I will make myself a loner…………………………

this will be it………………………… just him and me………………………… just me and him………………………… from this day onward………………………… this is a great man in the making………………………… don’t ask anything to them………………………… ask everything to him………………………… the students with beautiful soul………………………… the students with beautiful brain………………………… only god can defend me………………………… I want to present my paragon state before him………………………… oh dear almighty………………………… god knows how much he looks beautiful in my eyes………………………… yet it is only you who can determine what the future will be for me ……………………………

i will keep it safe......................................

i will keep you safe...................................... i will keep us safe...................................... those what i want to say...................................... to the one god send me...................................... preferable if it is the one i desire...................................... i cant explain...................................... but i am sure he understands...................................... as he are able to read me through and through...................................... and about that wish too...................................... to pursue my dream abroad...................................... really want that...................................... but i think he think it is bad for me...................................... as i failed so many times...................................... am i really that stupid...................................... i dont know what is the meaning behind all of these ...........................................

i want to seduce you............................

by bringing the best of me............................ before you............................ to smoothen all............................ i want that from him............................ to get that i must do something for him............................ i must bring soemthing for him............................ and that is what i got............................ me and myself............................ so i should present the best of me before him............................ thus he will grant my wish............................ to protect me always from bad people............................ people who are actully devils............................ disguising in human skin............................ disgusting........................................................ making me shiver thinking of them............................ hope they all rotten in hell .......................................

remembering the bastard...............................

remembering being a victim............................... lord protect me ............................... thus i devote myself to lord............................... offcie did protect me............................... thus i will devote myself to them............................... being grateful............................... this is my way to show them............................... that i am thankful............................... that they protect me............................... tho i dont know for sure............................... but i have a positive thoughts for them............................... and it is good............................... he loves this kind of thing............................... and it is also good for me............................... for my soul............................... keeping it being healthy............................... and strong physiscally and mentally............................... to keep the faith worshipping him always ...............................................

he askes me who accompany me....

................................... i will say it is lord....................................... i will have no fear for the bastards....................................... i will only fear him....................................... that is good plan....................................... but the reality is suck....................................... it is difficult to do so....................................... human are always scary to me....................................... scarier than ghosts....................................... they are devil in disguise....................................... most of them....................................... wearing sheep fur....................................... to decoy me....................................... to fool me....................................... but i aint a fool....................................... do i....................................... i think so ...................................................

getting angry thinking of fam.......

................................ it was the dark forces....................................... i believe so....................................... suddenly my mind was led to that direction....................................... how bad my fam was....................................... how they control my life....................................... how they will not let me free....................................... how they will not let me be....................................... how will they change me....................................... just be it....................................... let me be....................................... remembering him....................................... getting close to him....................................... running to him ...........................................