The raincoat is torn up…………………

I get wet all over………………… Get very angry………………… Don’t want to go home………………… But it is raining………………… All is wet………………… I must go home………………… Huft………………… Very annoyed………………… What the hell …………………

Mister dee…………………

Remember the long time ago………………… At first the words are great………………… Put me up high………………… But in the end it is painful………………… In the end he just wants money………………… I hope it doesn’t happen to this one………………… I hope this one really needs the money………………… For study………………… Etc………………… God help me………………… Sorry for my bad thought………………… I am afraid god………………… I hope he is kind………………… I hope he is not bad …………………

Get home…………………..

Get emotional………………….. I don’t know………………….. All makes my blood goes up’………………….. All my things get mixed up………………….. And I make it more messy………………….. And I don’t want to go home………………….. If I go to hotel it will be expensive………………….. I should find a room to rent instead………………….. I hope I get one………………….. I hipe I get blessing from god………………….. Because I think I cant take it if I go home………………….. I must go god………………….. Sorry god …………………..

Thx god…………………..

There are a lot of beautiful men………………….. But I cant come close to them………………….. It is scary………………….. I am a shy person………………….. I am afraid a lot………………….. Of everything………………….. I like to be by myself a lot………………….. I am very quiet………………….. That is a bad luck………………….. I will change………………….. At next camp………………….. I will get one …………………..

Sorry I don’t pray in a specific place…………………..

But I pray in this place………………….. Hope you accept it………………….. Thx u for the pen………………….. Thx for the coffee………………….. Thx for the charging place………………….. Thx for the journey………………….. Thx for aan………………….. Thx for asar………………….. Thx for film………………….. Thx for magrib………………….. Thx for penyet………………….. Thx for the ride………………….. Thx for the safe journey …………………..

I am too quiet………………………..

Too shy……………………….. Too alone……………………….. And I must change……………………….. I will change……………………….. With his help……………………….. Believe in it……………………….. Because he is great……………………….. He can change me……………………….. Just in a blink of eye……………………….. Very fast……………………….. Just like to roll over a palm……………………….. You will be amazed of it……………………….. You will shocked……………………….. Dumbfounded……………………….. Agape ………………………..

Have a lot of pen at home………………………..

Here my pen is gone……………………….. Don’t want to but pen……………………….. But I must……………………….. Because I must write……………………….. There is so much going on in my head……………………….. I am exploding……………………….. To avoid that I must write them down……………………….. Everything……………………….. About this place……………………….. About the journey to come here……………………….. About the mall……………………….. About the journey to the mall……………………….. About the occasion……………………….. That make me think a lot……………………….. Muse……………………….. I am too stupid……………………….. Too crazy ………………………..

So many kids………………………..

From different provinces……………………….. Thirty three of them……………………….. From different continents……………………….. Five or seven of them……………………….. From many countries……………………….. Weird women……………………….. Strangely stare to me……………………….. At me……………………….. For me……………………….. Don’t know what is in her mind……………………….. Is it only in my mind……………………….. Or does she really have a strange thought of me……………………….. Don’t know it for sure ………………………..

A very big house………………………..

Like a palace……………………….. With many rooms……………………….. And I can use it as a business……………………….. Hotel business……………………….. Handsome……………………….. Sexy……………………….. Big……………………….. Tall……………………….. White……………………….. Clever……………………….. Rich……………………….. Like a prince……………………….. Blue blood……………………….. A great physic and personality……………………….. You can just dream about him now……………………….. But then……………………….. He will be sent to you by him……………………….. Definitely……………………….. Believe in him……………………….. He can do everything……………………….. Including this ………………………..

God………………………..

Please give me home……………………….. Create me a home……………………….. Send me to a home……………………….. Take me to a home……………………….. Put me in a home……………………….. But……………………….. If I don’t make a clear definition of a home……………………….. I will never be satisfied……………………….. Thus……………………….. I should make it clear……………………….. What is a home to me……………………….. A big house……………………….. With a husband in it……………………….. A lot of kids ………………………..

God………………………..

God……………………….. Please give me home……………………….. Create me a home……………………….. Send me to a home……………………….. Take me to a home……………………….. Put me in a home……………………….. But……………………….. If I don’t make a clear definition of a home……………………….. I will never be satisfied……………………….. Thus……………………….. I should make it clear……………………….. What is a home to me……………………….. A big house……………………….. With a husband in it……………………….. A lot of kids ………………………..

My head is almost exploding………………………..

There is so much anger in me……………………….. But I don’t want to……………………….. Coz he is so very kind to me……………………….. Thus I analyze myself……………………….. The good of gocar it will protect me from rain……………………….. The bad of gocar that it needs money……………………….. The good of him that he sacrifice himself for me……………………….. The good of him that he tries to make a conversation with me……………………….. The bad of situation created by him are……………………….. I get wet of rain……………………….. My foot get wet……………………….. My socks get wet……………………….. My shoes get wet……………………….. He doesn’t know the route……………………….. He get lost……………………….. He ask a lot to many people ………………………..

The reality………………………..

They speak alien language……………………….. So I just sit silent……………………….. Stay cool……………………….. Be calm……………………….. Be handsome……………………….. And I hope this will not be like the last time……………………….. And it will not……………………….. I will have a lot of friend……………………….. I will talk to many men……………………….. I will mingle wonderfully……………………….. Amazingly……………………….. Handsomely……………………….. With the help from the lord……………………….. Of course he will help ………………………..

Wanting always makes my head spinning………………………..

Spiraling……………………….. Wandering……………………….. It is there and here……………………….. It is all over the place……………………….. That is the lady……………………….. Want to be friendly……………………….. But don’t know how……………………….. Yes you do……………………….. Just speak……………………….. Of anything that come to your head……………………….. The language barrier……………………….. Doesn’t matter……………………….. It will be overcome……………………….. There is a universal language ………………………..

The presents………………………..

Feel ashamed……………………….. Please don’t……………………….. Just be brave……………………….. Be confident……………………….. Be yourself……………………….. Mothing bad will happen……………………….. Something good will happen……………………….. Believe in him……………………….. Believe in yourself……………………….. Everything runs smoothly……………………….. They will love it……………………….. Very much……………………….. That will make you confident ………………………..

Making tea………………………..

I don’t think so……………………….. Just wait for him……………………….. So he will make it for me……………………….. Hah……………………….. So cunning……………………….. And lazy……………………….. That is me……………………….. For now……………………….. I am not usually like this……………………….. But this condition makes me this way……………………….. This place……………………….. It is very awful……………………….. Makes me so much grateful for my own place ………………………..

Is he his secret lover………………………..

Am I interrupting something……………………….. Feel bad……………………….. Thx god……………………….. I can do it……………………….. It is amazing……………………….. Feel wonderful……………………….. Although……………………….. There are so much fear……………………….. In the process……………………….. Love you god……………………….. Dearly ………………………..

He is cooking………………………..

Wow……………………….. Is he doing that for me……………………….. Feel amazed……………………….. Then remembering……………………….. Just because I say goodbye to her……………………….. Everything runs smoothly……………………….. The gocar……………………….. The station……………………….. The train……………………….. The gojek……………………….. The martins place……………………….. Everything is great……………………….. Wonderful ………………………..

The smell is deadly………………………..

Thx god he is smoking……………………….. The smell is gone……………………….. The smoking is fine……………………….. Much better than before……………………….. Don’t know about him……………………….. Hope em doesn’t send him for me……………………….. He is old……………………….. He smell bad……………………….. Not me very much……………………….. Sorry lord……………………….. I don’t mean to mock your creature……………………….. I really don’t ………………………..

12 nov 17 minggu………………………..

At camp……………………….. Siang otw bandung……………………….. At transmart……………………….. Meet aan……………………….. Makan……………………….. Nonton……………………….. Makan……………………….. Stasiun by aan……………………….. Smg by train……………………….. Allahualbar………………………..

11 nov 17 sabtu………………………..

Otw pengalengan……………………….. Camp all day……………………….. Allahuakbar………………………..

10 nov 17 jumat………………………..

At abndung……………………….. Stasiun……………………….. At martin all day……………………….. Allahauakbar………………………..

9 nov 17 kamis………………………..

Kampus……………………….. Mlm otw bandung by train……………………….. Allahuakbar………………………..

8 nov 17 rabu………………………..

Kampus……………………….. Paragoin w bika banggun atika……………………….. Kampus……………………….. Pul……………………….. Ngantar ciprut k tawang……………………….. By gocar……………………….. Pul by gocar 2x……………………….. Allahuakbar………………………..

7 nov 17 selasa………………………..

Kampus……………………….. Jemput amin……………………….. Warung upnormal……………………….. Ngantar amin……………………….. Alfamrt……………………….. Allahuakbar………………………..

6 nov 17 senen………………………..

Wrg……………………….. Kampus……………………….. Ptg rmbt……………………….. Pulsa……………………….. Allahuakbar………………………..

5 nov 17 minggu………………………..

At tanah putih……………………….. Meet yayan and masnug……………………….. At karangrejo meet ikasilo……………………….. Otw pukas rafting banjarnegara……………………….. Rafting at pukas banjarnegara……………………….. Otw smg……………………….. Karangrejo ambil motor……………………….. Allahuakbar………………………..

4 nov 17 sabtu………………………..

Kampus……………………….. Jemput anggun……………………….. Wrg……………………….. Kampus……………………….. Rapat……………………….. Kondangan……………………….. Javamall……………………….. Atm……………………….. Momgki at starbuck……………………….. Ntn……………………….. Allahuakbar………………………..

3 nov 17 jumat………………………..

Kampus……………………….. Bca……………………….. Wrg……………………….. Kampus……………………….. Alfmrt……………………….. Hujn……………………….. Allahuakbar………………………..