It feels so good.....................

It makes you happy..................... It makes you cry..................... To go to another dimension..................... The life before this..................... Being the most wanted..................... Many soulmates love you..................... In a very passionate way..................... Make you addicted..................... Make you want more..................... And more..................... Or the one partner..................... That loves you deeply..................... And do you in so many ways..................... That make you speechless..................... Awe you to cloud number nine .....................

The things that make me cry......................

Arent real...................... The sad stories...................... The sad movies...................... The sad songs...................... But then again...................... I do cry for real things...................... The sad news...................... Real news...................... Real people...................... Real events...................... But then again...................... I cry for things happen to others...................... But i cant cry when...................... The things happen to me...................... That is so weird...................... Completely...................... Definitely ......................

I cant cry.............

The one thing............. The saddest thing............. The one i thought it would be............. It didnt make me cry............. Thus............. I think............. There is something wrong with me............. It isnt ok............. To be like this............. What is it............. What is wrong............. What should i do............. Just believe in you............. Then you will make it right .............

The end is near.....................

I can feel it..................... And i have a lot of debt..................... I am afraid..................... Being afraid will offend you..................... So i must not be afraid..................... I must believe in you..................... You will make everything fine..................... Life is wonderful..................... You make it..................... It is the only way..................... Your way..................... Imagining things..................... If something happens..................... Then it will be you..................... Just like the story .....................

The want is...................

To buy sporty things................... To help me................... Being healthy................... Being in a good shape................... Hope god help me................... There is so much going on in my head................... Being afraid of everything................... The fund................... The process................... The stupid of me ...................

The plan is...................

To build a place................... For that machine................... So it will be useful................... For my daily life................... Hope money will not be the problem................... Hope both of them can help................... And not do something fishy ................... I am afraid................... If i dont use it................... It will be broken................... Just like her................... I dont understand................... She buys................... But she never uses it...................

The plan...................

Reducing a lot of meal times................... To do that................... Must avoid office................... Hope it will succeed................... Hope nobody want to see me................... When i am not at the office................... Hope it runs smoothly................... Hope god lead me the way................... Hope god accompany me................... Hope god is beside me................... All the time................... From the start................... To the finish line................... Happily................... Cheerfully ...................