....the first is hate.............

Then get jealous............. Then admire............. How come............. He is so good............. In mingling............. In socializing............. Then i remember the sin............. The talk behind him............. Maybe it is karma............. Then blame the self............. Curse the self............. Being black............. Being dark............. Then come the spirit............. To run to the other direction............. To that light.............

When ... on that time................

Remember that campus................ She gives me elementary school english................ For teching univ students................ That time i think it is weird................ Now not anymore................ My own students................ I fail................ They cant understand english for univ stu................ Should i give them elementary level english................ I will do that................ Next time................ God bless ............

Being in the middle of nowhere..................

It is what is like.................. When they talk about that kind of thing.................. The thing beyond my brain.................. Far away from here.................. The heart doesnt want to.................. The part of the heart wants to.................. Imagining the end.................. Near the finish line.................. It would be chaotic.................. Just like it used to be.................. But always pray to god.................. Always be positive.................. Want the best for them.................. Want them to be clever.................. With the blessing from above..................

I did a mistake..................

I didnt know.................. Unconsciously i give the right test to studens.................. Consciously i corrected the question as i thought it is wrong.................. Then i know that what i thought is wrong is right.................. And what i thought is right is wrong.................. So when i give the wrong test.................. What i think wrong.................. Actually i give the right test.................. Only god can do that.................. Amazing.................. Wonderful.................. Praise the lord..................

And that sad ending..................

Damn.................. I forget.................. The hurt.................. And all pain gone.................. Is just afraid now.................. Damn.................. The aura is frightening.................. Fuck.................. How can i be this way.................. I think i am not like this before.................. What happen.................. Maybe the karma.................. When i pretend to be afraid.................. And tell them that.................. And then.................. It really is happening..................

Sis is good..................

Want to be like her.................. But she is her.................. I am me.................. We are different.................. We will never be the same.................. And believe what they said.................. The one in group.................. The discussion.................. That we are higher.................. We have privileges.................. We can conquer them.................. They cant destroy us.................. They cant touch us..................