Imagining................

You are the fan of mine................ You cheer me loudly................ You boost the energy in me................ You lift me................ Up high to the sky................ Cloud number nine................ And i cant stop smiling................ You give me light................ You show me the path................ You put me in d place................ Where noone can kill me................ Kick me aside................ You save me................ You make me safe................

I want to go home................

Life seems so hard................ Then i realize................ I am complaining................ Sorry................ But the thought comes suddenly................ By itself................ Cant avoid it................ Cant control it................ I dont want to complain................ I just want to meet you................ I want to be loved................ I want to be hugged................ Tightly................ And dont let me go................ Forever................ What the hell................ Why do i cry................ This is suck................

One day................

I will wait................ Until you allow me................ Having a child................ Until i deserve it................ Becoming a dad................ Until i am worthy in your eyes................ To stand tall................ To held my head high................ But i am always afraid................ I will not be there................ To that level................ I will always fight................ I am sorry for hoping still................ I am only human................ Though that is not an excuse................

I know this is wrong................

But................ There is always but in my head................ I hope................ Really hope................ You make this right................ Magically................ Move my foot................ Towards you................ Imagining to live there................ In your house................ Happily................ Without working................ Only cleaning your house................ Becoming your slave................ Becoming your sub................ Becoming your worshipper................ Live freely................ Without limit................

Money..................

Tomorrow.................. Make it easy.................. If it exists now thus we can do it tomorrow.................. If it doesnt exist now thus i will do it later.................. Then.................. Must i phone her.................. Or him.................. Finally i text her.................. And i git reply.................. Thx to god.................. He plans all.................. There has been plans.................. There has been places.................. There has been times..................

And i got blocked..................

The first reaction is.................. Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.................. Damnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.................. Everything seems difficult lately.................. The way god plans all.................. What will happen now.................. Can i stillbe exist in this kind of world.................. I want to.................. But it will be hard.................. He blocks it.................. It seems so.................. God.................. Help me please..................

Sorry..................

I get angry easily.................. Dont know what happens.................. But it happens.................. The devil wins.................. Hope it doesnt happen again.................. Hope everything is ok between us.................. The heart hurts.................. Feel full.................. Want to explode.................. Want to burst.................. Say your name.................. Whisper your sentences.................. Calm now.................. Calm me ..................