make me

 

I woke before the morning did,
eyes open to a silent sky—
the clock whispered responsibility,
but my blanket held me tighter
than any promise I had made.

“I’ll rise in five,” I told myself,
negotiating with the dawn.
The pillow felt like destiny,
the mattress like a loyal friend—
and so I drifted back
into the soft betrayal of sleep.

Now the sun stands high and bold,
and I stand guilty in its light.
Lesson plans waiting.
Students trusting.
A calling greater than my comfort.

Lord,
You see this fragile will of mine—
the tug between purpose and pillow,
between fire and fatigue.
Help me, please.

Turn my laziness into discipline,
my delay into determination.
Teach my feet to move
when my heart hesitates.
Make me rise not just from bed,
but from excuses.

Let me teach with passion
even if I woke in weakness.
Let my class feel energy
even if I fought gravity this morning.

Tomorrow,
when the alarm calls my name,
remind me who I am—
not a servant of sleep,
but a teacher with a mission.

Lord,
make me diligent,
make me steady,
make me rise.

2 maret 26 senen

 

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A Prayer in a Room Full of Shadows

 

A Prayer in a Room Full of Shadows

This group feels frightening now,
crowded, yet heavy with something dark.
Too many who strum false tunes in secret,
too many who flatter to survive,
too many who smile while hiding knives behind their backs.

God,
I am afraid.
In the middle of the noise, I feel alone.
In the middle of laughter, I feel cautious.

Protect me from wicked hearts,
from hidden intentions,
from those who force their will on others,
who act as if they know everything,
who love to lecture,
who believe they are the most righteous in the world.

Protect me from subtle insults,
from words that sound gentle but carry poison,
from manipulation wrapped in kindness.

If anyone has wronged me,
let justice come in Your way, not mine.
I do not wish for revenge.
I only wish for peace and safety.

Calm my heart.
Strengthen my steps.
And please—
do not let me become like them.

Amen.