suddenly i sweat a lot..................................

it is a bad sign.................................. and i remember my dream last night.................................. i think i screa for real.................................. i shout 'thief' very loudly.................................. what is the meaning of this lord.................................. i am confused.................................. please explain.................................. i dont want to be curious.................................. i really dont feel good.................................. what happen.................................. i am afraid lord.................................. i hope i am fine.................................. i hope you protect me all the way.................................. always.................................. never stop.................................. it is scary.................................. this world is scary place.................................. and you create this.................................. and you put me here.................................. why ..................................

i dont know how.........................

but these two bring hot air......................... not in positive way......................... i do feel hot suddenly......................... it feels like in sauna......................... what is it......................... i hope i am fine......................... i hope these two dont give me negative vibe......................... they look fine......................... like couple......................... i hope they are couple......................... that would be nice......................... then they will give me impact......................... their love power gets over me......................... so i am infected......................... and i will have my own......................... and i will be happy......................... this one will last long......................... till the day i die......................... till death do us part......................... in the name of lord .........................

my lap is slow............…………………………………………………………

will ask help to him............………………………………………………………… hope he can help............………………………………………………………… and my lap will be fast again............………………………………………………………… that would be nice............………………………………………………………… that will make me happy............………………………………………………………… and I will use it properly............………………………………………………………… to make me close to you............………………………………………………………… thus you bless my lap............………………………………………………………… and it will last long............………………………………………………………… so I don’t have to spend a lot of money............………………………………………………………… to buy a new one............………………………………………………………… I must buy a new one............………………………………………………………… if it is easily broken............………………………………………………………… I hope you don’t break my lap............………………………………………………………… in the name of lord …………………………………

will I be sick again……………………………………….

I feel like it………………………………………. I hope it will not come true………………………………………. make me strong lord………………………………………. make me healthy lord………………………………………. make me happy lord………………………………………. soul and corpus………………………………………. I am tired lord………………………………………. tired of being sad………………………………………. tired of being disappointed………………………………………. tired of everything………………………………………. tired of soul and corpus………………………………………. I want to be happy………………………………………. lord………………………………………. I don’t want to suffer anymore ……………………………………….

what will happen tomorrow……………………………………….

will I join them………………………………………. will not I join them………………………………………. finally I join………………………………………. and all is fine………………………………………. thx lordv………………………………………. the beach………………………………………. the fishing spot………………………………………. the street vendor………………………………………. all is good………………………………………. hope it will happen again………………………………………. someday………………………………………. with his blessing………………………………………. with his help ……………………………………….

being watched when shop……………………………………….

hate that………………………………………. the first place did that………………………………………. the second one did that too………………………………………. promise to myself………………………………………. will never shop there again………………………………………. ever………………………………………. will shop in another place………………………………………. hope the new place will make me happy………………………………………. will make me comfortable………………………………………. will make me safe………………………………………. will have a lot of stuff………………………………………. will have the complete package………………………………………. will have hot staffs………………………………………. a lot of them………………………………………. and they will treat me nice………………………………………. and more ……………………………………….

there are five..................................

but in the end all is fine.................................. the first is.................................. the box is error.................................. but it suddenly works.................................. the second is.................................. my favorite spot is being taken.................................. although it is like that.................................. but i still get the spot.................................. the third is.................................. the net is very slow.................................. i just stay for a while.................................. my works are not finished.................................. the fourth is.................................. i didnt hear being called.................................. but i still get my drink.................................. thx lord.................................. the fifth is.................................. the customer gets angry to the staff.................................. but i block my ears.................................. i just pray for them.................................. the right gets his blessing.................................. the wrong gets his punishment.................................. in the end i go to movie.................................. make me happy.....................................

no power of authority..................................

no power of famous.................................. just the power of rightousness.................................. love that.................................. hope i can be like that.................................. do not want everything.................................. just the right things.................................. and i hope it is enough.................................. to make me satisfied.................................. to make me happy.................................. and do not make me angry to you anymore.................................. you are cruel.................................. if you make me sad.................................. if you lead me the wrong way ........................................

hilarious...........................

it is unusual that i am sad hearing she will go home........................... but the news did not come true........................... so i feel usual again........................... just like before........................... stay away at the most........................... now the news comes again........................... she said she will go home tomorrow........................... part of me feel sad........................... the other part feel happy........................... and pray for her........................... that she will be happy there........................... with pa........................... always getting along well ..............................………………………………………

i was very angry to that man..............................

the leader of the religion.............................. he said that.............................. lord intentionally give the wrong part.............................. to those who are stubborn.............................. when they had been given so many clues.............................. now i am angry to him.............................. as you are intentionally lead us the wrong way.............................. lead me the wrong way.............................. i am furious.............................. i hope you dont do that.............................. i hope you put me in the right path............................... i hope you give me happy ending

dear lord…………………………………………

from this day onwards………………………………………… i swear to myself………………………………………… to you………………………………………… that i will make myself happy………………………………………… no matter what………………………………………… no matter how many times i fail………………………………………… no matter how many times i cry………………………………………… no matter how many times i stumble………………………………………… i will always risa again………………………………………… and again………………………………………… to get my part on the spotlight\…………………………………………