And then they kidnap me..............

Sell me.............. Use me.............. Till i am out of everything.............. Till they are bored of me.............. Then i am killed.............. They kill me.............. But i am not dead.............. Someone found me.............. Someone cure me.............. But then again.............. He sells me.............. The case repeats all over again.............. I try to run away.............. But they caught me.............. They shot me.............. They sell me to other place.............. Then the escape again.............. Fail again.............. Shot again.............. Sell to other place again.............. And repeat again.............. Till i got in that place.............. The last one.............. When there is a customer.............. The regular one.............. The scary one.............. But he seems so lovely.............. So sincere.............. And bought me.............. And make me his property.............. Treat me dearly.............. Make me part of his family.............. And the others love me too.............. Dont know the reason.............. Sincere? .............. Or scared? .............. But it all has been good.............. Then the secret of his world is revealed.............. The love gets bigger.............. Stronger.............. Deeper.............. Cant stay away from him.............. The coming home.............. The interview.............. The famous.............. But always going back to him.............. Always.............. Till the end..............

Do you want to get back together? ..............

What the heck.............. Do you love me.............. I dont think so.............. You never show your love for me.............. You never show your care for me.............. I had done a lot of sacrifice.............. Now it is your turn.............. Show me yours.............. Your sacrifice.............. Your love.............. Your care..............

The feeling of being good..............

When some of them remember me.............. Greet me.............. Feel i am respected.............. Feel wonderful.............. Though.............. I know how i was.............. Very stupid.............. Very stern.............. Very apart.............. Distance myself away from them.............. Dont want to get close.............. Afraid of them.............. Afraid of them knowing me.............. The true me..............

The movie of last night..............

The one i had already watched.............. But it hits me just now.............. Not like the one before.............. Dont know why.............. But it gets into my head real deep.............. And then he sits next to me.............. And the memory of the plot rushes through my head.............. What if.............. I am like the one in the story.............. Crazy imagination.............. And that driver.............. And both of them.............. Stay in my life.............. Forever and ever..............

When you just sit..............

And she explains all she has in her head.............. So much of that knowledge.............. Very high level beyond my reach.............. At least for now.............. Coz i will be there in that level.............. With my own strength.............. She does have a really great explanation.............. Will i be like that.............. It always comes the nervous.............. The disbelief of self.............. And then comes the contra.............. To kill those the underestimate self.............. And then comes the thought of homeschooling.............. Then want to put the kids there.............. Whose kids.............. I dont have kids.............. The thought is jumping here and there..............