three times being hurt..................................

those words are as sharp as the khife.................................. the first that says i should not expect much.................................. the second that goes i should choose his choice.................................. the third that tells i ruin his plan.................................. lord help me please.................................. if i win.................................. do not make us enemy.................................. do not make him block my works.................................. if i lose.................................. make us work in harmony.................................. make my heart calm.................................. make me happy.................................................................... make us all happy ..........................................

i am shocked when i open my email......................................

too busy for days...................................... do not have time to open email...................................... when i open it it is too late...................................... meanwhile it is very important...................................... dear lord...................................... if it is the best for me...................................... make my heart let it go...................................... because it hurts a lot...................................... i hope you give me reason...................................... not knowing why is making me suffered...................................... or maybe you allow me to have a position...................................... i am afraid lord...................................... a lot of people will become my enemy...................................... i will not have the capability owning it...................................... but i cant be like that...................................... i must be confident...................................... because you help me all the way...................................... choosing the best for me .............................................

what i am afraid of is happening........................................

i love someone who love another........................................ it hurts a lot........................................ and i am still hoping........................................ stupid me........................................ i must force myself........................................ to stop meeting that person........................................ but i am afraid i will fail........................................ if that person asks to meet........................................ probably i will say yes........................................ holy ef........................................ this is disaster........................................ dear lord........................................ help me please........................................ protect me from bad people........................................ in any form........................................ the ones with sheep wool too........................................ the wolves who pretend to be sheep........................................ lets do that........................................ becoming crazy........................................ making myself happy........................................ to the max.......................................................

23 mar 19 sabtu...........................................

kampus........................................... workshop pengabdian........................................... macet........................................... ada beli kado........................................... pul........................................... wrg........................................... pamela........................................... kampus........................................... nontons sheila........................................... pamela........................................... allahuakbar...........................................

22 mar 19 jumat...........................................

kampus........................................... w p yusuf n p kamto........................................... matahari........................................... baiturahman........................................... segitiga........................................... kampus........................................... pamela........................................... allahuakbar...........................................

21 mar 19 kamis...........................................

kampus........................................... w seto adel pkamto pjoko p yusuf ke jepara takziyah mertua b filis........................................... mampir duren........................................... mampir erlangga........................................... kampus........................................... pul........................................... pijet........................................... allahuakbar...........................................

20 mar 19 rabu...........................................

kampus........................................... allahuakbar...........................................

19 mar 19 selasa...........................................

kampus........................................... w pamela p henry p kis k segitiga........................................... manggaria citraland........................................... kampus........................................... kampus4 or........................................... diner w pkamto n pucup........................................... kampus ngantar pkamto n pucup........................................... allahuakbar...........................................

18 mar 19 senen...........................................

kampus........................................... pamela...................................................................................... allahuakbar...........................................

17 mar 19 minggu...........................................

gym........................................... ped wifi........................................... alfa belanja........................................... pul........................................... nizar........................................... cimol........................................... ichiban........................................... miniso........................................... nizar nginep........................................... allahuakbar...........................................

16 mar 19 sabtu...........................................

seharian d rmh........................................... allahuakbar...........................................

15 mar 19 jumat...........................................

kampus........................................... pamela........................................... pijet........................................... allahuakbar...........................................

14 mar 19 kamis...........................................

atm........................................... pom........................................... alfa........................................... kampus........................................... allahuakbatr...........................................

13 mar 19 rabu ……………………………………………………………………………………..

13 marb19 rabu........................................... kampus........................................... bulu meet bowo........................................... kampus........................................... pesta kebon rapat........................................... kampus ngantar pkamto n adel........................................... allahuakbar...........................................