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tidak semua harus kembali padamu………………………………………………………… tidak semua harus berpusat padamu………………………………………………………… tapi itu yang terjadi………………………………………………………… aku tak bisa mengendalikan otak ini………………………………………………………… pikiran ini selalu melayang ke kenangan bersamamu………………………………………………………… sungguh kejam………………………………………………………… berkali-kali kau jatuhkan harapan………………………………………………………… berulang kalin kau hancurkan impian………………………………………………………… ku sudah menjauh………………………………………………………… tapi kau mendekat lagi………………………………………………………… meminta lagi………………………………………………………… untuk berjumpa………………………………………………………… kembali ku terperangkap………………………………………………………… kembali ku berharap………………………………………………………… kembali kuhancur………………………………………………………… kutatap matamu………………………………………………………… tak ada cinta di situ …………………………………………………………………………….

doaku yang terbaik untukmu sahabat………………………….

kepada sahabatku yang terkasih…………………………. terima kasih untuk selalu ada di sisiku selama ini…………………………. selalu menemaniku dalam kondisi apapun…………………………. bahkan dalam terpurukku…………………………. kau tidak pernah meninggalkanku…………………………. tak tahu lagi bagaimana caranya aku berterimakasih padamu…………………………. ingin kupeluk erat dirimu…………………………. namun kini kau tak lagi ada di sisiku…………………………. hanya dia yang bisa ku kirim untukmu…………………………. semoga kau bahagia di sana…………………………. semoga Dia mengerti semua apa yang telah kau lakukan untukku…………………………. semoga Dia mencintaimu seperti aku mencintaimu…………………………. doaku yang terbaik untukmu sahabat ………………………………….

aku lelah………………………….

jika ini baik untukku…………………………. biarkan aku di sini…………………………. jika ini tak baik untukku…………………………. ijinkan aku pergi…………………………. lain di bibir lain di hati…………………………. hatiku menjerit…………………………. ingin ku pergi dari sini…………………………. pergi yang jauh sekali…………………………. ke dunia antah berantah…………………………. dimana aku tak kenal siapapun…………………………. di sini tersiksa sekali…………………………. aku tak ingin tersiksa…………………………. aku ingin bahagia………………………………….…………………. aku ingin pergi…………………………. ingin kutemukan bahagia di luar sana…………………………. namun mereka berkata…………………………. kita harus selalu bersyukur…………………………. haruskah kusyukuri semua ini…………………………. haruskan aku menikmati derita ini…………………………. tak boleh kah aku mencicipi nikmatnya dunia…………………………. aku bingung…………………………. aku tersesat…………………………. aku lelah………………………….

yesterday………………………….

the suggestion is to fail the civil servant test…………………………. now the reason is to have a cooperation with her…………………………. if it is good…………………………. let it be…………………………. if it is bad…………………………. may she escape with your bless…………………………. with your help…………………………. in the name of lord…………………………. may you protect both of them…………………………. if he allows…………………………. he will make them not having bad intentions…………………………. he is the greatest…………………………. he will make miracles\…………………………. he will save both of them…………………………. he will make both of them having bright future ………………………….

The english class…………………………………………………………

The reality there are many………………………………………………………… The system said it is little………………………………………………………… I am confused………………………………………………………… I am annoyed………………………………………………………… I am angry………………………………………………………… I can do it properly………………………………………………………… In the name of lord………………………………………………………… All will be fine………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………… He will make all fine………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………… I will be nice to them………………………………………………………… I will be nice to the system………………………………………………………… I will be nice to people in the system………………………………………………………… All has reasons………………………………………………………… Including this………………………………………………………… He has plan for me………………………………………………………… I don’t know it yet………………………………………………………… But I am sure his plan is grand …………………………………………………………

so many shopping…………………………………………………………

in bali………………………………………………………… in online………………………………………………………… and i have to pay the workers too………………………………………………………… in the name of lord………………………………………………………… may he bless all the things I have done………………………………………………………… if he allows………………………………………………………… all of them will gave function in my life………………………………………………………… he is the greatest………………………………………………………… he will make miracles………………………………………………………… he will make me able o pay them all………………………………………………………… he will make me not waste all of them …………………………………………………………

me vs them…………………………………………………………

i dont have to show off my brain………………………………………………………… they do need to………………………………………………………… they should be independent………………………………………………………… and their independence must be reported………………………………………………………… so many reasons………………………………………………………… i am in this position ………………………………………………………… it means i do have the capability………………………………………………………… i am smart………………………………………………………… i understand………………………………………………………… i do grasp it………………………………………………………… in the name of lord………………………………………………………… I hope I am fine………………………………………………………… I hope they fine………………………………………………………… If he allows………………………………………………………… We will be fine………………………………………………………… He is the greatest………………………………………………………… He will make miracles………………………………………………………… He will make them fine………………………………………………………… He will make them clever………………………………………………………… He will make them understand………………………………………………………… He will make them nice …………………………………………………………

mra………………………………………..

scary stories……………………………………….. i think he destroyed lifes of two men……………………………………….. the one he loves……………………………………….. and the one his love cheated on ……………………………………….. from his side of story……………………………………….. he tried so hard to explain the reason……………………………………….. that he is good……………………………………….. as he wants to make his love in the right path……………………………………….. but from my perspective……………………………………….. he cant force that kind of thing to others……………………………………….. he may be allowed to ask others to join him……………………………………….. in his version of right path……………………………………….. i just cant believe what he did……………………………………….. i just pray for him……………………………………….. may he always well……………………………………….. may his purpose is always good……………………………………….. may he finds a right way to meet his purpose……………………………………….. may god open his eyes if he did wrong……………………………………….. may all people around him are fine……………………………………….. his ex……………………………………….. his ex's lover……………………………………….. his family……………………………………….. all of them……………………………………….. may god bless them all ………………………………………………..

20 feb 20 kamis…………………………………………………………………….

Hujan……………………………………………………………………. Car……………………………………………………………………. Kampus……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Wrg……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Lapak eror……………………………………………………………………. Alfa……………………………………………………………………. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………….

19 feb 20 rabu…………………………………………………………………….

Wrg……………………………………………………………………. Kampus……………………………………………………………………. Pulgasik……………………………………………………………………. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………….

18 feb 20 selasa…………………………………………………………………….

Kampus……………………………………………………………………. Lunch with momo mei dwi catur……………………………………………………………………. Kampus……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Lapak……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Ngajar malam……………………………………………………………………. Café with satria……………………………………………………………………. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………….

17 feb 20 senen…………………………………………………………………….

Wrg……………………………………………………………………. Kampus……………………………………………………………………. Took plastic……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Lapak……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Wilis k rumh……………………………………………………………………. Dian k rmh……………………………………………………………………. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………….

16 feb 20 minggu ……………………………………………….

Ped……………………………………………………………………. Jemput dian……………………………………………………………………. Belanja at harmony……………………………………………………………………. Took sprei……………………………………………………………………. Superindo……………………………………………………………………. Lapak……………………………………………………………………. Ped net……………………………………………………………………. Pul……………………………………………………………………. Alfa odol air rokok……………………………………………………………………. Allahuakbar…………………………………………………………………….