The praying................

The ritual................ The routine................ They say................ It is the first thing................ That the god asks................ And i realize................ Mine is bad................ Really bad................ Very bad................ The worst................ It is scary................ They say if it is bad................ Then the others will not matter................ The god will not appreciate them................ Is it true................ You scare me................ Oh lord................ Oh god................ You are my saviour................

The talent................

The desire................ You stop me................ I remember taking the singing class................ The desire to be a singer................ But dont have talent................ You stop me................ And then the other desire................ Want to be success in the black world................ But you dont give me a way................ You stop me................ Then the desire want to success in the study................ But you dont allow me up to now................ I question you................ Am i not worthy enough................ What should i do................ To make myslef deserve what i want................ Up to now................ I am trying so hard to be good................ Is it not enough................

As long as my mom gets hurt................

Because of me................ I will not get that................ All i want................ All i ask................ God will reject me................ This is the punishment................ I know that now................ But still................ I get hurt too................ When i get close to her................ It hurts a lot................ Is it the devil................ I think so................ Is it ok to blame the devil................ I think so................ Oh lord................ Help me................