greensmg: Jan 1, 2015

Thursday, January 1, 2015

i believe your plan is much better than mine

their kiss burns my eyes stabs my heart into pieces feels like hell the jealous in me eat my soul eat my brain i am undone it is always like this being the third wheel when will i become the one for the one who i love and it is happening on new year is it a sign that i will not get that kind of love that i should stay away from that kind of love being positive i will believe you i will trust you you are the only one who loves me unconditionally

THE WATER DROPS

walking step by step in the middle of the jungle nothing to hear just the sound of water drops the sound of Your greeting You greet the deads You create the greens You create the lives being grateful being thankful admiring how everything changes You greet the earth the water drops greet the greens the steps continue the drops don't stop the cold embraces all it is You everything is You all around is You the feeling of being small very tiny compare to all You have what is the thought? being afraid? or being amazed? everything becomes one it never stops just imagining being all alone but You it is always You nothing understands me better but You nothing accepts me completely but You (jambangan 181214 1500)

the light, the big and me

i just stood there staring at the big standing there while the light warming me i tried really hard deep breathing inhaling You understanding You searching You where are the signs? i am not that good YET need You to show me explicitly that You are exist that You are here with me around me protect me then the clouds hide the light is it the illumination? is it Your way to illuminate me? don't go believing You You can do EVERYTHING i can do what You allow me to do You can do all the big things admiring You realizing how small i am realizing how great You are then the life goes on i am here carrying Your gifts (kalimati 191214 0600)