Getting home..............................

Accidentally take the key to my room.............................. It is a sign.............................. That i get very stressed.............................. And you add problem to my pain.............................. My lap is error.............................. For a moment.............................. But you fix it.............................. Thx lord.............................. You are amazing.............................. Above average.............................. Way way above ..............................

As easy as that you cast me away..............................

You abandon me.............................. Then i see.............................. You dont really love me.............................. There are many plans.............................. I made.............................. For both of us.............................. But.............................. Now you left me.............................. You throw me away.............................. Without hesitation.............................. Still hoping.............................. Afraid of hoping.............................. Keep hoping.............................. Lord.............................. Help me.............................. If he is good for me.............................. Make him close to me ..............................

That cloth place..............................

I did get some of them.............................. But this brain wants more.............................. I can contain myself.............................. But my heart gets restless.............................. Damn.............................. Want to scream so bad.............................. Your call.............................. I want to go to your place.............................. To do the routine.............................. But i cancel it.............................. for no reason.............................. actually there is a reason.............................. i make it up.............................. and i hate what i did.............................. and it adds more pain ..............................

The kind of them..............................

It would be great of you.............................. Nice of you.............................. Kind of you.............................. To make one of them mine.............................. Or all of them.............................. Your place.............................. Do me bad again.............................. Make me stressed.............................. And i go wild.............................. That food place too.............................. It adds more pain.............................. To my brain.............................. Damn.............................. The devil is all over.............................. This time ..............................

The box..............................

Remember yesterday.............................. That driver.............................. Give idea.............................. To buy a car.............................. Rent a driver.............................. To become online driver.............................. So in a way.............................. I provide a work.............................. And add my income.............................. Only an idea.............................. All will not run well without your blessing.............................. So the first step i should make.............................. Is searching your blessing.............................. But i think that will be very hard.............................. All is grey.............................. All is mystery.............................. For me.............................. What is it that you want ..............................

Maybe with money ..............................

I will have a lot of fund.............................. And those funds will be my source of disaster.............................. To pay all my negativity.............................. Let alone.............................. With that money.............................. I want to pay his school.............................. To get him education.............................. Because you say.............................. You promise people.............................. Who pay for others to go to school.............................. A spot in your place.............................. With that fund.............................. I want to buy a place.............................. For mu business.............................. For my old days ..............................

Maybe with my own place..............................

He will think.............................. I will invite those people.............................. And there will be a lot of parties.............................. Let alone.............................. With my own place.............................. I want to have my own business.............................. I want to secure my old days ahead.............................. When i am retired.............................. And i dont work anymore.............................. I dont have any paycheck anymore.............................. I am afraid of being stranded.............................. Let alone.............................. I should.............................. Believe in you ..............................

Remember the last moments..............................

Want to be just the two of us.............................. But it didnt happen.............................. They were always there.............................. Being around.............................. One after another.............................. Annoying.............................. Want to get angry.............................. But i cant.............................. I am confused.............................. What did happen.............................. How can i stand that time.............................. If i think about it now.............................. I get very angry.............................. All is in the past ..............................

Your place..............................

This year.............................. Not like yester years.............................. A lot of coming here.............................. Feeling so close.............................. This time.............................. Seldom coming here.............................. Many times getting away.............................. Many reasons.............................. Far from you.............................. I feel far.............................. My heart is broken.............................. It is painful.............................. Feel like it is late.............................. It is almost finished.............................. Want to be close to you ..............................

Partner..............................

Want one.............................. The yesterday.............................. But this anger.............................. This ego.............................. Doesnt want to back down.............................. Doesnt want to make the first move.............................. Afraid.............................. What if when he knows.............................. That i am under his spell.............................. Then he will be as he wish towards me.............................. Like before.............................. That bastard.............................. I dont know lord.............................. I surrender.............................. I am tired.............................. Body and soul ..............................

Grandma..............................

Getting closer to that time.............................. The more i feel.............................. How much i miss her.............................. Make me cry easily.............................. Remember that time.............................. Cry and broken into pieces.............................. When i face him.............................. Because remembering her.............................. Because missing her.............................. Wanting to meet her.............................. But i cant.............................. Because of my anger.............................. To them.............................. My hate.............................. Grandly ..............................

Maybe with the study..............................

I will be arrogant.............................. And when i am there.............................. I will get along with them.............................. Because there will be much more free.............................. And i will run away.............................. Not coming back.............................. Becase in there i will fidn what i look for.............................. Let alone.............................. My want is.............................. When i get my study.............................. I will go home.............................. Share my knowledge.............................. And secure my position.............................. In my place.............................. Because at the moment.............................. I feel unsave.............................. Afraid being cast away.............................. Afraid being unrecognized.............................. Being stepped ..............................

Causing bad..............................

That is why.............................. God doesnt grant me these things.............................. The car.............................. The study.............................. The house.............................. The money.............................. Maybe with the box.............................. I will go places.............................. The negative ones.............................. Let alone.............................. My want is.............................. Going places.............................. To various destinations.............................. For not that kind of things.............................. Hope god understand ..............................

21 juni 17 rabu...................

Kampus................... Pulgasik................... Sore majt eror................... Wrg eror................... Tanahabang................... Allahuakbar...................

20 juni 17 selasa...................

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19 juni 17 senen...................

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18 juni 17 minggu...................

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`17 juni 17 sabtu...................

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16 juni 17 jumat ...................

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