mrsh tells me things…………………

that my students are error………………… if she asks them to prepare the lesson and all the stuff needed………………… it is not working………………… it makes me sick………………… I feel ashamed………………… I feel angry………………… I feel disappointed ………………… they bring the name of the institution………………… but see what they do………………… it brings shame on us………………… it gives bad name to us………………… and it also puts the bad names on them………………… but I think they do not care………………… they do not think about this kind of stuff………………… they just want to play around………………… they just want to graduate without hard work………………… they want the easy way………………… I hope someone slap them on the face………………… make them realize what they did………………… make them think thoroughly all of their action ………………… and I hope mrsh will not consider us bad………………… I hope she still wants to have future cooperation …………………

love what it was…………………

a lot of sweat………………… love that a lot………………… want to repeat that………………… lets do that again tomorrow………………… and everyday after that………………… lets torture ourselves………………… to the max………………… break the limit………………… and more………………… never stop ……………………………………

weird…………………

as if she wants to heat up the situation………………… she and her kind………………… they want to challenge others………………… make things complicated………………… here they can do that………………… they are the majority………………… if they are placed anywhere but here………………… become minority………………… they will not act carelessly…………………

I had headache since I wake up…………………

I took the medicine more than once………………… but it is still there………………… it does not disappear………………… it does not go away………………… I hope it becomes my aborter………………… for all my sins………………… I know I have a lot of them………………… I am afraid………………… if you punish me here………………… I am scared if you make me suffer………………… I fear you will not grant my wishes………………… I am afraid you will take things I love………………… I hope you do not do all that………………… I love you with all of my heart………………… you know that, right? …………………

becomes sensitive…………………

become paranoid………………… now I do that………………… now I have thatpay attention to all things around me………………… in detail………………… not like before………………… ignore them all………………… because of that case………………… I am on constant fear………………… I feel like somebody always follows me around………………… I feel that every men has the same face as him………………… that bastard………………… I hope he died………………… I forgive him………………… but I don’t want to meet him again………………… I want him dead …………………

before I feel proud to announce that I am student…………………

although I am old………………… now I realize something………………… that time………………… they are happy………………… they think I am rich as I take classes………………… brain is not the matter………………… physic is not important………………… the money play the biggest role………………… though I want a nice partner………………… the one who does not take money as the most important thing in the world………………… who also works………………… so it is in balance………………… it will not be imbalance………………… it is heavy …………………