomorrow is Friday…………………………………………….. It makes my heart calmer…………………………………………….. And also I cant reschedule it …………………………………………….. So I just do it…………………………………………….. In the name of lord…………………………………………….. I hope lord help me in this process…………………………………………….. If he allows…………………………………………….. He will make everything run smoothly…………………………………………….. He is the greatest…………………………………………….. He will make miracles…………………………………………….. My visa is approved…………………………………………….. I go there…………………………………………….. I got spv…………………………………………….. I got loa…………………………………………….. I got grants …………………………………………………………..

I am moved………………………………….

God loves me from many angels…………………………………. He is hot…………………………………. Physically…………………………………. And mentally…………………………………. May he get what he wants…………………………………. May lord give him what he wants…………………………………. May lord grant his wishes…………………………………. There are so many positive thoughts for him…………………………………. Inside my head…………………………………. He is so perfect…………………………………. In so many ways…………………………………. And he is awesome too…………………………………. And he is some…………………………………. There is so much pray for him…………………………………. May he gets scholarship…………………………………. May he gets his study…………………………………. May he gets a partner…………………………………. May he be happy always…………………………………. May lord bless him…………………………………. May lord love him…………………………………. Ay lord care for him…………………………………. May lord look after him ………………………………….

Having a breakdown………………………………….

Coming undone…………………………………. There is someone who succeed…………………………………. I am afraid…………………………………. That I will not succeed…………………………………. From my point of view…………………………………. He is show off…………………………………. The then…………………………………. I am nooyed…………………………………. As he didn’t help me…………………………………. The now…………………………………. I am changing…………………………………. Being positive…………………………………. Pray for him…………………………………. Pray for me…………………………………. Lets all be positive…………………………………. And get positive feedbacks too…………………………………. And all be happy…………………………………. And all be blessed…………………………………. And he loves us all…………………………………. And he grants our wishes ………………………………….

He is weird………………………………….

But he is a leader…………………………………. He did that yesterday…………………………………. I just realize it now…………………………………. He sacrifices all…………………………………. For his mate…………………………………. Now he is also having appointment together with his mate…………………………………. As a leader he should help others…………………………………. But in reality he doesn’t…………………………………. He just process his own thing…………………………………. And his mate thing…………………………………. Let alone there are others who cant process it…………………………………. Having troubles just like me…………………………………. Is it just my feeling…………………………………. Lets have positive thoughts…………………………………. He will change into good person…………………………………. He will help others…………………………………. He will go there…………………………………. Pray good for him…………………………………. He likes this kind of things ………………………………….

It is not their fault………………………………….

It is the teacher of foundation science…………………………………. And mrsa too…………………………………. And mrk too…………………………………. When ask him a key…………………………………. He didn’t have it…………………………………. How come…………………………………. He is the leader…………………………………. He should have one…………………………………. And mrsm also gives comments…………………………………. And it is not helping…………………………………. It is not clear…………………………………. And mrsf too…………………………………. When I ask her a key…………………………………. The answer is going around the bush…………………………………. Not clear at all…………………………………. Then…………………………………. I got very annoyed…………………………………. All is being difficult…………………………………. When I ask for a key…………………………………. It is the lab…………………………………. It is public place…………………………………. It is not personal place…………………………………. I also have the right to use it…………………………………. But it is like this…………………………………. Mrk is weird…………………………………. He should have one…………………………………. But he doesn’t have it…………………………………. Mrsa is also guilty…………………………………. She is annoying…………………………………. She uses my class…………………………………. She doesn’t respect the rule…………………………………. Let alone she is a leader…………………………………. The teacher of foundation is also guilty…………………………………. It is time to finish…………………………………. And it is my part now…………………………………. But he takes a lot of it…………………………………. I am the victim…………………………………. As I cant be angry to them…………………………………. So I get angry to students…………………………………. Stupid me…………………………………. Lets pray…………………………………. May this will not happen again ………………………………………….

Is it raining…………………………………….

Am I sick……………………………………. Is it satan……………………………………. It is weird……………………………………. In the name of lord……………………………………. I hope my room is ok……………………………………. I hope ac is ok……………………………………. If he allows……………………………………. I am not sick……………………………………. If he allows……………………………………. I will be healthy……………………………………. He is the greatest……………………………………. I hope there is no satan……………………………………. I hope it is not satan……………………………………. I hope he put away from satan……………………………………. I love you lord …………………………………….

Being ignored…………………………………….

Be patient……………………………………. In the future……………………………………. Don’t comment……………………………………. Just read……………………………………. And follow what they do……………………………………. In the name of lord……………………………………. I will be strong……………………………………. I will be patient……………………………………. I will go there……………………………………. If he allows……………………………………. If I am patient……………………………………. He will give me present……………………………………. I will go there……………………………………. He is the greatest……………………………………. Getting there……………………………………. He will make miracles……………………………………. I will get supervisor……………………………………. I will get loa……………………………………. I will get grants …………………………………….

Lord…………………………………….

The connection is really bad……………………………………. That it makes me curse……………………………………. It makes me swear……………………………………. It makes create all the bad words I can think of……………………………………. I want to do my jobs……………………………………. In a fast track……………………………………. But it turns out all is like this……………………………………. It is bad in office……………………………………. It is bad in café……………………………………. Do I have to visit my old place……………………………………. Lets go there……………………………………. In the name of lord……………………………………. I hope tomorrow all is fine……………………………………. If he allows……………………………………. He will help me to finish all my tasks……………………………………. He is the greatest……………………………………. I hope he always beside me……………………………………. I hope he always accompany me …………………………………………….

visa......................

lord...................... almost forget...................... thx lord............................................ i think he just remind me...................... in the name of lord...................... i hope after this i can process my visa smoothly...................... i hope all the papers needed are fullfilled...................... if he allows...................... he will help me...................... make everything easy...................... make everything smooth...................... he is the greatest...................... he will amke miracle...................... he will make all is not difficult...................... he will make all obstacles disappear...................... he will make all burdens disappear .........................

me......................

my thoughts are being extraordinarily intertwined in an awfully complivated net...................... i have a lot of things on my mind...................... i have a lot of things being considered...................... that country...................... that is the main one...................... being afraid...................... i hope the papers are all done tomorrow...................... then i can send them directly to jakarta...................... and i hope the minister letter also being processed quickly...................... and the visa to can get be done in a flash...................... and the processes are smooth...................... and i really can go there...................... with all friends...................... and before going there...................... i can finish all my tasks...................... all that become my responsibilities......................

me......................

me...................... my thoughts are being extraordinarily intertwined in an awfully complivated net...................... i have a lot of things on my mind...................... i have a lot of things being considered...................... that country...................... that is the main one...................... being afraid...................... i hope the papers are all done tomorrow...................... then i can send them directly to jakarta...................... and i hope the minister letter also being processed quickly...................... and the visa to can get be done in a flash...................... and the processes are smooth...................... and i really can go there...................... with all friends...................... and before going there...................... i can finish all my tasks...................... all that become my responsibilities......................

mrs......................

it turns out he doesnt have a lappy...................... i feel that i ahve the obligation tu buy him one...................... in the name of lord...................... i hope i have the capability...................... i hope i have a way...................... to help him...................... it was a task being done...................... now he is processing the other one...................... in the name of lord...................... i hope he can finish it...................... in the future...................... if i leave for canada...................... in the name of lord...................... i hope i can really go there...................... in the name of lord...................... i hope he get help from others...................... i hope he gets along with his friends......................

they fix the date......................

i am afraid...................... it is getting worrying...................... it is getting scarier............................................ i get my pray harder...................... lord...................... help me please...................... in the name of lord...................... i hope he help me...................... in all my business...................... all involving my departure...................... if he allows...................... i hope all i need is being smoothen...................... make them easy...................... in his help...................... he is the greatest...................... i hope you make miracle for me...................... i love you lord......................

10 okt 19 kamis…………………………………………………………………

Kampus………………………………………………………………… Pul………………………………………………………………… Simpanglima by gojek………………………………………………………………… Bandara by brt………………………………………………………………… Otw Jakarta by plane………………………………………………………………… Kuningan by grab………………………………………………………………… Grab gamau masuk gang kecil………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………… Nyari hotel traveloka ga ketemu………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar………………………………………………………………… Wrg………………………………………………………………… Reddoorz app………………………………………………………………… Pesen hotel………………………………………………………………… Grab………………………………………………………………… Reddoorz………………………………………………………………… Alhamdulilah………………………………………………………………… No tv no wifi………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………

9 okt 19 rabu…………………………………………………………………

Kampus………………………………………………………………… Café………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………

8 okt 19 selasa…………………………………………………………………

Wrg………………………………………………………………… Kampus………………………………………………………………… Poto………………………………………………………………… Kampus………………………………………………………………… Ngajar malam………………………………………………………………… Meet stario………………………………………………………………… Diner depan tlogorejo………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………

7 okt 19 senen…………………………………………………………………

Kampus………………………………………………………………… Simpanhlima………………………………………………………………… Meet bowo………………………………………………………………… Maksi………………………………………………………………… Kampus………………………………………………………………… Pul mlm………………………………………………………………… Poto eror 2x………………………………………………………………… Pul………………………………………………………………… Poto eror………………………………………………………………… Wrg………………………………………………………………… Pom………………………………………………………………… Poto eror………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………

6 okt 19 minggu…………………………………………………………………

Potokopi………………………………………………………………… Café………………………………………………………………… Meet satrio………………………………………………………………… Pul………………………………………………………………… Mlm satrio k rmh………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………

5 okt 19 sabtu ……………………………………………………………

W ciprut and mom………………………………………………………………… Beli motor at bedagan………………………………………………………………… Maksi at nasgor mberok………………………………………………………………… At fatmawati took kimia………………………………………………………………… Pul………………………………………………………………… Sore di kina eror………………………………………………………………… Café………………………………………………………………… Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………