want to stay there ……………………..

free as much as possible …………………….. do what I want …………………….. what I can …………………….. happy unlimited …………………….. with people like me …………………….. the dream land what it is called …………………….. kingdom of my heart …………………….. with him there …………………….. being the sun …………………….. to give light to all …………………….. being the moon …………………….. to guide us all in the dark …………………….. being the wind …………………….. to calm us all when we are in heat ……………………..

remember dd ……………………..

always retelling the past …………………….. about my stupid …………………….. but now …………………….. in my eyes …………………….. she does stupid …………………….. like what I did before …………………….. if she is wrong she insists that she is right …………………….. and when all proofs prove her wrong …………………….. she ignores everything …………………….. she acts as if nothing happens …………………….. don’t want to apologize …………………….. don’t want to admit that she is wrong …………………….. lord …………………….. weird …………………….. hope she realizes it soon …………………….. and there will not many victims ……………………..

angry at aunt ……………………..

about usa …………………….. about money …………………….. she acts wise …………………….. telling me not to go free there …………………….. then I get boiled inside …………………….. coz I want to be free there …………………….. very much free …………………….. and she talks about money …………………….. telling me to save money …………………….. get boiled inside again …………………….. coz she doesn’t know …………………….. that I spend money for him …………………….. to pay his tuition …………………….. this things make me proud of myself …………………….. and make myself believe that I am worthy to stand before him …………………….. …………………….. …………………….. to make him happy …………………….. …………………….. to make lord happy …………………….. to make me happy ……………………..

mrb is great ……………………..

wonderful …………………….. amazing …………………….. extraordinary …………………….. beyond believe …………………….. he helps me when I am in so much trouble …………………….. I am grateful …………………….. …………………….. he is so great …………………….. he can control my lappy …………………….. from far away land …………………….. and I am grateful …………………….. he is very patient …………………….. to face me …………………….. to handle me …………………….. it is gods send …………………….. he is gods send …………………….. I am very grateful to have a friend like him ……………………..

mrf n mrs and others ……………………..

ask for treats …………………….. forcefully …………………….. it hurts …………………….. coz I don’t have money …………………….. and they force it …………………….. and her …………………….. mrsp said that my program will be cancelled …………………….. it hurts …………………….. …………………….. coz words are prays …………………….. it is scary …………………….. I am afraid what she said will come true …………………….. and unshamefully …………………….. she asks for souvernirs …………………….. hot damn …………………….. hope lord doesn’t listen to her ……………………..

I imagine this……………………….

being come undone………………………. in your house………………………. I am sorry I postpone it………………………. going to your house………………………. I hope you don’t get angry to me………………………. I promise………………………. after I go home from there………………………. I will go to your house………………………. with all my love………………………. I present them to you………………………. then there is that dream still………………………. to be caught in your house………………………. being trapped………………………. all of my life………………………. till you call me………………………. to face you ……………………….