Wednesday, January 25, 2017

That news.......................

The calls....................... The destroying....................... Want to kill them all....................... How come they be like that....................... They are so spoiled....................... It is their fault....................... Who spoil them all along....................... Up to now....................... Now i have to be tough....................... No more spoiling....................... It is for their future....................... It is for their sake....................... So help me lord....................... And i am sorry....................... If i make mistake....................... I cant handle them right now....................... It is so painful....................... They are annoying....................... They hurt my heart....................... So bad....................... I want to distance myself....................... From them.......................

Tear will drain you.......................

You are made from water....................... There are holes in your body....................... You are leaking....................... You will be drained....................... The sadness will drain you....................... The sorrow will drain you....................... The hurt will drain you....................... The broken heart will drain you....................... So help me lord....................... ....................... You are the only one who can....................... Repair me....................... Protect me....................... And i will always....................... Run to you.......................

Smell.......................

It is personal....................... It is not general....................... Some love them....................... Some hate them....................... I hate them....................... Not like you guys....................... Who love them....................... Tell about them....................... Cherish them....................... It disgusts me....................... I cant handle it....................... So dont force me....................... To like them....................... I am me....................... I am not you....................... Just let me be me.......................

Vast universe.......................

Many objects....................... So many things....................... And i am one of them....................... A tiny part....................... A very little thing in the universe....................... This makes you think....................... What is your purpose....................... Being here....................... You question him....................... Why did he put you here....................... Do you carry some kind of purpose....................... That you dont know....................... How will you behave....................... If you dont know anything....................... Just trust him.......................

Vast universe.......................

Vast universe....................... Many objects....................... So many things....................... And i am one of them....................... A tiny part....................... A very little thing in the universe....................... This makes you think....................... What is your purpose....................... Being here....................... You question him....................... Why did he put you here....................... Do you carry some kind of purpose....................... That you dont know....................... How will you behave....................... If you dont know anything....................... Just trust him.......................

Problem one.......................

The missing foot....................... Problem two....................... The almost died engine....................... What will do....................... Never go there again? ....................... But the place is nice....................... But the experience is hurtfull....................... And i am afraid....................... It will happen again....................... I should not be afraid....................... God is with me....................... He will make everything fine....................... Just like before....................... As usual.......................

Being sick.......................

And that news....................... It gives you chill....................... Makes me afraid to death....................... What if i am like her....................... Ah lord....................... Help me....................... I am afraid....................... I give it all to you....................... I know you are with me....................... I know you protect me....................... Sorry lord....................... To negatively thinking bout you....................... You are the best....................... I will be nice....................... All the time’.......................

A lot of protests.......................

Avoiding campus....................... Lord help me....................... Please dont punish me....................... I am sorry....................... This heart hate them....................... For what they do....................... But i am afraid of you....................... If you will punish me....................... Because of this....................... Because i avoid them....................... I promise....................... I have good intension....................... It is for them....................... For their good.......................

A lot of films.......................

Distract everything....................... The want is to entertaint....................... The soul....................... The sick soul....................... The reality is....................... It prevents me to do anything else....................... Make me lazy....................... Lord help me....................... I need this....................... I need you.......................

Baby thing.......................

I ask her....................... And it fails....................... And i ask the other one....................... And it fails again....................... So i ask you....................... To give me one....................... I think i am ready....................... But if you think oherwise....................... Please tell me....................... What did i do wrong....................... I want to be her....................... Who willingly accept her....................... I want to accept all....................... I will accept all....................... I will try my best.......................

Three jobs.......................

Two disturbances....................... And then your head explodes....................... You get confused....................... Very much....................... It is irritating....................... It is annoying....................... But thank god....................... I can do two of them....................... Despite the obstacle....................... I believe it is you....................... Because you are here....................... Because you help me.......................

Water of the sun.......................

Are you real or fun....................... Let me put you on my pan....................... So i can store you in my can....................... Just wait a second....................... While i present you a present....................... It is a beautiful shine....................... That more than a van....................... Let us shun....................... Them who bring gun.......................

Bad news.......................

No math class....................... Make me sad....................... Really sad....................... Goodbye the money....................... Goodbye the students....................... Nice students....................... Nicer than these ones....................... Hate this one....................... Lord help me....................... I will love them....................... With your help.......................