Enlightment.........................

She said bad words......................... Take it positively......................... Throw it back positively......................... Just be silent......................... Let the brain process......................... Analyze it......................... Make it into many little pieces......................... And change those parts into positive......................... That will make you also positive......................... That will make you not angry......................... Not annoyed......................... And disturb your soul......................... You become sick......................... That is not happening......................... Your soul will be healthy......................... To do everything......................... To thank him......................... Always......................... For everything.........................

Strange.........................

I cant swim smoothly......................... Is it the glasses......................... The one that make me can see under......................... Make me afraid......................... Afraid of drowning......................... Why am i afraid of drowning......................... I can swim......................... But i cant float......................... Maybe that is why......................... I hate myself......................... I blame the red creature......................... Next time......................... I will be fine......................... I can swim......................... I can see under......................... I will feel ok......................... I will not afraid......................... God with me......................... Always.........................

There are two coming from pon.........................

The bad one......................... The other-world power......................... The one that i hate......................... And make me hate her......................... Coz she does that......................... And i blame the red creature......................... The other thing is......................... The one like the saying i read......................... It is all from her......................... Whenever i am lucky......................... It is her......................... That is why......................... Now i change my brain......................... Not hating her......................... Though it is very hard......................... Now i feel lucky......................... And it reminds me of her......................... Thank her......................... Thank god.........................

Mrs em versus mrs ef.........................

I thought everything is fine......................... Everybody gets along well......................... But i get the enlightment......................... Two cases......................... Some time ago......................... And yesterday......................... Scary......................... I hope they get along fine......................... For them......................... For me......................... For you......................... It scares me......................... The aura of fight......................... Silent fight......................... They fight secretly......................... Not in the open......................... That is more scary......................... I wish i am not in......................... The midlle of them......................... But i am......................... Hope god protects me......................... Honestly......................... I want the best for them......................... Is it the reason......................... Why you put me here......................... To make peace......................... For everyone......................... I hope i can......................... With your help.........................

Actually i dont want to eat.........................

Just want to hang out......................... Not in the room all the time......................... Neet different view......................... But want a quiet one......................... The one where i can read......................... Dont care tomorrow......................... Tomorrow is full......................... The morning task......................... The after morning stuff......................... Busy day......................... The fear is......................... I dissaoppint them......................... The biggest fear is......................... I dissappoint you.........................

Pedu home.........................

The same talk......................... Missing him ......................... When he is alive......................... She treats him bad......................... Now she is sorry......................... I think......................... Just prediction......................... The talking......................... The crying......................... Make me think that way......................... Wish you show her......................... The right path......................... How to behave......................... Like an honor woman......................... A respectable one.........................

Admiring you.........................

Admiring your creatures......................... They are so very beautiful......................... Can i have one of them......................... What to fear......................... You are with me......................... Nothing to fear......................... The pain......................... There is no pain as long as......................... You are with me......................... Hthe loneliness......................... And i believe you will......................... Never leave me.........................

Admiring you.........................

Admiring you......................... Admiring your creatures......................... They are so very beautiful......................... Can i have one of them......................... What to fear......................... You are with me......................... Nothing to fear......................... The pain......................... There is no pain as long as......................... You are with me......................... Hthe loneliness......................... And i believe you will......................... Never leave me.........................

Leaving math.........................

Leaving wife......................... Nooo......................... Being left......................... Being rejected......................... And then you give smooth......................... Thank to you......................... Being grateful......................... And then come the fear......................... That i thnik i dont deserve it......................... And then come the other thought......................... Beliving that i dont deserve it......................... Meaning that i dont believe in your judgement......................... That will offend you......................... The more i fear for you......................... I am sorry......................... Please forgive me......................... I believe in you......................... I believe in your judgement......................... I believe in you who believe in me......................... Hope this will not make me......................... Come undone.........................

Yesterday.........................

It was a full day......................... Many jobs......................... And there is no connection......................... Make my head boiling......................... It was burning......................... But i tried to be calm......................... And thank god......................... I can pass that day......................... Eventhough there were some problems......................... Being grateful......................... Hope it will be repeated this day......................... Being with you......................... Not leaving you......................... In this chaotic life.........................

It was weird.........................

Theirs are fine......................... Mine is in trouble......................... Then i was in so much pain......................... I passed the day in a gloomy aura......................... But i made it......................... That was you......................... I believe it......................... You were there......................... Always......................... Never leave me......................... Till now......................... It happens again......................... Being stressed......................... There are so many jobs......................... This head is exploding......................... Help me.........................

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