Thinking negative...................

Because of last night................... Please dont................... Being recruited................... Being passed................... Being selected................... Is a good thing................... Being among them................... Is god’s gift................... Be grateful................... Be thankful................... And he will give more................... Much more ...................

And it comes again...................

You have black thought................... About yourself................... Coz something happens................... Something bad................... And you blame yourself................... You think it is your fault................... And it destroys you................... Eating you alive................... Inside out................... Lord help me...................

The feeling...................

The news................... The theme................... Are all combined................... Make you down................... Scary................... But i should not be scared................... Of it................... Of them................... I just am scared of god................... I cant describe the feeling................... It is not scared................... It is disgusted................... Dont know................... The torture................... The hierarchy...................