now I should not chase the position………………………………………………

but if it comes to me I should accept it happily……………………………………………… now I should put my concentration on my teaching……………………………………………… I get my salary from there……………………………………………… so I should teach right……………………………………………… so my salary will be blessed……………………………………………… positive thinking towards him……………………………………………… maybe I was wrong……………………………………………… I thought I was ready……………………………………………… but he thought I was not ready……………………………………………… that is why he made me lost……………………………………………… another possibility……………………………………………… maybe he will give me a chance to take my study……………………………………………… thus he made me lost……………………………………………… but I am afraid to hope……………………………………………… don’t be afraid……………………………………………… keep trying……………………………………………… keep praying……………………………………………… let the result be on his hands……………………………………………… he knows what is best……………………………………………… in the name of lord……………………………………………… I hope there is always his blessing……………………………………………… in my life ………………………………………………

memory of karimunjawa………………………………………………

from the start I feel uneasy……………………………………………… but in the name of him……………………………………………… my goal is nice……………………………………………… I want to make myself happy……………………………………………… it had been broken……………………………………………… because of the yesterday lost……………………………………………… I don’t have negative intention……………………………………………… and then there is discount from committee……………………………………………… I pay only half……………………………………………… thx lord for it……………………………………………… I take it as fortune from lord……………………………………………… thx lord again……………………………………………… it was all positive during my time there……………………………………………… there is no negative……………………………………………… I don’t know bout her……………………………………………… she screenshoot status of mrb……………………………………………… and she upload it in our group……………………………………………… then there are comments……………………………………………… I keep silent……………………………………………… in the name of lord……………………………………………… I ope there will not be negative in the future ………………………………………………

headache………………………………………………

want to sleep……………………………………………… cant sleep coz of cough……………………………………………… very severe……………………………………………… lord……………………………………………… help me……………………………………………… heal me……………………………………………… will I die tonight……………………………………………… no more ice……………………………………………… no more fried food……………………………………………… no more smoking……………………………………………… those I promise to myself……………………………………………… now it is headache……………………………………………… and cough severely……………………………………………… ache all over……………………………………………… stomachache too……………………………………………… pain in chest too……………………………………………… in the name of lord……………………………………………… I hope these pains are eraser for my sins……………………………………………… it has been for a while……………………………………………… but I am not healed yet……………………………………………… maybe I have a lot of sins……………………………………………… so the erasing process needs time……………………………………………… positive thinking towards him……………………………………………… he must have reason …………………………………………………..

16 apr 19 selasa………………………………………………

w ciprut n mom……………………………………………… fruit stall……………………………………………… gold store……………………………………………… jemput aunt……………………………………………… makam grandpa……………………………………………… bn bcor……………………………………………… alfa……………………………………………… makam grandma……………………………………………… yang harti……………………………………………… antaer aunt……………………………………………… toko oleh2……………………………………………… toko beras……………………………………………… toko bawang……………………………………………… allahuakbar………………………………………………

15 apr 19 senen………………………………………………

kampus absen……………………………………………… pul……………………………………………… pijet……………………………………………… otw ponorogo w ciprut……………………………………………… allahuakbar………………………………………………

14 apr 19 minggu………………………………………………

karimunjawa……………………………………………… pantai bobby……………………………………………… dermaga……………………………………………… nyebrang jepara……………………………………………… maksi d jepara h ismun……………………………………………… otw smg by bus……………………………………………… pul diantar mas nug dll……………………………………………… allahuakbar………………………………………………

13 april 19 sabtu………………………………………………

karimunjawa……………………………………………… dermaga……………………………………………… snorkeling 1……………………………………………… snorkeling 2……………………………………………… pulau 1 maksi……………………………………………… pulau 2……………………………………………… mlm alun2……………………………………………… allahuakbar………………………………………………

12 apr 19 jumat………………………………………………

dijemput mrl and idul……………………………………………… jemput bu wid……………………………………………… kampus……………………………………………… ke jepara bersama rombongan matematik naik bus kampus……………………………………………… mpe pelabuhan……………………………………………… nyebrang karimunjjawa……………………………………………… hotel……………………………………………… bukit……………………………………………… pantai……………………………………………… malam k alun2……………………………………………… allahuakbar………………………………………………

11 ap 19 kamis ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

kampus……………………………………………… allahuakbar………………………………………………